PoetryForTheSoul94

PoetryForTheSoul94 12h

I live in a state of paranoia, the shame follows me like a plague.

Memories flood my brain like horrific hurricanes.

I wonder what they speak about before they sleep?

I wonder what is said through walls as mumble words softly bellow into my place of rest.

But yet, it is silence that keeps me awake, my brain likes to form the words for me.

“They will speak to you in the morning”

My mind laughs as my heart beats so hard that I feel it almost jump out of my chest.

Stomach in a knot, I’m constantly filled with dread.

Maybe it would be better if I was dead.

#depression #scared #sadness #self #hate

PoetryForTheSoul94 5d

Reality

We are so different it’s kinda weird almost like chalk and cheese, wasnt expecting you to completely change after a month of not seeing you, it’s just the weirdest feeling knowing I’ve to let you go, because even speaking feels so hard and I feel like I’m talking to a wall.

But being honest I knew it was gonna happen, the two of us do nothing but snap, but now even trying to have a laugh everything feels fake, maybe keeping you around was a ******* mistake.

It kills me but it happens…

#broken #sadness #heartbreak #lost #friendship

PoetryForTheSoul94 7d

23

The first few weeks were absolute heaven, I finally found the love of my life!

Or so I thought…

More than a decade between us, I felt more childish compared to you, but yet you acted the same age.

You took advantage of my innocence, my curiosity and my inability to make right decisions. Not once did you give a ****.

You allowed me to be bullied, almost daily may I add.
You didn’t care, whatsoever!

I hope to never make anyone feel so unloved if anything… I over pour the cups of everyone I meet, just to prove I can.

You don’t have control over me anymore, I can finally breathe.

Since taking off the rose tinted glasses..

I can clearly see.

#heartbreak #love #sadness

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 14

To You

Thank you for showing me how to love again. Thank you for being a lover and a best friend.
For all the ways you show me your love.
I honestly couldn’t thank you enough.

I never knew that love could make me feel this way. That is all because you are just being you. You are everything I’ve ever wanted, all wrapped in one.

I would give you the world and then some to prove my love to you, I’m so close to throwing up a line to the moon just to drag it to you.

Your smile lights up the darkest of days, your laughter is the greatest ringtone to come from you. Don’t get me started on your voice, almost like an angel sent from heaven.

1257 days of love and plenty more to go, I love you more than you’ll ever know.

#love #relationships #happiness

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 12

Dear Dad

Honestly, my heart is broken in two.
Hearing you say,

“There’s another number I won’t get to use.”

The grief you carry, like so many of your friends, you carry silently, tears forming.

Rather than a hug which everyone would prefer, you carry them on your shoulder, to their final place.

At one point it was almost weekly!

You turn to me, in your grief and try to reassure me.

“You are better off lonely rather than having days like today.”

I really wish I knew what to say, if only I could take that pain away.

#sadness #grief #lonely #death

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 9

I Pray

I pray for those who cannot see the light,
I pray for those who lay awake crying at night,
For those who are too afraid to stand up and scream what they have to say,
I pray for those who get bullied everyday,
For the people who feel alone,
For the one’s that feel like life isn’t going their way.

I am here to tell you you’re not alone,
No matter what you think you are never on your own,
Don’t ever be afraid at what life throws at you,
You can beat it
I believe in you!

I hope you look at these words,
Maybe take them as reflection,
No matter what you’re going though,
Everything is a lesson,
I know what it is like,
I have been here before,

For every closed room,
I am here to open a door.

#spiritual #healing #self #worth #peace

PoetryForTheSoul94 Sep 7

Believe

I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say, if only I knew how to take your pain away,

Don’t you worry I will find a way, just please stay with me and just pray,

You are strong you are the best don’t worry please just remember it is all a test,

You are loved you are so strong, don’t you worry you are never alone

Don’t you worry little me I got you

#happiness #spirituality #emotional #hopeful #motivation