Shovel it down
Spit it out
Want to keep it in
Feels like poison
Hunger rumbles
My body awake
Ignore it
Not important
Not just for food
For love
For happiness
For contempt days
Not wasted away
Curled over familiar porcelain
Going through motions again
Long nights
Hating life
Who have I become
Can’t be the only one
Hurting
Hurting
Hurting
Hunger
Pains
Get over it
It’s all stupid
very messy because my brain was messy