Bee: Poems

Bursting

Bee Sep 2018

Bursting

1, 2, 3,
Starting to have me disagree.
Starting to realize what you’ve done,
My fat tears fell, my anguish began.

Falling into despair,
Feeling that as if my heart was set into flares.
Falling into the ground,
Never expecting it was you, a person well renowned.

Anxiety crippling through my veins,
You adding up to all of the pains.
My heart breaking into shards,
Thoughts cannot be expressed in words.

Putting up a mask,
As if it’s becoming my task.
Never knowing me at my worst,
Never really knowing you made me burst.

Hi, it's been a long time since I've posted here at hellopoetry.com. I realized that I should release all the emotional build up inside me. I feel like my friend's been using me and I just can't tell her about it. I don't want her to get angry or hurt because of me.

#sadness #fakefriends #anguish #personalthoughts

Escape House

Bee Apr 2019

Escape House

Blood pumping through my veins,
Standing on tracks and dodging trains.
****** life back at home,
Feeling helpless in a big, black dome.

Tear stricken faces, black and blue bruises,
Hopeless dreams of big houses and cruises.
Seen badly by everybody,
Feeling so much like a nobody.

If only given one night,
One night without fright,
I would run and go,
Run and go to a place no one would ever know.

Far from the vicinity,
Even farther from my dark reality.
Where all my fears would vanish,
Where all bad dreams shall perish.

#nightmares #fears #scars #believe

Eye-ttractive

Bee Sep 2018

Eye-ttractive

Piercing eyes, fierce body,
Brain such so naughty.
Feeling that too much heat,
Still makes me fall to my feet.

Those ****** stares, careless and reckless attitude,
Strangely brightens up my mood.
All these things just left my brain so confused,
Yet these just made me so amused.

In those eyes,
I just saw that confidence rise.
Those joyous and contagious laughs,
Was making my romantic excitement blast.

Mouthwatering smell, soft and electrocuting touches,
Every time makes me feel so luscious.
Even though others say that you’re distracting,
You’re still eye-ttractive.

Hahaha, just saw these poem in my drafts. Made approximately 2 years ago, back in my cringey pre-teen years when I was so caught up in my crush.

#stupidlittlecrush #butterfliesakacollywobbles #middleschoolyears

“Hello.”

Bee Dec 2018

“Hello.”

It’s been a while,
Since your number has been dialed.
It’s been a while,
Since we’ve talked and laughed by the school aisle.

Talks have been lessened,
Our laughs have been somewhat deadened.
Walking past you by the halls,
Somehow the silence had held our throats in its thrall.

Only a word itching in my throat,
Threatening to come out, making its way to float.
It’s been a while, I know.
It’s just that, I wanna say hello.

#hello

Hide

Bee Apr 2018

Hide

Tough, tomboy, badass.
Is that all the names you could pass?
Never knowing what I could be,
Never showing the real me.

Wanna know me?
The girl you know, so carefree?
So far from what you see,
As what I foresee.

Came from a broken family,
Full of hatred and agony.
Raised in a sad household,
So far from where I currently abode.

Crushing deep inside,
All sadness I’ve denied.
So why act so falsified?
If I could easily hide?

Behind those smiles, behind those tears, you could see what her past is.

#teenage #problems #depression #broken #family

Insane

Bee Jun 2018

Insane

Cries pleading out in the dark,
New fears beginning to embark.
Goosebumps rising, sweat dripping,
Anxiety inside, fastly crippling.

Trying so hard to conceal,
All these fears I have to feel.
Faking all those laughs and smiles,
My thoughts so far, miles and miles.

Staring blankly, zoning out,
Positiveness I've started to doubt.
Missed the count of sleepness nights,
Feeling so alone when the pain bites.

Hearing whispers through out the night,
Looking around, no one in sight.
Shivers sent down my spine,
Having the feeling that I'll never be fine.

#insanity #depression #sadness #mental #disorder #feels

Piece of Paradise

Bee Oct 2018

Piece of Paradise

Walking down the streets,
Seeing the same city views that always repeats.
Dreaming of a sweet escape,
From all the stress of everyday.

Lost within the depths of the sea,
Feeling like a child, so lost in glee.
Feeling the sandy pavement down my feet,
Making the ocean and marks meet.

Winded by the cool sea breeze,
Making me feel so much at ease.
A dream that’ll last for a lifetime,
A quick escape to my paradise.

#stressiskillingme #wishsummercouldbebackforaday #beachnostalgia

What is L-O-V-E?

Bee Apr 2018

What is L-O-V-E?

Love, a four-lettered word,
All of us have already heard.
Funny feeling deep in my stomach,
Makes me look like a big, old maniac.

Silly endearments makes me want to throw up,
Old couples sharing one drinking cup.
Ewww, what in the world?
Is this crazy little thing that's been always heard?

Until one day,
A light has peeked through the skies so gray.
Who knew a girl that so vain and mean,
Could become my sweet, lovely queen.

I won't be needing those fake smiles,
And that feeling of throwing up some bile.
I know what love is,
And the proof? It's sealed with a kiss.

Hi! This is my very 1st poem that I've shared to many and published at hellopoetry. Please don't hate at it, and excuse me for some wrong grammar cause English is not my native language.

#young #love #just #some #boring #drabbles

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