Days went by where electricity flies,
he makes my heart grow weak.
ping. ping. Constant response.
How bad could he be?

Date 1, my nerves are chilling.
How am I going to trust him?
Been hurt so deeply times before,
guard's kept up real high.

He's awkward and cute,
a little bit shy.
but he's got that charm.
Makes me swoon real deep.

Lunch was had, bowling after
competitive nature rose.
he hugged from behind and there it was.
Butterflies.

Date 2, at his home.
pizza, movies and cuddling.
This boy is sweet, kind, tender.
But i'm still on the fence to trust him.

I go to leave at the end of the night,
he stops me in my tracks.
His lips to mine, full of desire
I think i'm in trouble now.

He introduces me to his friends,
he's told them so much about me.
i heard his feelings were strong and true
I could barely hold my excitement.

That just maybe.

A month goes by, abnormal for me,
spent the night at his place.
passion, emotions, high not dry
I gave myself over. Hesitantly.

the next day i make my way home
there's a message on my phone
"i'm sorry i'm just not ready for this,
But you're great just know that"

My heart now crushed and on the floor,
I knew i shouldn't have trusted.
I feel so empty and dead inside,
He played and broke my emotions.

And once again i'm alone.

It's been a while, but you're recognized
from when we went to school.
You and I have hooked up before,
nothing of ****** relations.
But when you popped up on my screen,
I'll admit there was hesitation.

You push and push then suddenly pull,
don't know if it's a game.
but against my better judgement,
I swiped right anyway.
there you instantly shot a message,
and picked up where we left off.

Before i know it I'm in a car,
the windows are all fogged up.
Hands to my *******, I'm in your lap,
your lips leeched to my neck.
mind screams "No, what are you doing?"
But my body says "Pleasure me."

If that night wasn't enough,
we met the very next day.
Went back to his and like before
He had his way with me.
Guilty conscience plays repeat,
to this day I probably shouldn't have done it.

He pushed for plans where I didn't have time,
It was either work or moving.
Eventually told me he was done playing around,
but i thought *** was all he wanted.
Told him I was moving 6 hours away
That I couldn't hold that type of connection.

I haven't heard from him
nor have I seen him since
But now that I'm 6 hours away
I've lost all form's of connection
In a new town, filled with new people
It was crazy, but I felt lonely.

Nerves are running wild,
my breath is slightly hitched.
Anxiety's creeping up on me,
I can barely think.

Afraid of disappointment.
Afraid to disappoint.
One step before the other,
prepared for someone new.

He charms me with a smile,
then extends a hand.
My palms are getting clammy,
and my pulse is racing too.

The breeze flows in from the door,
the sun is shining bright.
Currawong's singing in the trees,
With the aroma of bitter coffee.

We breeze through introductions,
sit and chat for a while.
There I thought it was going well,
until he developed a temper.

With no good reason he seemed to snap,
started causing a scene.
Sinked so low into my chair,
of course this happened to me.

Some time passed, he calmed himself,
but i think i'd made my decision.
got to the end and he turned to me,
"We should do this again".

"I don't think this is going to work",
I said sorry then took my leave.