You walked away
With my heart in your hands
Smirking at what you stole
I was on fire
Burning all over
It felt like when I placed my hand on a pan
The pan that burned me all over
Burned my soul
The kind of burn that would blister
I wanted the pain
I wanted to hurt
But I wanted you to be there
Not the one to cause me to burn

"If you love something,
Let it go."
That is what they say.
But it is so hard when it hurts
It feels like drowning but you can still breath
Barely but still breathing
It is like being crushed by every sin on your shoulders.
But you let him go.
And it doesn't stop hurting
Cause you loved him so ******* much
That when he left
He took your heart with him
"If you love something,
Let it go"
I let him go.
When I knew it would **** me.

The smell wraps its warm arms around you
Drags you down with promises of forever
His smell.
His touch.
He drags you down with sweet whispers
He wants you
Only you
The smell wraps around you
The smell of promises
The smell of him
As you slip on his jacket.
To go see him
When you know.
The jacket promises forever,
But he promises nothing

Hours
I spend it on my face
To make me love myself
Even when the person I show now is not even me.
Mascara
Foundation
Highlighter
Hide all my mistakes
Erase my flaws
Erase me
One stroke at a time
Hour by hour
I erase the girl I was
And replace her
With what everyone wants to see.
With time
I erase
Me.

Tick Tock
I can't help it

Tick Tock
I can't help that when I am alone
I see you with her

Tick Tock
All the seconds I see you kissing her
When you promised me
Forever

Tick Tock
I can't tell you how I feel
But the seconds keep going by.
And every second that goes by

Tick Tock
I feel like I never even had you to begin with

Tick Tock
You run off to her.
Because she keeps your bed warm at night

Tick Tock
You think I don't know

Tick Tock
But when you kiss me
When you hug me

Tick Tock
I know it isn't for me anymore
She won
I lost

Tick Tock
And now I have nothing
But empty sheets
And a gun
That promises sanity

Click

She loved him.
She loved him well.
But it was like playing cat and mouse
Cause no matter how hard she tried
He always had someone else.

I closed it all
My eyes
My mouth
I closed out everyone
I took a deep breath
And opened my heart
Made a wish
On one little star
I opened my eyes
Hoping it came true
But all I saw
Was one little star
And I was me
In a world where
Nothing you dreamed of ever came true.