True Romance
What is that?
I think I had it, Once.

I let it go, thinking it would come back
It didn't
It died,
And now I'm alone

****** up not knowing who or what I have become or who I want to be
Pushed around, saying okay to these things people say
Because I don't know me,
And I don't know how to find me
Just trying to survive, to get by
Hoping my life will start
Tomorrow, on a different sea
A different way to be
It's only a couple more days
Till my life will start in the UK

I lost a friend last night,
One too many pointless fights
Made me realize,
Its about time you let go

It has been a rocky two years
I’ve seen pleasure but all I see is tears
Yelling through window pains
Reflecting me watching me walk away

I’ve put this in front of everything else
I trusted you with myself
But we couldn’t make the world turn
And now youll become another notch in my belt

I hope I will be able to find some peace
And be able to find the pieces,  that you chipped away
Bring them back together again
Find those old love affairs with my best friends
Remember the days of late night walks and shirts for dresses
Out with the old, and in with no more heartache of a drunken ***** mess

This is what is left. A few simple lines turn into phrases
And this chapter has closed, but I will turn all these pages
And erase these memories that you do not possess
Because my book is far from read.

Love & Illusion, do you know in magic?
Do you think that we could be more than tragic?
Bartender, pour me another
I see you, seeing me
Buy me another shot
And lets try this another time, Ill be here waiting for this to start
The past is all over and over
My heart still beats the same
But not for you
Bartender give me another number

Someone is calling for me
When i close my eyes it sounds like you
Across the room, I see you
Seeing me too

Pour me another glass
I am stuck on this stool, until you tell me to go
But i am stuck staring at you

Don't leave me alone, in this bar
It doesn't seem that wrong
If you could take me home

This world I see before me
Full of flowers and blossom trees
Sometimes these nights get so dry
Watching the stars go by

Twisted bones and a twist of luck
Never wanted this all that much
Reach for the stars and youll land on the moon
Its time for my dreams to start coming true  

Another day spent getting up before dawn
Attempting to be perfect, two hours later its wrong
Breaking bones burning skin
And one year later, I am still not fitting in

I want to work for my silver lining
So tired of cooking, all it was, was timing
Step outside the comfort zone,
I wont take the easy road

Pick up the pen, put down the spoon
Writing before dawn, still going around noon
This is what I want to do,
Its time for my dreams to start coming true

In this valley, of evergreen and blue skies
This is the place where I ran away to let my old self die
Let rest of that adolescence
Raise from though chains and ashes

I am on my way to something to call home
A place when I can put my feet up and be alone
Hiding from the people and lights
Maybe this time I can sleep through the night

Maybe this time I would put up a fight

I am going forward to an unknown place
Drowning in cigarettes and bottles of broken space
Whiskey breath and yellow stains
Off kilter and swaying lanes

Maybe Ill be alright, Ill be alright

I am finding my steps, my footing
It usually starts to work when you’re not looking
Close my eyes and see what this world is giving
Promise myself to live a life worth living

If I don’t try, all my friends will go away,
All my dreams will melt away
Oh,
What a day is today
What a day such as change

You cut me down,
I cut you out,
Skipped town,
On a red eye flight

Never could be something perfect in your eyes
Never let me shine my own true light
Despite of you I'm gonna be alright
And you'll never bring me down,

You moved in, to a premade family by numbers
Coloured in the numbers you liked
Left me empty, and blank,
Nothing more than a number on a page

Never could be something perfect in your eyes
Too many wrong roads, too many wrong songs
Despite you, I'll get mine
And I'll never let you bring me down, to the ground

Don’t go calling me anymore,
You left the tree, right where it stood
I grabbed my slippers and the half smoked joint
You made your bed; I slammed the door

Keep counting your greed
You will not buy me
I never needed money,
I just wanted you around

I’m doing alright,
I’m getting mine
Without you,
Without your love

The trees have fallen,
Down
And the night is shinning on behind the sun
And even though it is daylight, now
Those bed bugs never leave me

I have fallen down
Picked myself up from off the ground
To see what I have found,
Is only broken things and forgotten dreams

Its time,
Now,
Its time to find something around the corner
Lay your body down
Get your feet out of the kitchen

Hold on now,
For I have to wait for evening
To begin