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I'm fine
I'm fine
maybe if I say it out loud
it won't be a lie
my heart is dying
I'm always crying
why can't life be simple
why do good things always crumble I wish I could spend forever by your side
But these feelings inside me
I can no longer hide
I know it will fade
But its taking too long
And I don't know what to do
my sanity is gone
please please
see she is wrong
and please hurry
before I am all gone
I can't be around her
I've said this before
the two faced *****
a blood ******* monster
I can be fine
but I can't be ok
still I can fake a smile
if only for your sake
with her around
I can't be happy
too many memories
so much worry
I can't deal with her presence
but I don't want to be apart
and I can see the only way out
is a bullet through my heart
 Apr 2014 Alexis
Molly
When I used to have bad nights,
I would lie awake and cry,
curled up in a ball on my side
clutching a blade so hard my knuckles were white
trying to fight
but I didn't know which voice was mine.

Fall asleep too late,
in my dreams I would suffocate
and have bloodshot eyes when I'd wake,
but reassure my mom with my arms around her waist
yeah, I'm great.


Now when I have those evenings,
I try to keep from screaming,
but I can still feel your heart beating
when I read your messages that I can't bear deleting,
and I write all these texts to you that I'm not completing
because I told you to go away but I hadn't planned for your leaving.

Close my eyes when the darkness recedes,
the nightmares are always you and me
and I take Tylenol to make your memory leave
but my hands are red and they will never be clean
*I'm sorry for the times I made you bleed.
I'm not very good at rhyming.
 Apr 2014 Alexis
Gabrielle Magana
They say falling in love is not easy, but all it takes is a shot glass glance, and no sooner than later you’ll look at her profile in the dim light, and you’re in love.

Everything then becomes crimsoned, not because you are in a pub,
but rather because it is the shade of passion,
love.
And no sooner than now, you are dreaming of throwing your hands beneath her dress,
and thinking of mouthing, “I love you” from your eyes, to hers.

But no, she does not walk up to you, and you feel that the stereotypical misconception of a woman never making the first move, is true.

This is a man’s work, you tell yourself, dubiously forgetting what too lies between your legs, is nothing that of a man.

You’re intoxicant now, perhaps from the four Pabsts you've downed because you’re cheap and cool,
and you are incoherently waltzing
on over to her, and of course she smiles,
either because you look like an idiot,
or because she is charmed.

You cup your hands on her face.
The skin is soft, she says nothing,
but feels warm.

This is not love. You’re just drunk.
I wish I was who you think of, when drunk.
 Apr 2014 Alexis
Molly
Our best night was the night my phone broke.
We had to message each other on Facebook
so we looked through each other's old pictures
and bragged about our relationship status to our friends.
That was the night I called you from the home phone
and I laughed when you told me you once ate human flesh
and I laughed harder when you said
you're supposed to be scared.
That was the night I sent you a poem I found online
and you replied with the most honest profession of love
I have ever heard without using the word love.
That was the night we stayed awake until 5am
even though you had to get up at 6.
I could've sworn I loved you.
I could've sworn you loved me, too.
The flashbacks are breaking my heart.
 Apr 2014 Alexis
J
Hunger.
 Apr 2014 Alexis
J
I wanted to be    
      With him all the  
                      Time, wanted the            
         Taste of his lips
          On mine, his    
                   Roaming fingers
    On my
                   hungry skin.

His fire
                          to thaw  
                                    my
                                                ice.
 Apr 2014 Alexis
Instrospect
There are moments.
I want to scream
Your name
Out loud
Not so everyone could
Hear
But so I could
Loud and clear
To let it surround me
To remind me of
Your eyes
Your smile
The awkward
The lovely
You are
All these things
To me
You are
Who you are
I would drown in
Your ocean
Just to breathe
Your air
To bask in
Your sunshine
I would scream
Your name
Out loud
So I might feel,
Somehow
You could
Surround
Me.

-D.D.
For moments I wish you were near.
 Apr 2014 Alexis
Marly
psychology
 Apr 2014 Alexis
Marly
understanding the human mind just teaches us how to manipulate it better.
a reason why i don't like shrinks.
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