the sky cries tears
that I can't let fall

Warning: there's a storm coming

Life on earth seems like heaven and hell

Some days my body glows,
my mind soars and love seeps into my soul
that's when I know heaven knows
Heaven knows I'm here and He knows I'm depressed
so he put light in my life to release all this stress
Somedays I feel like I'm floating and the weight is lifted off my shoulder
No more cursing at the world or having hatred spew in my words because the Lord is my beholder
I look up at the sky and the rain clouds have dispersed
I smile but this time it's not fake or rehearsed
I stare at the sky and I actually see the
stars and nightfall
doesn't equate darkness instead it lifts me up and catches me before I fall
Those are the days that are heaven

Other days it feels like hell
My hands can't carry all my baggage and there isn't anyone I can tell
No one I can call on to help
so instead I fight to lose then cry until the pain is no longer felt
My eyes burn red and the tears don't put out the fire but makes the flames more furious
That's when I know the devil knows and
he drags me along showing me that life is third degree burns to the soul that'll
make me delirious
Other days its completely
pitch black
No walls no floors no ceilings just me all alone with the devil and no one and nothing to have my back
The feeling of emptiness but intense pain consumes my being and makes me
sorrow
Eventually i become numb... but still
I hope there isn't a tomorrow

at first these four walls were closing in on me in the darkness
limiting my air supply
inch by inch

****** i should have taken comfort in that

now im free falling
nothing to hold, nothing to lean against
air rushing into my lungs
but nothing coming out

**** i hope i dont hit rock bottom

I find meaning and purpose
within myself
But lately I havent even been myself