when i get sick
you're by my side
when i cry
your by my side
when i have troubles
you know the right words to say
when i have problems
you know the right words to say

but now
you're not by my side
when i am sick or when i cry
no one know the right words to say
when i have troubles or problems

i am not trying to be unfair or ungrateful
but i miss you
and right now
you is what i need

I’d rather write than speak
My pen is always responsive
My ink doesn’t judge my mistakes
My paper doesn’t argue
My lines never cross me
My sentences never disappoint
And my words will never leave me

What i need right know is be on my side
Be a father to me
comfort me like a parent would do
talk to me in a perspective of a parent
not in a perspective of a man
you are my father
please be on my side

i know parenting is hard
i understand that much
but please
just this once father
side with me
dont answer in a perceptive of a man

that is what i need right now

He was like a cigarette
I know he's bad for me
But it feels so good
What can I do, am already addicted
And I knew I should stop
Just like that
I cant stop

I feel it
My lungs, my heart
Its crying begging to stop
But I cant
I cant stop
I'm loving it
I'm loving him

Even though it's hurting me inside
Its addicting
The feeling and the pain

I have anxiety
And no one else knew
By now, I slowly getting used to it (I think)
I know I'm the one that can cure me
No one else but me
So why bother tell to anyone

But first I have to believe in myself
Start to think that "I'm worth it and I'm enough"
I have to realize that life is not that bad as I think
what i need is to believe in myself
It's hard for me to believe in me

Maybe someday
I see myself
And realized
That I am important like everybody else

Somewhere between then and now,
It went from “Mom, stop telling me what to do”
To “Mom, please tell me what to do”

Somewhere between then and now,
It went from “Mom, you don’t understand”
To “Mom, I don’t understand”

Somewhere between then and now,
It went from “Mom, stop asking so many questions”
To “Mom, I have so many questions”

Somewhere between then and now,
It went from “Mom, leave me alone”
To “Mom, never leave my side”

Somewhere between then and now,
I realized the other half of my heart was always
The person who created it

i am drowning
should i do this?
can i do this?
i am screaming

i am 24 for god sake
but here i am
still dont know what to do
doubting everything
full of uncertainty

i am 24 years old
and yet here i am
unsure about everything
dont know a single thing about herself