You have a gift,
my lovely monster.
I get to own you in the dead hours of night,
all mine and rough and ravenous for pounding blood
and heated touches.
Words are putty in your claws,
my lovely shadow, chasing my body, so close.
They are malleable, leaky,
drizzling sweetness and love in sugary promises.
They crack apart when I reach to see if they are real.
Days are completed journeys, changing sides of your heart,
my lovely animal.
Softened heart melting in my fingers, wrapping my body one day
and bruised and brittle red glass leaving blood marks
painting crude patterns and ruptured brutal bursts on beaten skin.
She just doesn’t know how beautiful she is…
Through anything, I need to hear it, I need to be here…
You make me feel like I never have before…
I love you and I need you right now…
My body wants to wrap around you, when the shadows return
to rest along my lonely cold walls.
I devour your words, hungry and lustful, tempting,
the juice and hope of them leaves gloss on my lips.
I remind myself dazed and sleepily to lock your words in today’s box.
They can be shelved; raised and at once forgotten among the other
treasures you give me.
Each day is a new box my dearest monster.
I cradle and store your words like delicate porcelain,
only usable for one single day.
Only clean for one slim moment.
Right now I curl beneath you,
the smell of you stains my skin and littered clothes.
You breathe on me.
Your words are crashing noise; they ring and slice the air,
my head splits and my eyes weep salty remnants of your words.
Cleansed and rid of the filth you breathe into them,
your tongue that slithers through my parted lips, scorching my throat.
Your hands cold and threatening,
I can taste the dusty feelings you shed, like dead skin
flaking away its layers.
The words you mouth just spread ash around me, circles my body
like a dead hearth.
You never meant them.
They cover the frightening parts of you I can finally see-
Rip.
Seams exposed and blood making its slow passage to the floor.
I feel its sticky pool beneath me, my back lies wet and limp in your hand.
A husk bleeding out.
Lead me on and take what’s yours.
My heart. It hurts. It shrivels in the wake of your betrayal.
Stung and stopped,
you crawl off your prey.
Leaving it to be scavenged in the dark to come.
My lovely monster.
Come back.