Chest heaving and full,
air stretching your skin into a thin paper sheet.
A moment where you avoid your reflection,
until every piece of clothing is peeled off,
the cover cascading into silky wrinkles on the ice tile.
A moment when you finally meet your voided gaze.
eyes hardened,
decided, as your hands work through the memory.
A moment you dig into the thin paper until the fuel in your chest deflates,
red exudes and pools.
There is a moment when only pain matters,
the sting taking over and dulling your senses.
-A Moment like nothing else.
disclaimer: this isn't an attempt to romanticize self harm, just a way to cope with its nature.
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