Why do I buy my friends-
Dinner, games, drinks?
Do they like me?
Or am I just...
Money?

Do they like my jokes,
Or laugh in pity?
Knock, knock,
Whose there?
Not my friends.

Should I leave bed,
Get dressed, go to work,
Are they proud of me?
I have a job,
Some of them do not.

Why do I need them,
Text them, make plans-
Set in motion our days...
They don't seem to care,
Unless I have something to give.

I wonder if they know,
If they know how much it hurts!
Like ice in my heart-
And lead in my stomach!
Maybe I'll eat alone today...

Dear,

LOVER
these buzzing fluorescence have you..
looking just a little pale.
All of this antiseptic really CLASHES with that perfume
This linoleum makes any pair of 100$ shoes look
CHEAP
Baby?
I don't think you see
just how BEAUTIFUL you look right now
Do you see me?
Look in the mirror
I am the DARK SPOTS
all of your once graceful skin
the HOLLOW spots that dig in to your face
Your color
its so
DELICIOUS
I love you
all of this multicolored CONSTANT love we share
Be RAW and HEAVY with me
LOVE me
These tremors
Ill HOLD you baby
Listen to my voice
The way that WE DANCE!!
HA!!
The music
The cells splitting
2 TO 4 TO 8 TO 16!!!
YOU CANT JUST TIE A BOW AROUND ME!
Did you think Id leave you sweetheart? That easy?
REST my love
I love you
Your heart is AS BIG AS THEY SAID IT WAS
but not..


as strong.
I WILL MAKE YOU LOVE ME!!
they try to put some
EXPIRATION date
on our love
on when I will leave you
One day you'll wake up with a stitch
and you'll know
I'M. BACK!
I understand that you want me dead
fine then.

DIE WITH ME.