I never knew of less
Until I went for more
I never knew of peace
Until I left for war

I never knew of death
Until I saw some life
I never knew of refuge
Until I found some strife

                   I never knew
                         Until
               I made things right

I know of love
Because it made me strong
I know of hate
Because it made me wrong

I know of honor
Because I believe in integrity
I know of lies
Because I refuse respectfully

                  I know, because
                         I chose
                      Goodnight

The way you carry yourself is an art
Minimal clean and full of bravado
And as we walk through department store hell
I think I'm beginning to see you past first impression nausea
Past the want of my own skin
Last weekend came as fresh snow red wine and attitude
And though the roads were slick I couldn't keep my mind off of you
Grey green boy
Your scent lingers still even if you only stayed for an hour
I can feel you laughing in my ear light and warm
You quote song lyrics and smirk while the pastor drones on
I can feel you
even through the wall between our seats
I can feel you
And I wonder if you feel me too or if it's just another sort of sickness that comes with an overly romantic mind and a restless eye
Grey green boy I wanted you before you were mine
That is to say,
If you're ever mine
So for now you are art and I observe you
Through the museums of the millennial
Windows left open late at night
Longing is a mess.

pain
In you i found solace
In you i found comfort
In you i found everything i knew

pain
I have known you the longest
I have lived with you always

pain
I have known you since i was a young girl
before the world stripped me of my innocence
When i thought everything was pure.

pain
I have been engulfed in your maze,
Years and years of trying to escape,
But to my dismay i keep failing.

pain
You are me and i am you ,
The day i met you
everything turned so blue.

pain
I struggle to tear you away,
you keep chasing my happiness away.

pain
You came at my darkest hour,
but now ,
Even at my brightest you remain.


// 26 - 9 - 15

Go ****** your eyes over a photograph, it won't be enough to bring her back
Push your fingers through her heart, it won't be enough to make it restart
Tear your teeth into her cold hand, it wont be enough to make her feed you again

The fire in my heart
burning bright
with lust and passion
I conquer love unknown
my soul aflame
sparks fly
and ashes rain
I am lit up from the shadows
a phoenix
reborn
ignited by your love