The past is my poetry
and my foolishness, my fuel
I loved with hope
I loved with joy
I loved with all my heart
I played an open hand

and lost.

I stood up again.
and lost again
to the simple smile

a smile so beautiful
so innocent
and yet so dreadfully deceiving
sparking a sense of hope
for hopeless love.

But I was a fool
Walking into a cave of cruelty
stuck in a prison of pain
And I didn't run
I waited.
Smiling and hoping for love

blinded by hope
blinded by "love"
my mind froze
while the seasons passed

The way I loved you
was unhealthy
corrupting the very core
of my character
it melted my loving heart
leaving only a puddle of tears

I still love you. I do.
but the way I love you
has changed.
I no longer hope.
Instead, I walk
with my head held high
granting my heart
to those who deserve it.

One* I love, and one loves me.
I would give the one all my time.
But the second one I refuse to see.
Love is not fair and Love does not care.

But I wish it really was...I wish it really did.

Please little heart
in my chest
You don't you have to
please him
for the rest of your life
He is no god
He is no angel
He is just a mortal man
But still he touch my heart
like no one ever could
oh please little heart forget him
for the sake of both of us.

In public I act independent
No need for care or attention

But in privacy I pray for your love...

Take my fragile heart
Keep it safe I beg you.
Don't tear it apart.
But love it with care.
It will grow.
I promise.
It will give cover.
From the baking sun.
And the fruits.
Will we enjoy together.

I cannot give you love.
I can only give you kindness.
I am sorry.
You love me.
But I do not love you.
I am sorry.
I feel pain.
But so do you.
A pain much greater than mine.
I am sorry.
I like you, I really do.
But I can only give you
what my heart has to offer.
And that is kindness.
A kindness I know is slowly killing you.
I am sorry, I don't know what else to do.
You are addicted.
Addicted to me.
I am sorry.
I want to cure your addiction.
But I cannot come near you.
I am sorry.
"Let us stay friends."
A wish for me.
A nightmare for you.
I am sorry.
You lost hope.
I lost a friend
I am sorry. Goodbye...

I saw everyone eating love
So I thought I should give it a try.
But the taste was bitter sweet...

Your beauty match a cherry blossom tree
No a garden!
The love that grow inside of me.
The start of spring!
Getting warmer, getting brighter.
Makes my head feel lighter.
It must be love.

Black and white
moon and sun
day and night
old and young
Here I stand
in the middle
of a duality
wondering what
is reality.