through the pages
i find my worth
a daydreamer lost on earth

sour jaw pain
distant screams
i will never gain
a hopeful dream

out of all the guys trying to get me
all i see is you
their looks mean nothing
when all i see is you
you might be the lesser art
but ill still choose you

my anger finds me
my anger defines me

my anger has consumed me

the gasses in me bubble
my head cloudy
blood boiling
i'm not real
but i'm in real trouble

disappear from sight
i've lost all my might
struggle through the night
ill watch you take flight

i feel broken and unsure
of the fate i must endure
the thought of being touched
makes me miss you so much

do you know what its like to feel your future slip away from you?
to lose all hope in your life, to not understand the consequences
not understand the pain you will end up putting on yourself
do you know what its like to not have the will to change

My bed sinks in with the weight of my bones
so heavy and cold, shaken with my soul

you ever shiver and shake
legs quake, heartache?

you face makes my blood boil
makes me want to dehumanize you
destroy you

theres that thread again
wrapped around my heart
hoping to find you
to wrap around yours too

the fists i make
hit the skin
pierce the soul
know i'm real

i'm not myself
yet i've never really known myself
i'm lost between the lines
my body feels its somewhere else
no matter how many times i try
ill never know myself