I was never a girl who revealed her crushes
Play my cards close to the vest
Heart beating in hush- hushes
Don’t reveal any unrest.
Don’t feel aloud-
Someone might hear.
Don’t think too loud
You might disappear.
To hear would destroy
The labyrinth between you and I
To know would demolish
My tower of Babel to the sky.
You can see the self that is but a part of me
Once the defense, now captor-
Imprisoned and I’ve swallowed the key
And there I remain hereafter.
I lie staring at the ceiling
I cannot speak
Words dancing, stomping, skin is peeling
Still not a peep.
I’m screaming and shouting and asserting and demanding-
My mouth is cement.
I’m clarifying, elaborating, divulging and expressing-
I make no lament.