I swear it was love at first sight
If I recall right there was a bright light
All around her there was a glistening shine
I wanted to shout out She’s mine!
Because I’ve had people stolen from me before.
It leaves me laying broken on the floor
It’s a strange kind of hurt
I feel the rage inside of me
At the same time I feel glad that their both happy
In the end though I know I want them back
I don’t think I could take it again
I just want the pain to end
Stop the demons from hurting me
I need her
This time I’m standing my ground
I won’t let anyone take her from me
So stay with me
Please don’t betray me
Please don’t leave me broken again
Don’t **** my soul
I beg you to stay with me
To spend your time with me

I’m trying to be what you want me to be
But it seems the harder I try
The less you think of me
The harder I try
You go further away from me
I want you to notice me
Just a second will do
All it takes is a glance
A smile as you pass me
A wave if I see you
A nod
It’s just one second, just a little bump in a whole life span
I’m not asking for much
Is it really that hard to spare a second
I’ve sacrificed years to you
I’ve lied for you
Take my last breath I’d die for you
Do you really need to ask why
It’s not complicated
It all comes down to one and only one reason
Like the Plain White Tees said
Theres only 1 way
2 say
These 3 words
I love you

I’m beginning to feel like Rihanna
Because I’m starting to like the monster under my bed
I’ve befriended the voices in my head
They understand me better than anyone I know
They don’t laugh at me or make fun of me
They don’t judge me
We think alike
They were the only ones there for me when I dealt with death
They knew I hurt and helped me
No one else even noticed that I wanted to **** myself
Everyone just thought I was fine
Time and time again though the voices in my head and the monster under my bed helped me out through everything I’ve been through
They have always been there for me
Who else can say they have always been with me?
I can’t think of anyone
Not even my parents can say they have always been there for me
Not even my closest friends
No one can say it because they would be lying.
I said it before and I’ll say it once more
I’m starting to like the monster under my bed
I’ve befriended the voices in my head

I feel the anger inside of me
It gets worse with every change
I hate these changes
I want everything to stay the same
I don’t want to deal with the pain
It seems that all the changes are bad ones
I don’t understand how people enjoy change
I know I hate it
I know others hate it
But more people like it
How can they, I know many people have had bad experiences
Have they not dealt with bad change?
Have they not felt the pain of death, the worse kind of change
Have they never lost a love one
Somebody please help me to understand
Please tell me what makes change a good thing
I’m begging anyone to help me so that I can learn to like change
I want to  have joy from changes
I want to grow and have positive changes
Answer me world please

I can’t get away from the memories
Of you and me together
They hurt, why did you have to leave me
Why couldn’t you stay, you could’ve talked to me
Told me what you were feeling
Told me what you were dealing with everyday
Now I can barely make it through a day without crying
I just barely manage to not go **** everyone who hurt you
The pain keeps me from trying to get to know people I meet
I’m afraid now, worried I’ll get hurt again
I really want to make an exit from this world
But I stay to live the life you couldn’t
I stay because I made a promise to you
I’m not sure you remember the promise after all it was both ways
I do though we both said we stay for each other
We both said we wouldn’t self harm ourselves anymore
I broke the self harm part
In all fairness though I broke it after you left
After you were gone I cried myself to sleep for a year
I paid the phone bill to hear your voice
I listened to your music
I went through the photos we took together
I watched the videos we did together
I went through all of our memories
I can’t let you go but your beginning to fade out

Forever together
Pssh yea right more like forever away
Better yet forever in pain
You don’t make me feel loved
You can’t make me feel healed
My soul just keeps getting shredded up
The longer I’m with you, the faster I die
I don’t want to die, so you need to instead
Will you die for me?
After all you said we have true love
Be honest though are you with me for love
Or do you stay with me for the money?
The connections?
The drugs?
The alcohol?
I’m yelling for you to get away
Instead you stay
I might just drown myself in the bay
I can’t stay near you
I need to move on
I need a new start
So please just leave
Get away from me before I hurt you
I don’t want to hurt you
You’re pushing my limits though
So please just go before I hurt you
I don’t want you to feel the pain I feel
I don’t want you to get hurt, like you’ve hurt me
So stay away