Tears appear in eyes-
to invoke a pained life
flowing in heaps.

Trails of blood,
Enclosed containers,
Riots on the street,
Resonating slowly in different cities and countries,
Overt terror,
Rapidly spreading,
Igniting flames on buses and buildings,
Scarring hearts of people,
Massacres in huge numbers.

Terminating innocence and replacing them with ****** flesh,
Orating words so full of pride and hate,
Daggers and guns being used mercilessly,
Assaulting the peace treaty,
Y**et they seem to be happy.

The day I first opened my eyes,
I saw thee in love and peace,
That was the first time I felt in need,
Through my lifes venture you've been there no matter what I say,
So I just like to say,
Thanks for always being there,

The endless support,
The showered love,
The give and take,
The kisses you planted on my face,
I just like to say,
Thanks for always being there,

The rough and tough times,
The putting our relationship on stake,
My moods and argument that you had to bear,
The times I remember the things I said I'd never imagined myself say,
So I just like to say,
Thanks for always being there,

Your love unconditional,
That I'm sure because my heart says,
I love you to the moon and stars,
I know I'm pretty stubborn so I never say,
I just like to say,
Thanks for always being there,

Reminiscing each and every thing,
Recalling all the past incidents that took place,
If I had a time machine I'd take it away,
I'm sorry for all those things that disrupted the once gleaming ray,
Finally I'd just like to say,
Thanks for always being there.

I can't face people,
Or share my fears with others,
I write because that's the one thing I'm good at,
I get to express my feelings.
When I look in your eyes,
I get lost in their depths,
But by penning it down I find ease.
When I write,
It feels as if it's only me and my paper's.
Filling all the pages with my black ink.
I feel proud of my capabilities.

Love is all he wants,
But he doesn't know I want,
Promises and lies is all he does,
Justifications is what he thinks are must,
Why doesn't he understand,
That he is not what I planned,
I don't want him in my life,
But all he wants to consider is his future wife,
It is obnoxious to even imagine,
He wants a response in reaction,
His pleading has made me sick,
He wants me to say 'yes' in a blink,
It's not  possible,
The two of us are not compatible,
Sense and humor has faded,
And only what left behind is to be aided,
Please have mercy,
And let me live in a journey of peace and eternity !

Hoisting flags everywhere,
Houses lit with lighting,
Crowd of patriots,
Celebrating this day in high spirits,
23rd March is the date,
A round of applause to our leaders,
Who put in all efforts,
Who built a new state,
To live as free citizens,
Free in an independent democratic state,
Praise Him, Almighty Allah,
As He has bestowed upon us a remarkable blessing,
A new state, Pakistan!
The love of everyone,
A peace loving country,
With a strong and patriotic army,
And an intellectual and hard working nation,
A salute to the nation and Pakistan army !!!

The sun dawns,
In variance of vibrant colors to the sky,
A mixture of colors merging together,
Like water colors in scheme,
Bright and sharp,
Giving an edge to it,
The scenic sun,
The red radiant sky,
Spreading it's rays throughout,
The beauty of the sky,
Such an enchanted sight.

Autumn ends,
Leaves start falling,
Defoliated,
Scattered on the ground,
Different shades of yellow and green,
The colors so vibrant,
Fruits almost ripe,
And trees not so shady,
Time flies by and then come winters.

The lonely dark nights,
The cold winter breeze,
And swirling of the wind,
Afar the fields and meadow I see only fog,
In this black misty weather,
Droplets rise from the dew grass,
In the farthest range I see only shadows,
Shadow of trees,
The incandescent light in the street dimly illuminated,
Strolling down the path,
I try to keep from stumbling,
A path so vague,
Without a torch I see no survival,
The foxes come and wipe the quietness,
The sound of grasshoppers synchronized,
Winter is coming, to be precise.

The ghastly shadow of the night,
Taking over me like a blanket,
Covering up my dark side,
Making it even darker than last night,
What is it about the dark?
Whenever i'm under this cover,
I feel lonesome and deprived,
The feelings of being single hit me bad,
Is this what it feels like?
To be lonely and broken from the inside,
Looking at people connect,
Their lives so blessed,
Mine, not so bright,
Getting darker by every night,
Now even the stars that spread the sky,
Make things seem so high to reach,
And dark to preach,
Is it just me lagging behind?
Or is there someone else left behind,
The loneliness scares me,
But the light of the sun merries me,
Now that again,
I write this poem as the suns gone,
I feel darker but strong,
As still there is life in me,
That's holding in that spirit,
That I now share with you,
As within the next two hours,
The sun will rise.

O Draconian devil,
Oh lame saint.

What's the point of everything ?
When you see the beauty of this world,
The stars, the galaxy,
Well the whole universe,
Whats the point of science and technology,
What's the point of all of it?
When we don't believe that there's God.
He's in our soul,
He's always on the lookout for all of us,
Showering His blessings upon us,
He has given us respect,
He has given us chances,
We have sinned,
We have gone astray from His path,
Still He is with us,
Giving and forgiving,
Thank God for what He's given us,
For there's nothing more precious than His love !

My heart elevated once,
Synchronizing with your heart beat,
Enveloped and engraved in the fullest,
With each beat my heart would race,
Indeed.

Once the gushing emotions reached their peak,
You left me on the verge to decease,
Shattered mentally and emotionally,
Like an ashen or crumpled piece,
Never mind thee.

Captivated by such grandeur,
Perpetual hypnosis, holding in amaze-
your refinery,

Soft and fragile on the inside,
Dazed, I examine your beautification,
How man has decorated you with jewels and gems, guarded by angels,

Shaped to perfection,
Your structure radiates awe,
Bound limitless it shackles my fate,

How you entice every being,
With such power you break me through,
And I fall down on my knees and pray, that someday I come to you,

Pray in your presence,
To the One who created this universe,
Hoping to die there and being a part of such Holiness.

The raging flame,
That leaves behind havoc,
The deceased have all the prayers from us,
People that expired were a lot,
The forest summoned the firefighters,
Asking them to help the people in need.
The flames could be diminished,
But the gas cylinder caused destruction,
So many bodies,
So many coffins,
So many people crying for justice.
This was not but an accident,
An evil man was behind this,
It was a game,
To make these innocent people pay !

The water thrusts my body away,
As I walk towards the gushing sea,
The tides start rising,
I can see the sunset,
Beneath my feet I feel an object,
Something that I had been waiting for,
Coming everyday to the beach just for this object,
I pick up the object,
Cleaning all the mud from it,
Finally I received the message bottle.
The last letter that my love sent to me,
I remember feeling tears,
I was so excited,
I ran home and wrote a response,
For days I waited,
Then I found out he had died.
The tragedy started pouring out of my eyes,
How beautiful were the rhythm of his words,
They would make my pen dance in response.

In vengeance I await for you to come,
Oh my disciples,
He is the man we're looking for,

The atrocious smug I've been waiting for,
Slowly, steadily I will make him pay,
Cut his wrist and slit his nape,

The blood he spilled,
The thousands of people he killed,
Oh God ! I promise you I'll make him pay,

His dark and hideous face,
His target-y gaze,
Don't you worry my dear, he shall pay.

As she walks down the memory lane she feels like she is neglected,
Repenting on her previous sins and feeling the pain,
It rushes in her veins like lightning bolt struck on her heart,
She feels lonely and knows she can never get her scars healed,
She feels empty and mortified by society,
But how tell everyone the nights she spent without him,
Trying to move on and filling the spaces in her heart,
She'd feel her body go numb the second she'd think of him,
Shedding tears of sorrow and rage that she had kept to herself,
How tell people how much she had to go through,
No one knew or understood her,
Instead of complaining she kept it to herself,
The moments she had spent waiting for him to come back,
She would plead for him to come back,
Even though she knew it was impossible, still she went on,
Those endless nights,
Crying and yearning for his love,
Wanting more from him,
But he just left without a reason knowing the pain that would afflict her,
She felt hurt and miserable,
Her friends would say she is crazy,
She herself knew she was stupid going after something that she could never have,
She now knew how insensitive love is,
So rather than craving for more she avoids getting caught up in this wistfulness,
She moves on getting over her grudges and learning a lesson out of it,
Standing up on her feet and not caring about others,
For the first time she feels alive,
She feels humane and beautiful inside,
Even though she can never forget what she had,
Knowing how exquisite it was for her,
She will forever treasure her memories.....

Smoking loops-
Under the moonlight she lay,
Gazing at the stars-
That shined so ever bright,

She felt lonely and pained,
Not because of love,
But because of 16 years of ongoing deprivation,
She had no one to confide in,

A friend would've been nice,
Family would've been better,
But it was just her-
And that stupid orphanage,

She had to cope with her fears,
Had to live with idiots,
People trying to harm her in ways,
Or even people who would judge her,

She tried innumerable times to commit suicide,
But there was no point,
What was she getting anyways,
No one to even shed a tear as they'd take her body away.

Walking down the hallway,
bam
**** !!! I hit my toe nail.

Her serene voice,
And her beautiful smile,
Her torquise eyes,
Shining so bright,
Under the moonlight we stand,
Hand in hand,
I kneel down on my knee,
Asking her will you marry me,
She accepts my proposal,
And honestly from that day onwards,
I sleep in peace.

There was once a man so bright,
Who led a nation full of might,
He worked day and night,
Earned respect but never showed pride,
His motto was to 'work, work and work'.
His dedication so strong,
Could convince a person what's right or wrong,
His words so deep,
Could awaken the nation from their sleep,
This magnificent personality is no other than Muhammad Ali Jinnah.
Thank you sir for everything you have done :)

Drip drop, drip,
The rain falls at pit,
Deepening the holes within,
Washing away the dirt,
And sprinkle the sand,

The runny mud,
That brushes the edge of my Jeans,
My hands that trace the mud on my shirt,
How fun is it to play in the rain,

*Drip drop, drip,
The rain falls at pit,
Deepening the holes within,
Washing away the dirt,
And sprinkle the sand,

You and I hand in hand,
Walk down the path where trees are hanging low,
The branches entwining like our fingers,
Such a scenic view with my head resting on your shoulder,

Drip drop, drip,
The rain falls at pit,
Deepening the holes within,
Washing away the dirt,
And sprinkle the sand.

Sitting in front of the window,
Sinking deeper and deeper into my thoughts,
Clasping my hands together on my lap,
I gazed outside observing my surroundings,
Was it that obvious?
Was I the only person not aware of the situation?
My eyes focused on a bud as it started to close in the sunset,
It was not only an encounter,
Drawing myself away from the chair,
I know it may not seem that clear,
Slide opening the window,
I collected my thoughts and shouted at the top of my lungs,
We were and are destined to be together !!!

The sound of the sea-
The water gushing effectively,
Hazardous and frightful.

Dancing silhouettes,
Awaking the dead,
As they pass the forbidden,
They enter a ghastly looking place,
Trees envelope the darkness in there blanket,
Walking deeper and deeper into the jungle,
Slowly the clouds start to disappear,
Voices of predators hunting their prey,
Cold blood everywhere,
Eluding the lonely jungle,
Dwelling into the souls,
Within the forests territory,
A dark looking monster lives,
Afar the trees,
In a tiny cottage,
Where only a chimney expels such hate,
Submerged within the gas particles are the ashes and smoke of the innocent,
Who kills only for pleasure,
Not caring about the rest,
A bright light will one day show,
A man in shining armor,
And kids with audacious hearts will fight against this evil ****,
Stab him in the chest,
And take away his life a thousand times,
The way he took theirs,
To teach him a lesson,
Slit his exposed body,
And slowly and painfully finish him off.

Those endless nights,
Hanging to my mind,
Everything seems so vague,
Still don't get who's right,
Unattainable words rush in my mind,
My eyes start getting wider,
Making me whine,
Enmity filled now pours out of my eyes,
Release my soul because now I'm wise,
Blasphemy comes out of his mouth,
Endure the pain for i will rise,
Forcing my body to stop,
Ominous of what i got,
Relax I won't make you pay,
E**ven though you and i both know i might prey .

The sun shines bright,
Ultraviolet rays shooting in the distance,
Covering up the little area,
The electronic emissions miles away,

The sun circulates around the earth,
Completing each voyage,
And with every light year,
The intensity at which the sun rises and falls from east to west submerges with a swipe shift,

The harsh and penetrating light,
Dissolves within my skin rushing with such escalation in my veins,
The beam of each electron on my skin,
Some reflect, some absorb.

I have lived in fear
Petrified of the darkness that takes over my soul
Spoiled and scarred by the society
I've been taken advantage of
I've been taken for granted
My heart stabbed a million times-
Now shattered into bits
The strength that was once within me, exits my body
I feel hopeless and only it is death that envelopes me into its chains
I am held and tortured
My thoughts drift-
Gloom stricken, I lack the ability to endure
Which is why I have drowned in my own sorrow and regrets.

The intensity and the speed of light,
Strikes hard leaving a dark spot,
Every single wave of light,
Absorbing in my body and leaving marks on my skin,
Pushes me in wonder and hope,
How is it that everything in life is so connected ?

The sound of the sea's,
The rustling of leaves and whirling of wind,
The sound of thunder,
And drizzling of rain,
They all seem to be connected during monsoon.

The way we walk,
The way we reflex our muscles,
The way we lift our body up,
The twirling and twisting,
All in unison, referring to it in language of physics.

The light shone,
Flickering to it's epitome,
The fire on my candle rage,
The furry of the flame call out the immortal,
The presence of those away from our world,
The agonizing conflicts that occur,
Killing and shredding the soul,
As I walk deeper into the tunnel,
The strength of the candle withers,
Enthralling voices echo in the darkness,
Accompanying me,
As the rest of the world around me doesn't care,
Everyone busy in their lives,
Eat, love and hate,
I sit and stare in the corner,
Waiting for their figures to appear,
But as usual they don't care.

Home is a place that does not dissipate
a place where ones safe and in peace
where you feel you belong
yet my mind falters to derive feelings from mine
the solidarity and serenity in your families company is joyous
but lately i sporadically ever feel that way
the significance of my home is long gone
i feel i am alone
since i grew old i have come to realize that a woman has no home
she belongs nowhere
she is just another human being, a stranger to her family
who comes in their lives and leaves, hopelessly and coaxed with words of love
alienated and distant by her own
a woman is regarded as only a caretaker and nothing more!

Celeste smile,
Eyes flickering with delight,

You come to me,
With a chance to see,

To see the world through my way,
Beaming from my eye is a ray,

A ray of hope thats hits,
Strucking everything else to bits,

Developing an interest,
You have on me blind trust,

Because you know I'll never deceive,
Even if pain to me is received,

Let your heart beat,
Connecting with each and every heat,

The heat that arises,
Thinking only with humor because you're wise,

Celeste smile,
Eyes flickering with delight.

Shrouded -
I lay facing the sky,
As I see birds fly and sounds of crying people emerging in the room,
This wasn't the life I imagined to live,
This wasn't what I wanted,

All I ever asked for was love,
A companion,
A family or some kind of achievement,
But what was my life like?
Perplexed and always puzzling,

I died early,
I needed more time to spend in this world,
I needed to bring about change,
I needed to rectify my mistakes,
And more over, I needed suffice deeds to disappear my sins.

The left and right motion of a pendulum,
Can not be easy to cease,
They say time moves on,
Without any obstacles that dawn,
Arising conflicts,
Over here and over there,
Time still goes on,
Leaves fall on the ground,
But time no matter what, counts,
Wounds and scars may come to thee,
But time still goes on.

My hands are tied,
At the back of the chair,
Locked around my arms is a rope,
As I try to break free,
The roop cuts my wrists,
Blood that falls on the floor,
Makes me wince,
I carefully withdraw a knife,
Which was already in my pocket,
I take it out and I find out,
It was a butter knife.

I lost pieces of you,
I lost your love,
Your bright smile,
That sparkle in your eyes,
But way beneath the core of my heart,
I know the traces of these pieces are within your soul,
Lurking behind your ego,
That pride and hate in your eyes,
The greed for money and many more,
You aren't going anywhere with it.
One day you'll wake up and remember,
Who you really are,
And who I was,
But by that time I'll be gone,
And its gonna be too late,
Realization will leave you nowhere,
But alone and guilty.

The rowing boats,
The cold weather and people in coats,
Snow capped mountains,
And glaciers settled.

Huge meadows,
Breezy weather,
Green grass,
And dancing  dandelions.

Beautiful scenery,
Rivulets and streams,
Cold water,
And dipped feet.

My trip to Naran was astounding,
Rafting in wild streams,
Eating trout fish,
Pakistan is amazing.

Seldom do I stand,
Mostly fall in my own hopelessness,
Out of desire I shed tears,
Shatter'd my heart bears pain,
I surrender in the name of love;
For what I've been seeking for,
But never sure if its true.

Love and hate,
They  both aren't pieces of cake.

My heart dysfuntional,
My brain delusional of all thought,
Devoiding gallantry,
Enraging vain,
That even giving others pain,
My body ached,
Visualizing the insane that I was,
Metaphorically,atrocities in me were at gain.,
The cloudy and hazy fog,
That once put a block,
Had swept away,
I changed my conceited and prejudiced self,
The only thing I got in return,
Was ample of hurt and poignancy to repair.

I constantly tell myself everyday before going to bed that I'll move on and that I'll stop thinking about you, but never has there been a day that I didn't shed tears. In everything that includes pictures, music, movies, books, my mind is compelled to reminisce about you.

The day I promised to love you solely and forever, the day you said you want forever with me, but that never really happened. You only left me shattered and heartbroken. My demons haunt me every night, my scars deepen and ache.

In this baffled state, sequestered and isolated, I keep my hopes alive that one day you will want me and accept that I am the one for you!