One two three
The die is cast
On that which I must carry
An unknown pain
For an unknown enemy
And a battle within the mind

With these three
Emotions rampant
Vastly different, dramatically the same
Each carrying a connotation
Brother, lover, friend
But meanings this much deeper
In a way few can understand
This passion I carry

Like only I can feel the pain
That isn't even mine

A friend told me love would hit me like a train

*I'm lying across the tracks

Time
Slipping through my fingers
Like hourglass sands
Once to pass, never to return
Memories merely photographs;
I glance back at ribbons
Tied round fingers,
Quick thoughts of times once here
But all things fade and wither
Cycles of death take hold
And all is one day lost.
I ponder the question,
Weighing on those with recollections,
Do you remember how much
You've forgotten?

Rampant and full of desire
I broke the glass
Surrounding your heart
Wanting what could be seen
And not touched

Wanting what is now mine
*I broke the glass

Running to the door
I meet you there like yesterday.
Though I know what you're here for,
There are some things I want to say.
We wave hello and set out,
Our same routine in motion;
My eyes to yours are but a scout
To see the day's commotion.
Inside, my mind is uttering  
A message growing strong
These things I should be saying
If only it weren't wrong;

"I love you like my brother
But you just can't seem to see
Best friend? I have no other,
I know it's you for me.
Please do not think that this is wrong,
I care for you so deeply!
If I could write a simple song
These words would be my plea:
Let me help you when you need,
Don't give a second thought.
With worries rife like springtime ****,
I think you have forgot-
I'm always here to guide you,
The lighthouse amidst your storm.
I won't let darkness find you
If in my embrace you're warm"

Alas, we walk so quiet
Almost finished 'round the block
I wish I would have tried it,
But my lips refused to talk.
I understand we had our chance,
A love we might have shared
But now without another glance
I know that's why you're scared.
We can be friends without a doubt
Ignore the shadows passed
My smile ever is devout  
Just know, my love will last.

Stop and breathe
It isn't worth it
Try and pull back
I know how the tunnel vision works
I've been there
I've seen the darkness
But I promise,
There is a light
You may not know right now
With anxiety high as the sky
Listen to me now
Focus on one voice-
The valleys are as beautiful as the mountains
Take a step away
Make a little distance
Breathe the cold, fresh air
I promise
I promise you'll see it
There is a light, beyond the horizon
Just keep climbing

Deeper than the pits
Of my lustful heart
I cannot fathom the way
I wish I could hold you
Soft against me
Two people...
One flesh
One passionate body
And the way you would look at me
Penetrating my soul
Making me wish I could
Wish I could.....
My heart belongs to you
I am completely entranced
I am completely in love
Come now
Love me back
Show me that you do
I wish you could take me
To the places I ought not to go
Love me there
Or here
Anywhere
You are the object of my sights
My desires
And all I want...
Is you