It's been so long....
So long that I haven't felt a thing..
A single motion repeating its self..
Just standing their watching your life go to waste...
Pain you say sorrow ,agony  no just shut up...
All this thoughts **** you in an instant...
Don't let life be to blame...
Life is just another sad story with a happy ending as they say..
I get it...
But your only human with emotions and moving body parts with souls and hearts...
Get up because this is the beginning and you'll only get stronger as the pain goes away slowly....

Lies all lies and confusion..
Lies that ****..
Lies that betrayed trust....
Kiss that killed love....
Lies that carry pain as an extra touch...
More lies that decieve the point....

Bullies are just bullies, right?
But what if its your *father?

If everyone  would just
shut up
We wouldn't  have  so many problems

So you spent all your life here,
in these walls of virtual reality
Within the confines of sweet sweet fantasy
that holds you dear every moment

The unrelenting love you receive
The security and ease
All bad things at bay
The firewall keeping it away

So you live in your perfect little globe
the place where you control everything
In where you can be someone else
and not care if you hurt anybody else

How long has it been since you got out?
The sun in your skin and wind caressing it
The laughter and sweat you spent playing
The hellos and goodbyes we love giving

The trips to your friends for tea time
Choosing trends in malls with friends
The fun of riding in an attraction in a park
And the pure joy of doing it all...Physically

So while you're at it
Staring into the hollow monitors and screens
Take back what once was you
Hit refresh and do what you want to.

You say you want me to speak
But if i open my mouth and talk
Anger  will rise
The ground will shake.
I have been silenced  for 8 years
That  time cannot  be taken back.
Instead, i am left with the memories
That  allow  me to tell the sad stories
There  is more to me.
I look fine from the  outside
But inside
I am a shipwreck
Just waiting to be discovered.
I am a rush of frustration
I often loose my happy concentration
When i am put into a ****** situation
Dont let me speak
i wont stop
Wrether you think you love me
Or  you pretend to love me
There is always going to be a void.
A void  only one can make.
But left 8 years ago
I've  been told to hold on for so long
And
My grip is slipping.
Each day i find myself wanting to let go more and more.
I cannot move on with little to none support.
I am a human
Not a robot.
I have feelings
Which everyonr seems to forget.
family slave
Is who i am to them
nuisance
To others.
I want to matter
I want to open my mouth
And speak
And leak
These secrets kept within the flesh.
But these bruises are like  circuit  boards
no one sees them
You have to uncover  these sheets of hell to see my pain. The bruises
My soul feels dead with every bad omen and every negative word said to me.
Ive prayed
Nothing came
Ive bargained  my soul
Just  for things to change
Nothing has happened.
Because  i will not speak.
My mind is connected
But not my mouth.
This is not a poem
No
Its a rant
An angry rant from an ******* poet.
Who cannot
*speak

what if Everything
you've ever Touched
slowly Turned
into dust.

what if the only man
you've Ever
loved throws His life
In between your
Two hands.

Leaving you
To take care
Of a confused child.

what if your life
was a written poetry.

I would take your pain away,
Even If it took my breath away....
There is nothing I wouldn’t do
If I could only set you free....

When I look into your eyes,
I see sadness deeply hidden.
Fear, desire, and passions,
The things that this experience have given you....  

I want to fill your heart with peace,
And see the joy in your face.
Through the sorrows and the pain
I would gladly take your place...

I'd wipe the tears from your cheeks
Before they ever reach you'r lips...
I’d sooth your weary mind
And heal your broken heart...

All the troubles that you’ve obtained
Would be forgotten with the past...
Your future would be bright
And your eyes well be open and you well see how life is worth a wild...

I have this plan to take your pain away..
It really isn’t difficult..
I’ll just love you every day like I always wanted to do....