even if the name is not yours,
it still belongs to you

i've gasped enough of the air you breathe
to know that you will always choose
to suffocate me

the red string was cut by your shaking hands
and while i sat there watching the string fall
i wondered to myself
"what have i done"

our fate was set by a being we don't know
but you took my chances away
so i thought to myself
"who will love me now"

you pulse through my skin

you spill out of my eyes

you grow inside my lungs

you strain my movements

you lock yourself against my chest

i am filled with burning hatred
corrupted by isolation

torn down by satanic nails
cat scratches and bites of a tiger

my nose bleeds black
eyes glossed over with open veins

the lungs i've built to perfection
have been covered in chains

do not confuse who i am
because i am no longer soft

he ruined my smooth skin
and replaced it with thorns

you don't look me in the eye
when you say you love me
anymore

yet i will continue to wait
for the day you smile again
at me

just like the days
you truly wanted me

i crave you so much
my lungs can't breathe at night

the wanting and waiting
are taking over my sanity

i want to feel your fingertips
on my skin and in my chest

why don't you need me as much
as i need you