Not a single thing is born to be alone
Just so we are clear
And if you're by your lonesome now
You will find someone dear

fragile aren't you
no more running
no more walking
your bones have lost their strength
your mind has wondered off
will it return?
do you remember the simple things
like names
and numbers
or the color of his eyes

I laid shirtless on the bed for hours, there was no form of release. I traced the veins on my arms, wondering if they carried a disease.
To my heart, that would drive you away so soon. They say loves a fragile thing, it fades out so quickly. Who's to say what love is & what's not. You were the lamp shade to my nightlight, keeping it out of my eyes. So I could sleep at night. I feel my heart being dragged back into the undertow of this ocean I call home.

Doctor
Please no need for meds
I swear the voices in my head only try to help
You see I can't stand on my own two feet
Doctor
What's the matter with me
Obsessed?
Depressed?
******? Well maybe
But who are you to judge me?
Oh your degree, I see
Well that maybe
These voices say such delicate words and you care to tune them out
Well Doctor I fear the meds are better suited up your ***

The thing about spontaneous beginnings and rough endings is that they're often the same thing & I have been an abrupt ending ever since I could remember opening my eyes. I'm sorry you looked into them and saw something more than chaos, i was a slow burning fire and you were patient but unsuspecting. I'm so sorry. I don't deserve the patient ones. I am an abrupt ending, I am all endings, I am nerve endings exposed. I have never been a beginning. Let this be it and let it be without an apology.