When I was hospitalized for suicidal ideations, I just thought about the suicides of youth in my area that I was personally affected by. Sometimes you feel so alone, and I wish we all could have been there for each other. I wish they were still ******* here and I'd do anything to bring them back.

She was too young. I wish I knew her.

When I was 11, a boy from my neighborhood and around my age was hit by a train. The story was that he had been walking and listening to music and didn't hear it coming. It terrified me that someone my age had died and I promised myself that I'd never forget him. Years later, I found out it was a suicide and had been covered up. I was suicidal at that age and it just deeply saddens me that he felt the way he did. I wish he was still here, or that I could have done something. I will do everything in my power to build a better future for other people struggling.

Tried to make it longer, but nothing beat the first stanza. All I can say is that I miss him and I hope one day it doesn't hurt.

I'm honestly doing a lot better now than I was before, but I think depressing sounding poems just come easily to me now xD

sonder: the realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as one's own.

Sometimes ideas come to me in class and I write them down fast to save for later. Kinda results in types of poems I actually enjoy.