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I pray for those who cannot see the light,
I pray for those who lay awake crying at night,
For those who are too afraid to stand up and scream what they have to say,
I pray for those who get bullied everyday,
For the people who feel alone,
For the one’s that feel like life isn’t going their way.

I am here to tell you you’re not alone,
No matter what you think you are never on your own,
Don’t ever be afraid at what life throws at you,
You can beat it
I believe in you!

I hope you look at these words,
Maybe take them as reflection,
No matter what you’re going though,
Everything is a lesson,
I know what it is like,
I have been here before,

For every closed room,
I am here to open a door.
I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say, if only I knew how to take your pain away,

Don’t you worry I will find a way, just please stay with me and just pray,

You are strong you are the best don’t worry please just remember it is all a test,

You are loved you are so strong, don’t you worry you are never alone

Don’t you worry little me I got you
I wish I could, open up my brain sometimes,
Show everyone what it’s like, they all would say,

“Sure it’s a normal brain, everyone’s the same”

Nah it really isn’t you see, because there is something different with mine, I’d show it to you if you have time?

I might “look” okay but, my brain races,
I might say that I am okay, but within moments,
My brain creates scenario's for a million different things, that dont even exist,

If only you could see it, some days, it’s repaired,
Next, it’s beyond.
I don’t know what to do how the **** am I suppose to respond?

Some days I feel everything,
Others I feel numb,
On top of that,
A voice,
Saying,
Dumb, dumb, dumb.
Mam
Mammy, you’re a warrior,
You have shown such courage,
As I wrapped my arms around you, I hold back tears.
I haven’t been able to think or do too much,
I’ve been going back to when we could have helped you,

Those little death sticks must be laughing at us, they have the greatest hold, almost like a secret to never be told.

You look like yourself but I know you’re trying to break though, don’t worry mammy I do see you.
It made us feel so happy,
Knowing that you were there,
Whenever we needed someone to talk to
We knew you would always care.

When we would visit to see how you were,
You would look up and smile,
It would bring a tear to our eye,
When we would talk to you for a while.

When we found out that you weren’t feeling well,
We didn’t know what to say,
By then, we couldn’t tell.

Now, your journey has come to an end,
Our hearts go out to you,
We will never forget you,
We will always love you.
This morning I woke up
Stomach in a knot
My eyes adjust to the light in the room
I raise my hands to my face
I noticed my wrists as I do

I feel angry at myself

“I am fine, I don’t need any help
There are worse than I come on it’s been ages since I last cried”

I feel embarrassed, ashamed and full of regret
I hide the pain sketched onto my wrists
I try to forget that it exists

I tell no one about what I have done
I don’t need the help
The battle has been won
Brain fuzzed like a cloud of smoke,
Every bad thought just vanished,
I am not going to lie, it feels amazing.
Cocooned in a loving embrace,
It makes me feel safe.

Once the cocoon falls off, my mind is racing.
Every thought comes back like one massive hurricane, hurling every emotion like debris,
Out through anger and frustration.

Once it stops, I stand and look,
Broken promises and conversation like shattered glass spilled onto the floor making it hard to walk.

Everyone is shocked at my actions, my parents heartbroken and hurt. My siblings, they pretend not to notice but I see the sadness as they refuse to talk.

I still don’t care, I love feeling numb,
I love not feeling myself and feeling ****** up,
So I then again turn to my old friend,
Then the cycle begins once again.
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