Lost love

Lost love Mar 2019

Dear future husband,

I am damaged beyond repair
And since hearts don't come in pairs
This means I am now heartless

I won't be able
To give you the love you deserve.
Am sorry

Yours truly
Your wife who's incapable of loving.

#broken #nolove #sad #husband #letter #heartless

Lost love Sep 2018

Deceiving yourself

We mastered the art of pretending until we believed we are who we pretend to be.
We didn't realize that we lost ourselves in the process.
We pretended to be okay and we ended up believing that we are.
We didn't realize that the more we pretend the more we are breaking.
We got lost in our pretences and forgot about reality.
Hey! Wake up and try to find yourself before you lose the last part of you.

We mastered the art of pretending until we believed we are who we pretend to be.

#pretend

Lost love Sep 2018

Am losing myself

I feel like I became a different person everyday
I wish I could remember who the real me was so that I can be okay.
Every time the sunsets it takes away a part of me.
I keep losing myself each day.
why do I feel like the stars are created by the little pieces that the sun took away from me?
I try day by day to get the missing pieces back but they are just so many I lost count.

I need someone to remind me who the real me is... I forgot how to be myself I feel like I became a different person everyday.

#sad #lost #broken #realme

Lost love Feb 2018

All i ever wished for

All I ever wished for was to see your face
Hear your voice and start from the base
All I ever wished for was to have siblings
Love them all and see what the future brings
All I ever wished for was to talk to you once
And Maybe get some advice
All I ever wished for was to Hear you call my name
But hey we still playing the waiting game

a poem about how I wish I could meet my father... even if it's just for one day

#wishes

Feb 2018

Lost Boy

When You’re Breaking

When you’re breaking
You have this look in your eye
Of betrayal
Knowing life brought your hopes up
Just to drive you to the ground
And your heart broke into a thousand more pieces.

When you’re breaking
I can see it in your smile
That strong mask you go back to
When you can’t deal with
The weight of the world
on your shoulders.

When you’re breaking
Your mind goes back to default
Telling you you’re alone
And that you have to be alone
Because that’s how you were raised

When you’re breaking
I’m breaking too
I tell you you don’t have to
Go through it alone
I’d walk with you through hell

When you’re breaking
You don’t see how much people care
How much love is there for you
If you only opened your heart
And let me put your pieces back together

Something I wrote abou a year ago because February had always been a bad year for us

#death #love #lost #help #break #heart #fix #pieces

Lost love Feb 2018

I shouldn't have

I shouldn't have went there
I shouldn't have gave him too much credit
I shouldn't have said it
How I wish I shouldn't have done a lot of things

I shouldn't still be thinking about him
I shouldn't have been a fool
How I wish I should have been stronger and acted differently
I shouldn't have let it affect me
I shouldn't have believed them because myb I would have been a different girl.... a better girl

I should have left everything in God's hands
I should have learned to love
I shouldn't be confused with my feelings
I should learn to follow my gut

I shouldn't have let strangers be part of my life
I shouldn't think that am not good enough
I shouldn't think about it anymore
I should have worked hard
I shouldn't feel like this
I shouldn't feel sorry for my self
I shouldn't have

Lost love Jan 2018

Playing pretend

We played pretend
We pretended like it never happened
Like it was all just perfect
We chose to play the game
We turned pretence into art form.

#facade #pretend #play #game