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Emmalee Jun 2018
You followed me
From room to room
Asking what was next.
Was it the fight?
Was it the scowl?
Was it the tears?
Only I knew best.

I wish you knew
That when you followed,
I wept. I begged
For your effort
For your love
For back then.

You followed me
From room to room
Never asking what may be
The reason behind
My insanity,
My sorrow.

I wish you knew
That it was you.
Your empty heart,
Your black and blues.
Your hurtful words
Your hidden clues.

You followed me
From room to room
And never once
Did you say sorry.
Never once
Did you mean it.

I wish you knew
That I was broken
Into not one, but two.
I wish you knew
How far my feelings,
They flew,
For you, for this room.

I wish you had opened
A page or two.
Why did you never ask?
Emmalee Jun 2018
I wish you had wanted me
Half as much
As I wanted you.
I wish you had known
That your words, they stung
They were a bee's stinger to
Bare skin- they dug.
Those words dug,
Below the surface
Until bleeding occured.
I wish you had wanted me
Just one half as much
As I wanted you.
I needed you.
Emmalee Jun 2018
The average person
They take
Between 12 to 20 breaths per minute.
With you, I barely took 2.
I could not feel my breathing anymore,
I could not feel my breaths,
While tears shed from my eyes,
To my cheeks,
To my legs.
I could not feel anything.
I could not feel me.
Instead I felt sadness,
The loneliest and most empty feeling
One could imagine.
I felt suffocation.
And suddenly, those two breaths,
They turned into none.
And I did not feel myself anymore,
My self as a whole.
I was gone,
Gone like the last flower of summer.
Goodbye, my oxygen.
It would have only took one more tree, to keep me breathing.
Emmalee Sep 2017
He pulled me in a dark room,
Lightened by only the sparkle in his eye,
And quickly I awoke
From what I thought was a dream.

My eyes pondered at him,
Wondering where his next touch would be,
And my mind raced to find the zipper on his jeans.
And that was it.

Quickly, clothes poured like rain,
From the ceiling to the tiled floors,
In which I found myself so cold,
So bare against.

But the warmth of his body was all I needed
To satisfy me.
His heavy breath and subtle sighs
Left a trail of goosebumps just upon my thighs.

And my heart fluttered,
Or rather, it skipped a few beats,
When his precious waves,
Flew in so deep.

He was panting, waiting to turn
His waves into a hurricane.
But with a hurricane comes rain,
So he held back this desire.

As the pressure of the current
Became too intense to control,
He pulled back from his hurricane
And let it explode.
Emmalee Sep 2017
They say that home is where the heart is
But when has my heart ever steered me in the right direction?
I believe it to be that my heart has had its faults.
My heart has leaned me toward the past
And prevented me from moving forward.
My heart has betrayed me, loving someone
Who never, not once, loved me.

So how can I call something
I barely even know myself,
A home?

Home is where the heart is to some,
But to me, the heart is where I become numb.
Emmalee Sep 2017
He placed his hand around my neck,
He whispered, "say my name."
But the most confusing part is that
I didn't know his name at all.

Although I didn't know his name,
I didn't care in the very least.
I wanted his body, on top of mine,
Just like I had in my dreams.

He still gripped my neck,
But rather than fear,
Lust shivered down my spine
And my lips quivered for more.

My eyes filled with passion,
And my legs clenched in the air
As his whispers went from my neck
Down to my thighs.

What a high this feeling was,
What adrenaline this offered.
I admired the beauty of my fingers
Wrapped around his scalp.

And for a moment, just for one,
I lost myself.
Emmalee Sep 2017
I followed my heart
And it led me to you
But at the end of the road
You were cold and blue
You weren't awake
You weren't even you
Instead you were gone
And with wings you flew
You flew to the sky
You were becoming brand new
But my heart nearly sank
From losing you
I didn't realize
How much a person goes through
When losing the only one
That ever loved you
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