One little astronaut build a spaceship  of junkyard parts and wielded up the mountainside and tried to get the thing to fly looking through his telescope of cardboard and a paper hole and hoping soon to fly even though he hasn't even lived
But the ship was build real bad and rolled down the mountain slideing down the mountainside landing into the ocean's tide  
But the pilot had to face I'm floating in outer space I'm further than I was before heading to the ocean floor now I'm in the furthest place possible from outer space and the one I love I guess it's a poetic way to die ironic I can't even cry I'm surrounded by salt water so why even bother trying to fall in love with you feels like getting hit in the back of the neck with the wiffle bat full of stars and I got scars to prove it under my hands and over My heart

I  never clean my heart, I got used to tearing things apart, abstract emotions make the commotions passionate anger passionate sadness passionate madness

Passionate art passionate hearts.  

I  never clean my heart, I got used to tearing things apart,

For you. If it meant my life filled with misery just for a moment of joy in your life I'll happily live in misery

I'm doing better but I'm wondering if you're doing fine I can't get that thought past my mind
If I could breathe again I wouldn't starve to sin

Teach me how to be mean
show me how to be clean  
Teach me teach me teach me


Teach me how to be mean
show me how to be clean

Show me the way

How to smile in pain  
Show me that we will never leave our sides
show me every star in the sky
Show me every lie
show me every surprise
Show me every scar
Show me every dream
Show me every surprise
Show me that twinkle in your eye

I'm changing ways changing days I'm changing the current waves

You'll get two for flinching and a extra one for dodging.  

A hug for every stutter
handshake for every flutter
You'll get more than what I could ever ask for,  you're all that I need You're the only thing I bleed.    

It could be a distance even though in the same room I feel like I'm floating Even though I'm physically choking  

A kiss for every scar
A wink for every time you needed to think
A smile for every time you brought yourself in denial.
A smirk for every time you pretended to be a ****  

I thought things would stop I thought wrong even with my eyes this world I thought I'd leave behind.  
I want you to have what I can't.  
I want to feel the things that you're not supposed to.  
I want to hurt for you I want to hurt with you.  

It's inedible the incredible that I could find somebody to loathe somebody to crown somebody to dress  beautifully . Somebody that accepts themselves the same way that I hated myself.