Desperation eats at my soul
As I constantly want for more likes
More notices
But when they never come
My mind clouds with the possibility
That they never will
And no one will ever notice
When I have gone
And where I went
I plead with desperation to the world
'Accept me, accept me!
For I am just human
I am just like you!
Please accept me
if it's the last thing you do!'
But I have learned
That not everyone is in agreement with my personality
And not everyone will find a way to accept me
But the people I love
Have accepted me and all my flaws
And for that I am grateful
But I still have all that desperation

I am a rocky terrain
With no hospitality to human life
A vast desert too harsh
For life to prosper
Let alone survive
I am a river with
Rapids flowing white
Better to not look at me
For fear of being swept away
I am a sharp glass
With a beautiful edge
Leave me alone
I'm hazardous

I sit alone at the table
I watch as my friends walk past
Failing to meet my soft gaze
Do I look pretty to you?
Or do I just look
Like something that you've never seen?
Why do you look at me so,
When you know you have no feelings
For me, other than to loathe?
Can I ever be loved
By a person who knows?

I see the couples making out in the halls
Their passion bigger than their egos
Which are big enough to cover the earth
In one fell swoop
Darkening everyone's door step
But not a single person will look at me
For I fear that I am ordinary
Just another person in the crowd
Unseen to the naked eye
Can I ever be loved?

For I know that you'll never share my feelings
You'll always fail to meet my gaze
When I bump into you,
You'll be repulsed to the point of running away
Surrounding yourself with danger
Is not going to keep love away
But it has for me
And now I want to give way
To the possibility
That the danger will never fade

Can I ever be loved?

Today,
a cloud has weeped for me,
she poured her tears upon my
face and washed my wounds

People call the
sky’s tears as rain,
but my tears are salty
and dripping with pain

Sadly I am unable to say
That I never felt this way before
Scared, alone, isolated
But all of the feelings have become a part of me
Like how roots are apart of the tree
That gave birth to a thought process
Bigger than anything we could have ever known
Sadly for some of us, this thinking is hell
But if I were given a choice
To be able to think, to breath,
To hear, and to see
And never to ever think
I would rather be blind
Because then I could see the world
Through unclouded eyes

I watch as fear takes hold on your face
The realization of what is to come
Something dark and twisted
Straight out of a science fiction novel
That something might be as bad
As it was on the news
Nothing so horrible
Worse than the words spilling from your lips

The emotion of the past
Starts to build up in your eyes
As I wonder how I am here
Writing about the fear that you feel
Looking into the distance
Knowing everything will be alright
As ash starts to fall from the sky
Another sign that problems will arise
Nothing has ever seemed so real
It was all just a twisted realty
Trust me I never meant to hurt anyone
The words of all the people who want to apologize
Before they are up to bat
To never really got to live long enough to last

The photograph stares back at me
With gleaming animal eyes
I wonder what thoughts
Dare to survive in his mind
Thoughts about me
That should be quickly shunned away
But linger just long enough for pain
As tears bite at my eyes
I wonder where you went
The man in this photo
Is no longer the person that you are
And everything is worthless
A useless map
Guiding me to places unknown
Places with a lack of hope
And overflowing with wishes
To bring back the dead
But that would be to easy
Waving your hand to bring back the person that you were
Nothing could bring back the man in this photograph
Not a single word could change your mind
And anything could be done to change mine