oh dear heart,
save yourself.
will you not sing yourself to sleep
humming wishes you thought you wouldn't make.
will you not step into territory
you know you should avoid.
will you not believe words over actions
because you want to trust in pretty little lies.

I'm pretty sure
you don't exactly want to hear this
coming from me
but whether you believe it or not,
my heart goes out to you
and it will always care,
it just ***** at reaching out

it’s like I’m addicted to pain
not because it brings me joy
or because it dissolves numbness
but because I find myself drawn to it
like a radar for gut-wrenching thoughts
eating me up alive
before I can spit them out

I will show you
exactly what it feels like
to drown
when you’re not underwater
to fly
with two feet on the ground
to smile
with no memory of how to
and to lie
and get away with it
because it’s just what other people want to see
and all they’ll ever believe

I'd wanted to kiss you all evening
and your eyes on my mouth whispered it, too
The world span out of its stunned axis
and into our heavy laps in a beautiful way
I'd love to feel it again
Would love for you to throw me around
I don't care if it'll mean a hurricane