The baby goat's mother was shot.
And I was forced to listen to it cry.
Forever forlorn and distraught
And i stood there- hands covering ears
Traveling back in time
----------------------------------------------------
Your mothers heart stopped
And I was forced to listen to you cry.
Lost in a huge world, more alone
And i stood there- hands covering ears

I heard you through the vents
"My mom is dead! My mom is dead"
Falling to the floor I wished I still dreamt
But she had called me before her bed

I heard her voice message months later
You still cried yourself to sleep at night
Sleeping with earplugs....I wish I didn't bake
Because I thought I killed her that night

Peanut butter cookies:
She taught me the recipe.
And two days before she vanished,
I brought her a dozen.
Autopsy reports showed an hour before death;
She took two bites of my cookies-
Went upstairs and her heart stopped.

Coincidentally exactly four years later,
I finally made peanut butter cookies again
And the smell of sweet peanut butter roasting
Stopped my heart

You spoke
  Hands on my hips
   Threw luscious
       Fingertips
  And malt
Flavored lips
   Always
      Only after
                       One
                            Two
                         Many
                               Sips

               What lies  
           In the lines  
       Had been spilt
            Many times      
                   Threw
          Lush's lips
   & *****
Fingertips
              Only
                      Ever
                          After
                      One  
                           Two  
                      Many
                           Sips

Your sorry
    And I agree
  But not with another
     Apology

i am just
trying to
forget you
and
my stupid heart
is playing vice versa
           -cute crazy-

now
i don't miss you
like
i used to miss you
   -cute crazy-

"i love you" - is
the forbidden word
to my soul and my heart
      -cute crazy-

Seeing you not being there
I just pretend I don't care
even though I'm aware
missing you is not fair
yet I missed you rare
thinking of you - where?
holding my teddy bear
sitting in my favourite chair
Dreaming you would be here
wiping my one last tear
waiting for you forever
           -cute crazy-

I am over you
      And
I am moving on.....