Relationship

In this ****** existence
Some may come
Showing bright lights
And fade away quickly
Some may show up
With promises
But fail to deliver
Some may come
And walk with you
For a little while and move on
Some may pretend to be brave
But run away in fear

Some may walk with you
Until the end
****** relationships
Based on give and take
Come and go
Once you stop giving
The relationship ends
All relationships
Are like passing clouds
Bright clouds, dark clouds
Colorful clouds at times
Some relationships
Are always there
With no give and take

©️Sobbingsoul

A brief breath stolen away
Wishing on a dandelion the rest will follow suit
Wishing the empty page would match my empty heart
Anxiety suffocating me, I'm barely breathing
Distant dark waters call my name to the shore
Lull my senses and deprive my feelings
The right side of my mind hopes
The left side of my mind despairs
My heart loves my head but my head says my heart is weak
Nothing is ever good enough and peace cannot stay
The voice in my throat often lies to me
Coping mechanisms just aren't enough anymore
Even suicide says she has nothing to offer me
In the briefest moment of honesty
I don't want this anymore
Whatever this is

Ten toes down,
The sky is no limit,
Gazing at the stars, constantly reaching
Can't see no losses, only learned lessons
Faith is kept soaring high
Backed by uttering positive words
Accompanied with the right actions
Driven by love
Shuns backbiting
Forever blessed,
even in the midst of turbulence
Unstoppable
'cause my God is able!

In the dark of the silent night
I'm viewing my true self
Tossing and turning
Sweating and fretting
My face horrored and cloaked in fright.

Awake horrifically screaming
My demons rejoicing
Toasting in sinister delight.

Running timelessly backwards Hoping to find the love that I lost
The feeling alludes all memory
With frozen tears I paid the cost
An avelanche of cold emotions
Even my memories replaced by frost.

Still frantically searching
I'm getting lost in my lifeless soul
It has given up breathing
My lungs craving your essence
  It's evading all meaning

Am I dead inside
Lost without feeling
Just look how you left me
Broken and reeling

I'm praying for sunny days
My prayers are voiceless
Clouded and soaked in rain
all I breathe is this pain
Every rain drop I hear
Is slowly calling your name

I'm slowly going insane
Grabbing at elusive thoughts
This story I wish to rename
Called happy forever
Instead of his hearts blind and in darkness chained.