There’s a memory I’m scared to unlock
It’s buried away
If you want to find it
You’ll have to travel in my abyss of shattered innocence
In this deep void
You’ll have to dive deeper than Davy Jones‘ locker to find it
You’ll have to carry a torch, a shovel and somewhere in there you’ll find the key to unlock it
I’ve hidden this memory deep in despair
I never wanted anyone to find it
This journey comes with extreme warnings and phantom hauntings
You won’t be the same once you find it
This memory will twist you and leave you broken
This journey will shatter your soul into a million pieces on a cold kitchen floor
This journey will violate you
This journey will take everything you have and more
In this journey whatever innocence you have will be taken by the hands of someone you trusted
This journey will leave you wishing you died on that floor
This journey is in the mindset of a 13 year old girl
She didn’t know any better
She was left alone with her friends boyfriend
He had left her empty and ashamed on that cold kitchen floor
All he said to her “if you don’t, I’ll tell her you wanted it and she’ll beat you until you’re in the hospital”
She couldn’t say no
She didn’t want it
She was scared and alone
Then he left her crying on that cold black and white kitchen floor

For those who’ve wrong me
This Shout out is for all of you
For anyone who has invaded my mind, peace, and tranquility
This is for you
This is shout out goes out to all those that had violated me
With hatred, anger, and jealousy
This is exactly for you
People can be so cruel
I forgive you.
I forgive all of you
Every single one of you
I forgive you
I forgive you for the anger and hostility you bestowed upon me
I forgive you for all the harassment and social media stalking
I forgive you for violating me
I forgive you for the hatred you showed me
I forgive you because I know your hurting too
I hope one day this reaches all of you
I have no idea what the future holds
I have no control over your thoughts and actions towards me
I can tell you with all certainty I’ll always forgive you
From this moment on I’ll always extend my hand in peace for all you
From this moment on
You can no longer hurt me in anyway
You will no longer take my peace away
My peace is for mine to hold
You will no longer steal it in anyway, shape, or form
I hope one day you’ll reach the peace you deserve
I hope one day you’ll be happy enough to let go of all that ills you
I wish for you true peace of mind, body, and soul.

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I don’t like to be touched
That’s the vibe I’ll give off
But deep down inside I want to be touched
I want to be embraced each time I see someone
I’ll prepare myself and tell myself
This time you’re gonna try
I’ll build myself up
But I never commit to the climb
All my friends know I hate to give hugs
I’m never the first one to initiate the hug
Even though I want to
I desperately need to
I’ll hide this intimate secret craving
I’m worried that I’ll make it awkward
That I’ll hold on too tight
Or even worse
That I’ll let you hold a piece of my heart
Which I hold so tight inside my chest
I hate to give anyone the power to hurt me
I truly hate it
It’s the worse feeling
To trust someone with something so fragile to me
It’s my most precious gift
I refuse to share it with just anyone
But these are my walls I built
Walls covered in barbed wire and roses
The walls are so pretty to me
They kept me safe
They are my insecurities
I don’t want my walls to come down crumbling
I need to build a door
A door will keep my rose covered barbed wired walls to remain standing
A door can provide me an escape from my secret garden of memories
A door will allow me to showcase my secret garden

Can you imagine the confusion
When you’re told to runaway from your father?
I was so confused
Why?
He’s my father
I remember for about week
My school routine was really different
I used to take the bus home from school
But instead I had to wait for my uncle
Recess was even different
I didn’t understand
I couldn’t go outside and play with all my friends
I was told if I saw my dad I had to run away as fast as I can
But I don’t know why
It didn’t make sense
Every time I would reply
But he’s my dad
I didn’t realize my life was in danger
Until years later
My mother told me about it when I asked her
He was suicidal and wanted to take me with him
It’s interesting now, When I think about it
All the times before when he didn’t take me with him
But only in death
I was good enough to be with him