Ever since I was little,
Whenever I saw a shooting star,
Or broke a chicken bone,
Or when the clock struck 11:11,
I would always wish for something
It was always the same thing
Because growing up wasn't easy
And the one thing I wished for
Was happiness
True happiness
And that's all you give me
I guess I've been wishing for you.

I hope for your touch
On my angelic soft skin
I urge for the pleasure
The pleasure within

I look for the warmth
Your tender embrace
Uncovering my innocence
Lace by lace

I ache for the lust
Which follows thereafter
Sensitive touches
Wonderous laughter

I await the days
With burning desire
To awaken your lust
Put your senses on fire

Engaging in your charm
Full of excitement
Amorous youth
And classy fullfillment

Enraptured by eagerness
Sought to please
These boundless exctasies
Accomplished at ease

Im tired of reaching
You not taking my hand
Im tired of picking up pieces
Like playing in the sand

Im tired of you never confident
Never opening up
The hope is nearly gone
A last sip from your cup

Take it all in
Breathe in what you expose
You smile on the outside
What's inside, who knows

I know you're hurting
I know your're lost
But give it your best effort
No need to exhaust

I'm here to listen
I promise you
They say
"I'll always love you
No matter what you do"

But the thing is
I will
With all that i have
I will
With all that i am

Im here to guide you
And keep you from harm
No wings to life
But to shelter by arms

You need never say
Whenever you are down
I always know
Whether smile or frown

I know when you're hurt
I see right through you
And though you don't know
I really do love you

You are my love
You are my keeper
You are my one fan
My one believer

Mistake me not
For falsehood or deception
For the one thing i need
Is your clear heart's reflection

All alone in this room
Even my favorite song
Is an empty tune...

I don't even know who I was even meant to be
The only part of me they know is what they have seen
Help me, I can't figure it out
I'm desperate, I don't even know what my life is about
I'm trying to describe it but I don't know how
How will I explain to my kids about the future now
What have I done?
Who have I even become??
I can't keep lying to myself
I can't keep pretending
Because who I really am
Is on who I'm depending
All these fulfillments
And all these "distractions"
But still feeling empty
As if there were a hole in my heart

And it's tearing me apart...

Am I suppose to accept who I've become?
Or try to find that young innocent me
And discover where I am from??

I'm tired of all of it
I'm just ready to give up |