I was never good in Math,
never excelled in Science,
cheated on my Spelling test,
certainly never bothered trying my best.

I'm irresponsible and unapologetic,
I won't reply to your texts,
not because I'm busy,
but just because I'm that ******;

I'm very critical, with very angry thoughts.
Being in a cage has taken its toll,
From time to time,
I've let monsters and demons consume my soul.

Split second friendly fire,
Shield yourself from false desire.
You wake up with eyes bruised from a sleepless night.
You think of him and your last fight.
The empty spaces in your bed dances to his shape,
close your eyes, cover your ears,
attempt a futile escape.

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You wake up to a text message. You don't have to guess who it's from, the moment you read it is when positivity caves in. Suddenly it's as if the tornado from the night before was nothing but a mere gush of wind.

"Good morning I'm so sorry baby."

You expected him to say that. He always says that. An all too familiar cycle. You smile a bit and delay your reply, as if to make him think you don't care.

"I'm sorry too."

You had your chance
I gave you time
You gave me rhyme
I went away
You didn't ask me to stay
I found someone new
He is someone you knew
He's been my friend
Loved me till the end
Now I love him too
And I'm over you

my parents warned me about drugs on the street
and bad things,
but they forgot to tell me about
beautiful boys with blue eyes that cut deep,
and whose hands can take a soul,
oh god, how they forgot to tell me
how he’d make me feel

It scares me that you know
Exactly what I like
You see right though my i'm okay
And all the happy words I write
It scares me that you can
List things that make me laugh
Or the things that make me cry
And always break my heart
It scares me that you know
More about me than I do
And even more than I know
Everything about you
It scares me how much you care
When no one else does
When I am all by myself
With nobody else to love
It scares me how much I need you
To do the things you do
To stay always by my side
And to just be you

One year.
i'm still not enough
One month.
things are getting tough
One week.
time's passing by fast
One day.
can this even last?
One hour.
soon you will be gone
One minute.
at least it was fun
One second.
just one little glance
I wish**
i'll forget that dance