its alright if I am secondary to whoever comes before me.
its alright if you don't love me anymore.
Because I must, I must have a sine that sais 'use me'
And it must be my fault that you left.

Im sorry that I had a few morals, and I didn't want to have ***
Im sorry that I wanted to Waite till I was in my wedding bed.
And im sorry I made you do it, because my **** was my fault.
At least that's what you said.

Its not even a ****, I didn't **** you.
You never said no, you never told me to stop did you?
No I suppose your rite, I didn't tell you to stop.
You couldn't hear me after you covered my mouth.
And you couldn't see my face while tears rolled down.
And you didn't realize that the sounds coming from beneath your hands were my cry's for help.

I guess your rite, it wasn't a ****, because you wont admit it Im the one to blame?
No Not this time this wasn't my fault.
My parents still love me, what will yours think when they see you locked up behind bars like a vault.
because again I suppose my **** was my fault.

The thinnest of eyelids manage to cover the most intimidating pair of eyes
Not exactly white but pure still
Dark makeup figments line her lashes from root to edge
Eyebrows always the same curve
Reminiscent of basic architectural lines
How does she get them the exact way every single day?
A single piercing was never enough. No no. She even speaks of nose and lower lip rings. Who's to say she doesn't have a secret hole?
Well, if she does, finding it would mean going too far
She'll disagree but brighter colored lipsticks flatter her sunny skin shade better than dark gothic tones
She's better suited to a sunny beach than a dark alley
Bananas and peaches than walnuts and chocolate
But she disagrees
Her calm demeanor tells a lot but I know better
The tribal-designed choker on her neck says something different
Her hair runs all the way down. From her bold shoulders to her fragile back past her apple bottoms to the curved cups behind her knees
Sway
Sway
But she hates me

My obsession with her is such a clear menace
To serenity, hormones are all over the place
I see her fiery soul...
I see her fiery soul.
My intuition is battling all my inhibition
"Abort the mission", she's battling with her indecision
I see her fiery soul...
I see her fiery soul.
They say innocence lost is never retained
It's deeper than lust, it's pleasure and pain
My brain says I should slowly refrain, my heart tells me I can do it again
It's Fvckd up

May the things we say never haunt us
May the ones we love never wrong us
And if we do, that they forgive us

We Pray

i am all but confused
My shadowy thooughts dance under the rain while a part of basks in sunlight.
I am all but empty
I claim satifaction with an all rounded sense of hungered.
i am all but vain
I bath in my glory yet to be proven to mankind

Where does my motivation and depression come from?
i fear that i canot tell.. a pity
In love i am tenderly caressed but with fleeting values
In bitterness, i am a wounded lioness seeking revenge,
hurt but with a focus.

I am tempted to ask myself,
where does thy motivation come from?
From the posionous romance of shakespeare?
From words abouts the sullen hull?
From temptations of the daffodils?
From the pain thst lurks therein?
From the sweetness of nature's gift?

Sadly, as i reminisce my past inspirations
I who was oce dull, tentatively recall the forms in which they came
From the bitterness and Sweetness of my heart.

I tried to be the best I could
It wasn't enough for you.
I lied to myself thinking you would
It wasn't enough for you
I tried to bring you a sense of adventure
It wasn't enough for you
I cried cause it stings to lose you forever
I wasn't enough for you
I tried to awaken my sleeping romantic
It wasn't enough for you
I tied him down when he became a fanatic
It wasn't enough for you

I tried to be a light hearted friend
Yet in the end it was your own feelings that,
Pouring like honey liquor down the back of my stem,
Grew this black flower, now rotting within.

You claim to not be ready to love
You were never enough for me
Your lame justice excuses all the above
You were never enough for me
You claim that you know what I want
You were never enough for me
Your brain never received my thoughts
You were never enough for me
You claim to have been hurt in the past
You were never enough for me
Your history bled into our caste
You were never enough for me

You claim to see it in my eyes, that
There's tears streaming between your thighs,
And though my aim was clear, your fear remains
To no avail, my words fall towards hell's domain.

I thought you were the one who was going to stand by my side through our lifetime. I thought you'd always hold me late at night when the demons came. I thought you would laugh when I said something funny. Now we barely speak and your holding her at night instead of me. Your walking through life holding her hand instead of mine. How am I supposed to breathe now when your not breathing with me.

I hate the person I used to be, I hate the person I've become.