she’d burn to keep others warm
a heat so extreme it made her feel cold
there was no fire to keep hers ignited
she wasted her gasoline
on relationships that could never be
hoping
wondering
“when will someone strike a match for me?”

For every soliloquy preached, a demon is exorcised;
It is always better to speak than to die.

Hummingbirds hover.
They know your kiss is so sweet.
Nectar on your lips.

do not fall in love with people like me.
i will destroy you
so beautifully
yet so quietly
that you won’t even realize you’re gone
until you are.

not because i want to.
because some part of me thinks loving me
is something you have to survive.

i will pull away
when all i want is to be pulled closer.
i will freeze
when you offer warmth.
i will try to disappear
just to see if you come looking.

and you will.
and that will break me
more than it ever breaks you.

so do not fall in love with people like me,
unless you can love someone
who is still learning
how to be loved.

Some of us know.
Some of us don't.
If you hate me?
Question yourself why?

Is it because of my success?
Is it because of my failure?

Is it because of my confidence?
Is it because of my weakness?
If you hate me?

Many of us never know until it's too late.
And many times, it's over the smallest things.

Is it because of my promotion?
Is it because you didn't try?
Many of us hide behind various alibis.

But truth does lie in, if you hate me?
Question yourself why?