I 'am a loser
and I refused to believe that
happy
I realize this may be a shock, but
beautiful is a lie
I'm rich
In 30 years, I will tell my children that
I have my priorities straight because
depressed
is more important than
happiness
I tell you this
once upon a time
pretty
but this will not be true in my era
people dyeing
experts tell me
sad
I do not conclude that
joy
In the future,
death
no longer cant it be said that
happiness
it will be evident that
hate
It is foolish to presume that
good.

old poem I wrote
April 10, 2019 ·
They say time heals all wounds
They say love will come when your not looking for it
They say when you dream about someone they are thinking of you
They say when you cant sleep its cause someone else is dreaming of you
They say take pills to hide your pain
They say talk to someone when feeling down
They say imagine the world would he better place if everyone got a long
They say no one is prefect
They say alot of things in this world
But they never say how hard it will be before the good comes along
So love what you have before it's gone

HAPPY
I'm happy I'm a live
I'm happy most days i don't want to cry
I'm happy i have friends in my life  
SAD
I'm sad sometimes i cry
I'm sad i sometimes think why
I'm sad for the things i can't have
LOST
I'm lost in this world
I'm lost girl
I'm lost woman
GOOD
I'm good today
I'm good tonight
I'm good for now
when i had to come up with words for this these are words that came to mind.

life
this life is pink walked it, run it
it starts with poetry in mind wake up are for it
full of love and despair
This life is a poetry holding it, talking it
it starts with a word wake up and time it
life is a gamble take it head on and survive
full of money and wasted time
This life a quick standing it, wanting it
it starts though wake and drive it
life is a story take it head on and climb
full of life and groth

I BELIVE I CAN  
accomplish my dream one day running my own business
cause to change my life
define who I am
encouge myself to shine
help others feel great
experience positive attitude
influence people to write, photography
create better life
change the world
imagine being happy all the time
improve life
lead by example and lead by mistake
decide to go big or don't go at all
make better different in the world

IF I WERE TO CHANGE THE WORLD
if I were to change the world
I'd cancel ****
I'd cancel homeless
I'd cancel lies
I'd even cancel racist
if i were to change the world
there would be homes for the homeless
there would be money for everyone
there would free health care around the world
if i were to change the world
you wouldn't have negative
you wouldn't have bullying
you wouldn't have death
you wouldn't even have loneliness
if i were to change the world
a person who cares
and sometimes cries
would still be allowed to be to change the world

IF I WERE IN CHARGE THE WROLD
if I were in charge of the world
I'd cancel homeless
I'd cancel hungriness'
I'd even cancel ****
if I were in charge of the world
there would be money every where
there would happiness around the world
there would even be free food every day
if I were in charge of the world
you wouldn't have to steal to survive
you wouldn't have to died
you wouldn't have to cry all the time or wonder why
if I were in charge of the world
a person who is loved
and sometimes tries
would still be allowed to be in charge of the world

LETTER TO MYSELF
Dear Tina, you come along way
Dear Tina, you have grown so much over the years
Dear Tina, you had rough days
Dear Tina, you had rough boyfriends
abused
lying
stealing
cheating
Dear Tina, you let that happen
Dear Tina, you thought that was love
Dear Tina, you shined like a diamond through that
Dear Tina you stood tall
Dear Tina, you could have failed
Dear Tina, you had rough friends
lying
back stabbers
two-face
Dear Tina, you grew from that
Dear Tina, you had rough days and years
kids gone because of lies
people telling lies
people making up stories
people being jealous
people running thier mouths
Dear Tina, you survived
Dear Tina you loved but he died
Dear tina you learned to move on
Dear Tina, you found love again
Dear Tina, you are happy
Dear Tina, you are loved
Dear Tina, you have a happy life
Dear Tina, sometimes life gets you down, but you never gave up even though you wanted to die
you got the help you needed
Dear Tina, I'm proud of you
Dear Tina, you came along way
Dear Tina, you growth so much over the years
Dear Tina, I love you.

Just
Just like snow I can be cold
Just like the sun I can be hot
Just like the rain I can b tears
Just like the moon I can be dark
Just like the stars I can be bright
Just like the wolf's I protect
Just like the nature I can be loving
Just like days I can stall time
Just like a book I can read you
Just like the people I dont wanna be bother
Just like the children i can be happy
Just like the dead I can be sad
Just like Angel's I can smile
Just like the devil i can cry

Easter


Waking up                          no sleep
Hungry                               feeling hungry
Having breakfast               haven't eaten
Visiting people                  no visiting people
Opening presents              no presents
Eat                                   no food                          
Drink                                no drink                      
Smoke                              no smoke
Car drive                        walk
Feeling happy                feeling lost
Making memories         losing hope
Feeling lucky.          Feeling unluckily    
                                  
                                
                                
So how ever your spending Easter this year just know that I'm wishing you happy Easter and hope you have wonderful day

Lone
Gaining points
Gaining characters
Gaining clothes
Being champion
Killing time
Learning skills

Making friends
Playing online
Playing all the time
Killing time
Gain new roles
Gain champion
Gain new skills
Help with stressed
Help with anixety
Help with depression
Gaming is life for some
Your gaming is just fine
But some time you just need your time

Right now someone crying
Right now someone laughing
Right now someone sad
Right now someone happy
Right now someone dieing
Right now someone giving birth
Right now someone homeless
Right now someone working
Right now someone hungry
Right now someone eating
Right now someone sleeping
Right now someone a wake
Right now someone dealt
Right now someone on the phone
Right now someone driving
Right now someone losing time
Right now someone making memories
Right now someone lonely
Right now someone celebrate a birthday
Right now someone thinking
Right now someone talking
Right now someone...

Love= happiness
Time= long
Keep= smiling
Pain= lost
Smile=beautiful
Remember= people
Fear=sad, anixey
Dreams=hold on to
Touch= to have and to hold
Kiss= married
Hurt= feeling
Wonder=thinking
Sea= mermaid
Speak= talking,listening
Alive= lived
Apart= wishing
Happiness= love
Listen= hearing
Big= heart
Coming= going
Laugh= faith,hope
Wake= dreams
Eye= tell a story
Chest= treasure
Fell= head over heels
Story= life
Human= everyone
Walls= down
Boy= girl

Christmas is a time for love
A time for happiness
Dreams,mistole kisses
Kids wishing
Parents wrapping
Laughing with family, friends
And the year of hurt and pain go away just for one day
Some people having nothing or loves one gone
But they hold on a story for all
I wish that this year people get everything they wanted and hope for
Wonderful time even though the world ******* down
Merry Christmas and happy new year.

That day I got you I was filled with joy an happiness
Loved how you purred
Loved how you meow
Loved how you listen to me
Loved how you always treated me with kindness
You will always be my sweet little Bella bear
And will always miss you
Even though you are not human just a pet
But to me you will always be my friend.
Love you Bella
R.i p.

Dear Daughter can you hear me?
Dear Daughter can you hear me ?
I just wanted to say i love you
Dear Daughter I miss you
Dear Daughter I'm proud of you
I was proud when you were born
I was proud when you took your fist steps
I was proud when you spoke your first word
I was proud when you took your first steps
I was proud when you finished school
I was proud when you made me a grandfather
I wish I could be there in person when you get married
Dear Daughter I wish I was there
I see you struggling
I hear  you crying
I see you crying
I see you smiling
Dear Daughter can you hear me?
Dear Daughter  can you see me
Dear Daughter I'm always with you
Dear Daddy yes I can

Hi nanny how is heaven?
I wish I could see you
Nanny I miss your wonderful meals
I wish I could have your Sunday meals
Nanny I love you
Nanny i miss you
I wish you were here
I miss our I spy games
I miss spending nights
and being spoiled
Nanny say hi to grandfather  and daddy for me
Hi grandfather how's heaven?
Do you see dad a lot ?
Do you see nanny ?
I hope you are all living together
Grandfather I miss you and love you
Remmber when you thought my name was Tuna lol
Grandfather I hope all is well
When heaven has visiting hours I will be  the first to visit you and Nanny and Daddy
bye for now

Was free to roam
Was free to touch skin
Was free to hangout,shop
Then bam wasn't free to touch
Wasn't free to kiss a face
Wasn't free to hangout,shop
Now just waiting
Now the longer you wait the longer you go crazy
Miss hearing voices
Wild life run free we locked up
I remember when I knew what day it was
I remember when I knew what time it was
I remember when I knew what faces felt like
I remember when I knew what fast food tastes like
I remember when I knew the world was whole
That's gone now
I don't know the day
I don't know the time
I don't know the face
I don't know the voice
I don't know the touch
I don't know the taste
I don't know the world.
Now we wait.

A face so beautiful
Look in the mirror
Skin so nice
Tears run down
Weak heart cuts
Voice wants to stop
Scars are remind
Stood in distances
Catch a simple kiss
The touch of taste.

Love has no time
A heart has no time
Life has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die
The sun shines
The rain does fall
Beauty is showed in random places
Fire burns longer then the sun shines
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for the living
Arms hold tight
Feet walked far
But love has no time
A heart has no time
A lie has no time
Each day we live
Each day we die
Each night we live
Each night we die

Time has no date
A kiss holds love
A cry speaks
A dream to hold, build
Eyes tell stories
Clouds make rain
Joy bring laughter
A love brings happiness
A soul brings marriage
A key holds the key to hearts
A lie ruins lives
Time is what you can fix
Emotions is what you have
History is what you make
Fade happens when people forget you in time
Chains can be broken
Silence can break you down.

One day i sat in silence thinking of why
One day I sat in silence chained in time
One day I sat in silence trying to be free my mind
One day I sat in silence fading away with time
One day I sat in silence aware that someday I'm going to died
One day I sat in silence trying to kiss the sky
One day I sat thoughts come to mind
One day I sat in silence with mixed emotions
One day I sat in silence

My love for you has no eyes to cry
My love for you has dreams
My love for you has joy
My love for you has no secrets
My love for you  never fades away
My love for you holds key to my heart
My love for you will never died
My love for you kisses ours souls
My love for you is aware of time
My love for you reached the clouds
My love for you will live on even when I died

Untitled
Footsteps of loved one
The wind blowing is you saying i'm here
The rain is you saying I cired
The sun shining is you saying i'm happy
The clouds is you saying I'm sad
The fog is you saying I miss you
The flower is you saying don't worry
The birds is you saying hi
The butterfly's is you saying I'm always here
The trees is you saying you are not alone
The feather is you saying i was here

Pain
Pain
No one know this
No one own this
No one loves it
No one wants it
No one sees it
But everyone wants to share it
But everyone wants to talk about it
Sad
Happy.
Crying
There a comes a time when you have to let it go
All of the above

Just like snow I can be cold
Just like the sun I can be hot
Just like the rain I can b tears
Just like the moon I can be dark
Just like the stars I can be bright
Just like the wolf's I protect
Just like the nature I can be loving
Just like days I can stall time
Just like a book I can read you
Just like the people I dont wanna be bother
Just like the children i can be happy
Just like the dead I can be sad
Just like Angel's I can smile
Just like the devil i can cry

I love you
I was lost and unloved
I was crying at night
I was crying in day
I was felted left behind
The longer I wanted the longer I hide
Sun shine
It rained
My Heart didn't wanna
The one day I found you
And my life changed
You make me smile
You make me laugh
You make me happy
You made me live again
You make me safe
You make me beautiful even when I wanna cry
I love you until the day I die.

A love has no time
A heart has no time
A life has no time
Each day we live
Each night we live
Left behind in time
The sun shines
The rain falls
Beauty is shown in random places
Fire burning longer then the sun
Understanding the moon
Earth worked for living
Arms hold so tight
Feet walked so far
But a love has no time
A heart has no time
A life has no time
Each day we lived
Each day we lived.

Christmas

Joyful
Sadful
Spirts vist
A time to come together
Love ones near and far
Lights are shining
Tree's are present
Food is cooking
now time for presents
Dont believe that is just for presents
This is your life and hope of dozens
The Grinch is watching
waiting to make his move but never touching so with that said Merry Christmas

Drunk off the love of your flame
Feeling numb to the game
Laid apon  your heart of touch
Sinking in the depths of dust
Instance knowledge
History.

Wings are flying as thedust ages
Your stomach and lungs are shutting down
Feeling sick after drinking your spirits
As the universe grows golden in your veins

Lay awake a night
Desire to fit in
Just a chance to make a point
A joyful power
Landed in space
Chest pounding
Poetry is a waken

Nights are dark
Lips long to touch
Hearts pounding
Waiting watching
Tines goes by playing music
Leaves a moment on your heart
Apart of the time just minutes away feels like nights of dark

A Burning Flame
A woman met a man
they seem to drawn to each other
it seem as if their insance energy would long for naked love
Not knowing where they were going they decided to shut the box of feelings
resting themselves for hurt
A man met the same woman
now it seems like everything is going but would society keep all this and that underneath
their bones are shattering not knowing
river keep flowing
frogs keep crocing
colour  keep changing
wait until my next poem to see if they held on for sparks to burn

short poem

Fingers resting on my face
bones shattering in space
a woman feeling naked love with insane energy
society undernaeth waiting to strike
looking a shut down box

I'm always Right

I'm never wrong im always right
every time i speak its like i know
days go by and finding out
im never wrong i'm  always right
i speak few listen and wishing that they did
i'm never wrong im always right
tattooed it proudly
days or nights
i 'm never wrong i'm always right

Few Things

A face ugly or beauty
A man who wants to be
A tear cry out for help
Stay not knowing anything but waiting
Years some are good some are bad
Care for what you have
Empty no time feel that
Living sharing , loving , happines
Sound of a voice
Held on to things and people
Alive when you feel this let me know
Breathe something we must do
Memory holding on tight
Burning down the bridge you build up to walk over
Path making what yours
Heaven with wings
Share is caring
Wings fly
Smile to hide to shine
Goodbye not forgotten
Breeze  i hear your name
Comfort knowing your safe
Reget why not
Songs to save your soul

Daddy's Girl

Just memories I have
Just years I had
Just the sound of your car running is all i hearded
Phone calls
Seeing your face with a smile or lauhgter
listening to songs  of  yours
Sharing the path you put me on
Wanting to held on tight
Never wanted to say goodbye
But heaven gained your wings
Slowly empty tears

Tattoo girl part 2
Tattoos
New
Some old
Who cares
If I did I would cry
Not many could understand
Not my game
I try
But some wont understand
That's ok
I dont for your pleasure
I do for me
Do I look like I care
Some might say yea u do
But I don't
People could go on an on an I still wouldn't give a ****
Want to know why ?
Cause tattoos are art no need to say why
For those who a opinion
You can keep walking cause I dont care
I'm me I wont change
Just I got tattoo doesn't me the devil
I'm person
I'm mother
I'm daughter
I'm fiancee
I'm me
So *******

Woman cry part 2

Look for love though you found it
But all you got was pain
Look for love they might make u think I'm right here
You think  that's what you need
How do you know
Cause right now all you is what ur said
Y0u wanna cry but no tears fall down
You sit and wonder why me
Y0u can't help but wonder why
I took the blame
I took the name calling
I took the love
Took the beating
Was right
Right?
Nope it wasn't cuz if did I wouldn't he left wondering
Why did I love you
Why did I care
Cause I think I should
But time went on
I found new love
Not what I need it
Time over time
I did
But God took you
I was lost
Though I couldn't go on
But God bought you to me
I couldn't let go
You make me feel loved
You make me feel safe
You make me promise
You make me feel protect
You make me feel...
All I know is might have found when sad
But your all i need
An i wont let you go
I love you

Tattoo girl part 2
Tattoos
New
Some old
Who cares
If I did I would cry
Not many could understand
Not my game
I try
But some wont understand
That's ok
I dont for your pleasure
I do for me
Do I look like I care
Some might say yea u do
But I don't
People could go on an on an I still wouldn't give a ****
Want to know why ?
Cause tattoos are art no need to say why
For those who a opinion
You can keep walking cause I dont care
I'm me I wont change
Just I got tattoo doesn't me the devil
I'm person
I'm mother
I'm daughter
I'm fiancee
I'm me
So *******

my love for you has no eyes to cry
my love for you has dreams
my love for you has joy
my love for you has history to make
my love for you has no dull moments
my love for you  has no secrets
my love for you never fade in time
my love for you kisses our souls
my love for you aware of time
my love for you will live on even when i die

one day i sat in silences thinking of why
one say i sat in silences trying not to cry
one day i sat in silences trying to free my mind
one day i sat in silences fading away over time
one day i sat in silences aware that someday i'm going to died
one day i sat in silences trying to kiss the sky
one day i sat in silence thoughts come to mind
one day i sat in silences with mess emotiones
one day i sat in silences

time has no dated
a kiss holds love
a cry speaks
eyes tell stories
clouds make rain
joy brings laughter
love brings happiness
souls bring married
a mirror faces many masks
mind hold the key to hearts
secrets ruin lives
a mess is what you fix
emotions is what you have
history is what makes you
a key holds a dream
a heart holds love, and pain
someday things will happen with in your control or not
faded is what happens when people forget you over time
aware of your feeling
dull can't be helped
chains can be broken
silences is just silence but can break you down

Ready
I'm feeling short
I'm hoping
For no weak heart
I rise from darkness
I share my scars
Breezing above
Looking for comfort
Gold is my name
Book my time?

Laughter crazy
Dancing free
Trust maybe
Heaven knowing my name
What a feeling escaping from this drink

I felt pain everyday
Lost is what it is
I thought  I would be great
Keep trying why ?
Remember when I felt great
I free my time
Stay dark at night
Happy what is that
Fear what I can not control
Sweet loving pie

hidden but i return
got caught in the game
shadows following telling stories of long ago
chose to distance myself
but desire caught me
and now  won't let it  go

love was in the air for us
love placed us
love was showing fear but hidden
under was love for us
our love is warm no change in that
mind set right forever
until our dying day

my heart loses hours
for pretty desires
i long for a pretty soul
was inside my head wants to shine higher than the clouds
met the right soul was is ending
only for us to love forever
and dying at peace because for there is no more war