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Feb 2019 · 208
Seraphim
Jay Feb 2019
I want to go home.
I never liked this rotten earth
Its hungry, grabbing hands
Scraped psalms into my palms
Tore feathers from my tattered back
And little by little
devoured them all.

My halo broke.
shine long swallowed by rust-
decay, dust-black with greed
Comes creeping in a dream
To hide what little shine is left
And little by little
Black out my heart.

A quiet hymn.
I wrote all on my own
I screamed it to the ceiling
And carved it to my bones-
Deep inside my skin, inside my soul
But little by little
I’m forgetting the words.
Maybe if I spam all my poetry it’ll be like I never left :’)
Feb 2019 · 164
Hey there, stranger
Jay Feb 2019
For your lips
To press against mine
A little moment
Away from the chaos
A little breath
Star-light to my heart
A little touch
Blue thrum in my veins
Oh,
My love
I’d walk a mile
Hahahaaa I haven’t posted in six months
Oct 2018 · 139
Tsunami
Jay Oct 2018
It’s ok, It’s just my heart
I whispered to the mirror
With no one there
to dry my tears
Except my wry reflection

Words will never break my bones
Although they’ll always hurt me
I’ve cried the ocean
Shore to shore
But somehow I’m still floating.

I clung to jagged rocks of
pain
So that I wouldn’t drift
And although the waves tore to the bone
They couldn’t break my grip

I’d rather die than be alone
But sometimes I can’t hide
From the tsunami born of emptiness
That gnaws at my insides.
My mind has drifted far away.
Oct 2018 · 152
New Rules
Jay Oct 2018
BLOCK IT ALL OUT.
SING TO SILENCE
******* TONGUE
GIVE IN TO VIOLENCE.
BURN ALL THE ART
BREAK THE BANK
DESTROY MY HEART
TIL I’M ME AGAIN.
Scatter its bones.
Bind the hands.
Blind its eyes
Remove the fangs
Turn the hurt
Into something new
Close my eyes
Hide the light from you.
A new beginning.
Sep 2018 · 622
Come Back.
Jay Sep 2018
There was something innocent in his touch
It was if he
Found something in me
That he'd been thirsting for
It was if he
Was losing himself
And didn't care.
And oh
I loved him, I loved him
In that moment I loved him and
I didn't want to let him go.

I want to feel you again.
Jay Sep 2018
I don’t want to love anybody. But you make it hard.
I’m always
Obstinate,
Walls so tall i hardly remember what’s underneath
But little by little, I’m cracking apart
If I could tell you what I want to say
When i cut my words off at the tongue

It would sound like

I don’t want to write love poems anymore. But you make it hard.
My fingers itch to find the words my mouth cannot;
Oh!
if I could tell you the things I think
When that crooked smile turns me into Sunlight

It would sound like

I don’t want to feel anything. But you make it hard.
Even on my emptiest days I can’t help

That painful trembling in my chest
That anticipates your touch,
And oh, if you knew the golden, honeyed heat
That spreads through me each time we meet

It would sound like
A little prayer
A little wish
For you to love me too.
I just wish I could tell you how I feel.
Sep 2018 · 238
elegy
Jay Sep 2018
I want to rot
Iike dry-bone roses
poetic
pathetic
leaf litter
tread on me
til I return
to dirt

my purpose is rot.
Sep 2018 · 431
Storm's Song
Jay Sep 2018
The rain hangs pregnant in the air
I pray the storm down on my skin

Wind whips like vine into my eyes
Grass shivers, dancing to the time
Of the downpour to come.

"Wash away that day, those tears-"
I beg- the sky obliges, wild
With thunder, shattering and white;

Lightning sends forked tongues screaming down
To kiss the earth he’s missed so long.

The heavens, sudden rip apart
Down comes a sea in hues blue-grey

Great awful shadows dance above
Shrouded in banks of mist and haze

I close my eyes and waterfalls
To bring life back in to me.

I shriek and the sound of my joy
Is swallowed by the clouds

A song the rain sings back to me
Raised to the heavens tenfold.

I really like rain ****
Sep 2018 · 157
To Fall in Love
Jay Sep 2018
I felt warm in your arms.
Your breath brushed mine
Like a lullaby
I stared up at a strange ceiling
But I'd never felt more
At home
The nightmares howled at the windows
But they couldn't get in.
I was safe

Steady eyes kept me grounded
Your lips were
Pillow-soft against my smile
Sweet, tracing sun-speckled skin
I wish I had held you closer.
I wish I could have told you
That for the first time in a long time
I slept whole
I slept well
And dreamed
Of you
I wish I could have loved you longer.
Sep 2018 · 542
A Concept
Jay Sep 2018
I lay my head in your lap and you play
With the little hairs at the back of my neck
Cool room
Warm skin
Cool sheets
Warm breath

The air tastes like you
And me
And us kind of
Intermingled

There’s food in the fridge
And plants on the windowsill
And my clothes wrapped up in yours
And maybe a baby one day
But not yet

For now
I lay my head in your lap
And you play with my hair
And everything is okay
A dream I had.
Sep 2018 · 255
Withdrawal
Jay Sep 2018
Loving you is like smoking cigarettes
I’m addicted to death’s caress
Smoothing down my lungs
Cold nicotine like morphine
Cold lips consume me
You’re killing me and I’m *******
Addicted
You
You left cigarette burns on me when you left You lit me on fire
Then cast me away
Without a thought
How many times will I kiss you again? Your mouth tastes like sweet
Sweet
Tar
Am I good for you?
I just want to be good for you.
You sink beneath my skin
You stain
You rot
And yet you pull me back each time
Are you the Devil come hot from hell?
Or a rain soaked cigarette
Clasped between my shaky, clammy fingers I burn myself with the lighter
And breathe in anyway
I fell too far and broke my heart.

— The End —