Your face haunts my dreams I hear your voice saying my name I used to love hearing it but it's twisted now You are gone but in my mind Memories fade and change with time I remember you cared I have forgotten why because I know I know the truth that you left me alone to cry I'm done fighting the past Finished reliving all of my mistakes I don't even miss you anymore it's been too long I see you every day walking in the halls Heard you had a girlfriend now but I really don't care It's been a year since we ended You still give me your hat and play cards with me The only fight I can beat you at Poker and Blackjack
The stars giggle Drunk on the dust In the Milky Way They tip over Turning a fall into a dip When I squint I see you just like this Dancing at the end of a stick
I would like to say I wake up in the morning Refreshed and ready But I just squint through the light Pouring through my window Trying harder and harder to see you As you disappear
People can not understand what I am They seem to believe there is only woman and man I wear clothing based upon my mood Jeans and a muscle tank or skirts and formfitting shirts Changing constantly never fitting in Being myself in whatever brings me comfort in my skin My pronouns they may vary From neutral to more feminine or masculine Purely nonbinary and simply me
Invisible without a coat of unnatural powders on my skin Strolling unnoticed through crowds in big hoodies Hot days ruin my usual calm and the outfit is swapped Exchanged for a simple skirt and shirt I do up my face to hide my discomfort with my clothing Eyes linger on me much longer than necessary Constant glances from women and men I know when I'm home I'll wash and in an instant I will simply disappear again For in my most comfortable, I have found I am invisible