Skin pale as a lily,
Eyes dark as the night,
Raven's hair blowing beyond my sight.

Lay with me you plead,
A devilish grin dancing upon your face.
My heart skip-s beat
as we lay under the darkened trees.
The wind whispering gently.
Moonbeams dancing on the leaves.
Grabbing my face gently,
Like a midsummers breeze.

The kiss you leave upon my lips,
Gently starts to warm me.
Leaving me unexpectedly pleased.

The Grace of the Gods' have called before,
My darkened lord I am placed before.

Hands of fire awaken my skin,
Enveloping my Soul.
Gazing upon you like a crystal ball.
Lost in those eyes.
of obsidian.
I have never felt like this.
My body writhes with the ecstasy of potentially more.
Responding effervescently.
I reach my hands unto your supple face.
Still gazing in those orbs.
I get lost in your graceful soul.
Never have I looked this deeply before.
As you take my hand,
to your darkened kingdom.

Hand to hand,
Heart to heart,
Soul to Soul
Kiss me as My lips do part.
as we shift into your darkened realm,
Knowing we are forever bound.

You want to see my demons you say,
Fighting daily to keep them at bay.
I daren't loose control,
For my words are powerful
A spell to be-hold.

My demons are held locked away.
For once unlocked like Pandora's box.

You want to see my demons come out you scream?
I pity you for the words unseen.
I can make you feel two inches tall,
non the less you continue to squall.
to mark my mind in agony,
The screams coming from inside.
If I let them out you will go running away.
Continuing the battle in my soul,
I look at you and loose control.
My words knifing away,
You continue to bellow.


I start to tell you.
A horrific person you are.
Using me for ****** conductivity,
Money making ambiguity.
You want me to be your slave
In many,many ways.

Once you put your hands on me,
my demons came out and backed you against a wall.
I could not breathe.
I started to fall.
The void took hold as I listened to my words.
I hate you.
In reality it was the truth coming out.
Constant anger pushed aside
My words continued to lash to the skies.
You hurt me in more then one way.
Thank Goddess my kids weren't here this day.
You told me I was nothing without you,
The only one who cared.
These demons flashed
but not in fear.
The strength I had to walk away.
For your pitiful display.
I turn around mocking you.
Do you have any clue what my words can do?
I turn to you and sadly say,
I fought these demons,
day by day.
Now the words in a continuous flow,
my anger has started to get out of control.
I started yelling
I back away.
I hate the words you say to me.
I look at you and remember
I was nothing.
So hear these words loud and clear.
I am no more your puppet on a string.
I am no more a lover,
you do not deserve me
I am no more your maid.
Go find your mummy.
I am no more
tamed.
You will live a life of misery,
You will live the rest of your days,
for love will never find you.
If you don't change your ways.
Empty and alone is how you shall remain.
Once you find happiness,
May the God's take it away.
I am not crazy,
I am a Pagan,
I believe in my Gods'
And I know you will dissipate.
For all the things you have done to me.
You will eventually see.
Like a wild horse
never to be tamed.
I look at you
and walk away.
You begged for my demons to come out to play.

Now you cry and ask me why?
Why would I say such hurtful things.
Because all you asked was for my demons to play.
Now you want me to go away.

She hides the pain in her eyes.
The light slowly dimming.
Time can not heal this eternal wound
Inside she is withering.
She stares up at the moon each night
longing to see his face.
Each night her eyes are tear stained swollen.
Her heart is in ire.
But no one knows
No one can see
The agony inside she breathes.

As I lay me down to sleep
I pray the God's my soul to keep
Watch over me and mine
Let my soul forever shine in love and light.

As I lay you down to rest
May the God's take your soul
May they guide you home
I know I will never be alone,
Your spirit beside me.

May you find Summerland
and be blessed in all that you had.
Look upon this life
remember the good times
Learn from the bad
I'll see you next time around
May the God's Bless your soul
May your guides Guide you home.
May you rest in peace
We will meet again

Now I lay me down to sleep
Praying the God's my soul to keep.
Guide me home when the time is right.
Keep my heart in love and light
In Summerland I will see you again.

Looking at the pages torn.
Spread eagle on her floor.
Frustration filling her mind.
Eyes deemed with tears.
For another loss was near.
She could feel its
Heavy breathe caressing her pale skinned neck
Ripped from her hands
Another reason to cry.
She could not find the words.
She could not understand her world.
Her voice was just a whisper.
In the dark of the night.
No one would hear her,
Not the stars, the moon or the sky.
No one would even try.
The pale moonlight shining upon her
Knowing inside the words did not need to be said.
Page after page.
Began to shred.
In the morning light she would lazily awake.
Her eyes would tear open.
Her lips sealed tight.
Mourning, a loss she knew would never fade.
Soft as a summers glimmer Upon a. Darkened blue lake.
Eyes opening slowly.
Stretching to reach.
Nothing was what it should be.
She opened her eyes
To a world.
Of hatred,
jealousy,
lies and deceit.
She did not want to see.
For what was real
Was but a lie.
A game played over, again and again
Matters of the heart she could not mend.
She didn't even want to try.
Looking for the perfect words .
To say good bye.
She could not say them
She did not want to lie.
The nightmares began
Of her own accord.
Her demons betraying her Every word.
She tried to hide them.
But could not.
Her eyes growing weary
She began to nod off.
For in her dreams she could reach into a place that only her heart would be able to see..
For in her dreams was where she was meant to be.
Away from a world of cruelty and manipulation.
She went home that night.
Never to see another day.
For her goodbye
Was to walk away.

Through space and time.
The souls strings beginning to intertwine.
Like a brush on a fresh canvas,
Painting the sliver of pale moonlight.
The silhouette ,
Of the halls of time.
Standing before our eyes.
Each incarnation,
We stand eternally embracing
Connecting
Weaving
For all of eternity
The brushing on a canvas
Brought together in mutual understanding.

When looking into your eyes,
those fiery embers of amber gleaming right through me.
I look for the soul, faded but I recognized it, barely there.
You were trying to pull the familiarity within us away from me.
Yet something was amiss and amazing, hands shook and done with the usual introductions.
I saw you for the first time, I mean saw inside of you,past you,around you and saw what you really are. The first time we met, I knew- I knew you.
Every time, I stare into those eyes I get a glimpse of your soul. A feeling of awe whenever our eyes meet.
And I know; I know you, a feeling familiar yet distanced, here but gone. I knew right then the whole infinite you. My soul recognized your imprint upon my soul.
It dawned on me then that it was meant to be.. That this whatever was supposed to be....... Whether for just a moment, a century or a decade you were going to change me. For better or worse, I needed to just take the ride.
Standing outside in a cold rain, we both talking are enjoying the moment.. Just to be... When of course I make a smart *** comment and then.. Everything around us didn’t matter for that one moment.
As you drew me in I recognized a small flutter behind my stomach, as your lips touched mine, the whole world slowly slipped away. I run my hands through that dark brownish red hair and feel everything you are... The tenderness of the touch of your lips to the deep yearning of what you wanted it to be. Your scruff rubbing against my pearly white chin and raspberry tainted lips. I smell the manliness ; your scent, I smell you. Fingertips quivering, lips trembling,It all becomes Overwhelming, loving, everything around us fades to black and the only thing I feel is you imprinted upon me. My lips are swollen my breathe is shallow as you delve deeper with those lips upon mine.
We back away and the world is slowly turning to that dull grey day, I first felt you, the need was overwhelming, just to get a taste of you.
As we turn to say good bye, I flinch, the rain starts to get cold on my arms and that devilish grin gets settled on your face; as we walk away. I turn, blushing and a smile returning to my lips. Why was that so amazing. I’ve kissed thousands of times and nothing has ever taken my breathe away. Not even “Just a kiss”

1697
The moon is lit and the sky is bright with the glow of the moonlight. I was no older then seventeen, when you changed my dreaded life...
My feet echoing down the hall reddish curls flowing down my back, the feel of cold stone upon my feet, no need to dress, running just a few beads of sweat. I have this need to just get away from this life. I want to run, be free and never have to listen to a dreaded scream from a kitchen maid again.I needed to write.
The music flutters by; as I get a glimpse of the masquerade inside, masked people just dancing and drinking away, as I run past I am free and can only run to the gardens. Book in hand and wind at my back, I sit down just to relax.
As I sit, the air scented with roses and lilacs, I take the scent in, the feel of the cold bench, the smell of the crisp air, I sit upon a stone cold bench. Breathing just to relax....

“Lucky is my life in this castle, to the outside view, within the castle walls I feel caged. Small and unhappy nothing but leery voices, filled with dread echoing upon the walls, dreary and dreaded my kingdom might fall...”

I feel something, this ache inside my heart, connected to something, an energy, it felt familiar and comforting. I stop writing in the moonlight, and look up to see a man a shade darker then me, big fiery ambers that dwell with his soul melding me into utter silence as he walks ever closer. I hold my breath taking in his beauty. He towers above me, his warm fingers entwined into mine, as I gasp for a breathe because his beauty was beyond any I had seen, his dark hair molded perfectly to his face, long back locks shoulder length and ravenous his lips slip onto mine,a warm inviting kiss that leaves me familiar and filling me to the brim with a quietness I had never felt .His warm inviting hands intertwine into my porcelain skin, his lips pasted upon my own, leaving his soul bared and open.
He slowly pulls away for no words could say how wondrous that could feel. I watch him hand me one single deep red rose, thorns abound, I grab this rose and hold onto it for dear life. He walks away, no words, no Good-bye or even who he was. My mind wonders back to this moment day after day... The questions starting to rise and brim within my head.
Never had I been kissed before .....
Who was he?

For you wake each night
with my kiss brushed upon your lips,
My taste upon your tongue.
two souls intertwined as life just started
to begin again.
Hearts enchanted
Eyes bewitched
You begin to start
a fatal twist.
Like the dance of death
In the rhythm of Mother Earth herself.
Nothing left to bequeath.


.........................................    

Foresight it will be
just a mimic of the soul.
Something you can not control
and you will never feel right.
....................................................

Lost­ In my eyes you loose all hope
Let the words pounce from your pen
May you never feel love again.
Remembering it is just a parody of the world.

A reflection of a feeling.
None the less.
May your eyes see the truth hidden within
May your feet pounce once more on this soft earth again
May your nose smell deceit a mile away.

May your hands stray a thousand times,
for all the pain you have left for others to disguise.

Just to make them wonder if the imitation is in their head
Or will you die on your death bed for the mimic of a soul?
It is now you who bears the weight of the world ahead

Will you remember your true path or just let it go.
You are the mimic of a soul.
Again
and again.
May you pen,
for the loss of peace.
May you realize all of the deceit and dishonesty
and pain you have caused
May you realize  it was all in vain
For the mimic of the Soul
has no way to love.
Leaving you motionless
on a roller coaster
forced upon love.
Your happiness
depends on manipulation
Your ****** desires
are more then lust
A rage inside that I can see.
For the mimic of your soul is deadly.
Others blinded by you Mimic of kinship, lies and deceit
May your kingdom fall
beyond your limits
May your heart beat in despair
May your journey
be a thunderstorm you can not bare
May you live a thousand times
bleak days to greet you ahead
Binding the falsity
for in your Soul is blackness
so deep that only the awakened can see.
May you realize you have killed so many before
Remember the witch knocking at your door..
All for the mimic of love
A deathly punch.
All of this
Because
You are
THE MIMIC OF THE SOUL

As I dance in the darkest  fields of the night.
I begin to look closely
Hips guiding my legs
******* gently swaying
Eyelashes batting
Hair glimmering past my shoulders.
As I spin to the rhythm of my soul
Under the sliver of the silver moonlight
My feet feeling the dew on my toes
My legs tingling with excitement
Skirt flowing and brushing
intimate poetry upon my hips and legs,
Slowly bringing me to life
Flowing down my backside
as I slowly enter momentary bliss
Dancing to the rhythm of the Earth
My soul flying and guiding me
through the field
til I collapse
underneath the shivering tree
the wind dancing through it's leaves.
Slowly bowing down to me
I gasp in awe
because of the earths  unrivaled beauty
in the dark I can see clearly enough
Trembling legs
start to steady
as I dance to the tune,
of the ancient blood running through my veins.
Clouds like wisps of cotton candy dancing above me.
Knowing no one can see
I dance again.
Spinning and gliding across the fields
My soul dances slowly beside me
Keeping the rhythm

dancing to the beat.


Prodding deep inside my soul
I am a Queen,
in these moments
I am truly free.
No one but the moon
and the shimmering stars upon the sky
to watch me dance.
No one to judge me,
Where I know how to truly be free.

When you think of me
I hope you think of my best not when others have put me through a test. Ignorance is always bliss. Rip the band aid off and leave me to bleed..
You know me,
the best I guess loved you more others less. Trusted you and well we have both failed each other's quests.
So together now let's explore what is it you see what do you adore. What do you hate can you handle more?

A joke, a laugh a gas giggling moment i guess so riddle me this over again
Lets start this midnight quest
Lets begin:

When you think of me
What do you see?
Am I someone weak or strong
pretty or not
Old or young
Good enough
Or less
I putting you through your own test
Someone who's just a thot
Or do you find me hot
**** and *** a blessing in disguise I guess.
When you think of me
What do you feel ?
Love
affection
Happiness
Be real
Haha meh nothing
Or more like
Disappointment and confusion
Am I like a Contusion a bruise on your elbow . Just plain annoying
Truly you know I'm not always mellow


Ah ha got it
Nothing you see
For to you I'm crazy
When you think of me ?
A smile or a frown
Do I let you down
Do I bring you up
I can fix your crown
King or queen
an ace I am
I really do love strawberry jam
Chocolate or chips
Sweet or sassy
When you think of me
Is it fleeting like lightening
Or just a moment that flashes by
A quick glimpse of a smile
a wink of an eye
Or a frown of discernment ?
Better yet a tear of disappointment
Rare to find joy behind those eyes.
Its my fault
****
Great disguise.
When you see me what do you see?
Love
Lust
equality
Pretty face
Nice *** and ****
Or a personality
Ahh not your eyes love-
But deep inside me,
What do you really feel?
When you touch me -
Does it make you smile
Do you feel relaxed
maybe a little wild
Nevermind you might be disgusted

When you love me
Is it because your lonely.
Am I just a body for warmth at night
Are you demons running away when I slide under the sheets to stay
Or do you only care when no one is in sight. Your ***** little secret maybe to embarrassed to diaplay
Affection is like a disease to you.
More like an affliction or two.
Like it once maybe twice but thrice you hate me.. Turn to stand and walk away.
Just a toy for today.

Does Your heart skip a beat in your chest
Is there something there,
In that heart of yours
Dusty and boarded I cant see enough.
I guess my life got pretty tough
Do you see you or just the worst in me
Nevermind the answer
I will tell you what I see.
it is me after all,
Breaking it down like a wrecking ball?
Why me!
question number one I'm nothing special
What CAN I see
I don't compare to your ex's Never claimed to be the best
I know I'm better then your last.
One of a kind made here in the USA
My grade would be an A
I'm nothing more then a jokeTo you and your closest friends
Pick on me point at me make me feel less. **** me off. Let's see what it takes.. To make her
Runaway its a joke
I guess I'm to easy
shes crazy you say!!
We love her
But not really ..
Talking **** sitting next to me
Scoff some more
now I am dying laughing on the floor
a game its become to see
Who hurts the most.
Aye keep it going  
running away you made it work
Who could love me
Me of course

Protective jealous
A rage maybe
I guess its all in what you want
Just not your type
At least on the outside
Or for your heart
The Worst I guess
At least from you to me

A little cuddly
I know
Insecure
Immature
Selfish
No self worth
Honest
Blunt
Elegent
Entertainment of course
Clothes on or off today?
Making me feel like a *****
your not  just any guy
Nothing more then a hypocrite
I love my chocolate pie
I love to watch people
throw
***** looks
******* again
I laugh at you as you throw the hook
Loving life
Its best for us
To bad we would rather choke
Sometimes I wonder
Maybe its not right
Im not Just a *****
My legs don't spread for anyone
Probably to ***** for most
But it's kind of fun.

I hope this isnt the side that you adore
For I can be
Selfish and mean
Callous and cold
Calculating and vindictive
To those who hurt me
Too professional at times
Overprotective
**** it blurred lines
Dont know how to smile
All the time
Resting ***** face
Clean and clear
No wrinkles to erase
Keeps the skin clear
Sometimes I lie because I dont want to hurt you.
Sometimes
I
Am
Too:
Protective
Jealous
Mean
Lazy

I want you to run, so you can't attack my pride.
Hurt me like the rest,
Its the ultimate test
Win or loose
Its up to you
Let's compare
I'll run and hide
I don't like taking sides

I guess I'm a gem when I'm not my worst self
Caring loving sweet and a pretty face to see nice *** and **** a display of art i guess
scared lonely  this world will drive a sane person crazy.
Why do I care
I'm just me.
Someone to always wear her heart on her sleeve
The way to get hurt I do believe
At least its me being real

i Cry and weep
sob and sleep
What's wrong with me
I'm not the worst person can't you see
Lessons learned
But never enough
For I'm changing day to day another moment another way
Another lesson learned
Time to sway far
Yet near
Not loosing myself again dear.
I promise one day I might be good enough.

Until then I hope you get your jokes worth.
Til the end
I try to change daily and be the best me. Not good enough for you I see
You have no pride in me  Locked away in a closet like a prize doll to take out and play with,
Til your done then toss me back..

I'm not just here to please you
I am here to
love and please me
No heart attacks
please
Let's be blunt and real
  leave me here to bleed.
Hatred is a harmful seed
Now enjoy the night
These words are done
Have some fun
******* and the horse you rode in on.
Bleeding the bandaids gone
narcissistic love

Staring out the window.
The wind stirring the storm,
ice blades dropping from the sky.
I stare in awe.
as I see nature take out its hostility.
A beauty all its own

Ice shimmering in this world.
Like diamonds hitting the earth.
Its what I see
Beautiful in its own light.
Reminds me of how cold and cruel life  can be.
For the only enemy that ice has is heat.
So dark to light
Day to night
Yin to yang
The storms come again and again.
As this is life.

One day at a time.
Forgetting the world around us
Our souls intertwining
even through the rain
You hold within you so much pain
Each day you show me
how deep your love goes
I am thankful to have you
These words never go unspoke.
Our love is deep
and flows with the sea
Setting our sails
to coincide
You are my destiny.
A home within your soul I seek.

Appetite,spirit , fantacism
Love, ardour
lasciviousness
Spirited
Vigor
Fire

Connection, lust
Fervor
Fixation.
Compulsion
Love.

cascading
from the sky
velvet drops
upon my ivory skin
dripping down
to the ground
cleansing everything around

My souls in a raging fire,
It knew the answers.
They were foretold in dreams
of a Ravens Flight,
The Raven circles
around not once
not twice
but 3 times.
In my face it caws at me
beak a breaths hair away from my nose
I look around and the skies are grey

I see us
You staring at my face.
But in the beginning the skies were blue
I guess it's just being foretold your dreams of me from you.
3 days later
lo and behold
It all comes to be.
Wait I think
My skies are blue
My heart is numb.
A dream foretold
Never to be begun .

I remember the hum
the earth crumbling beneath my feet
But I feel nothing.
My soul spoke to me in this apparition.

Before my heart could beat again for you.

The Raven has foretold many a things
At least on my path
change is in the air
I got the message
I can bear this fate of mine
The agony is mine to bear

Lost and Found

Intuition on peak
I guess the Raven
is still a friend to me
Let your dreams come true
My heart is no longer tethered to you
You hurt me once
You hurt me twice
Now I am numb
and I feel the hum
of my own heartbeat.
Let the Raven caw
In matters of change
Be a warning to you
Don't you see it's My Fate
Left to be alone.
It's ok
I swear
You lit my fire
and left me to
wander.
I will engulf all
That I am meant to be
I leave you here to find your peace
Let the Raven call
be heard loud and clear
When danger is approaching near.
AS to me
was done to you
Let the circle be broken,
I still love you.

air a refreshing breathe
Giving me a reason
to go on.
a soft caress
on my wounds
healing on a summer's breeze

From spark to flame
on a cord
Flame to smoke
a bed of wax
construing from
a breathe
of air in the dark.
synchronicity
friendship
energy
love
all the while
A flame can be a passion
or a raging fire.

I could almost touch your lips
I could almost taste your scent
I could almost relinquish in this dream
Getting lost on a never ending winding road.
Now it's time to set the scene
A man
tall and lanky
Dark hair
Dark eyes
Not  bad on the eyes
A soul so full of love.

A woman
Cherry lips
Button nose
dark eyes
and darker hair to match

Sensing the other in the past
the present taking hold

Reaching through the lacy veil of time
They reach and reach
But never to touch
Just to see
in a lacy screen
Falling asleep
to the lull of each other's voices
Caressing the mind so intimately that no one else could see
For the trials
begin
Never to fail
Not quite the end
Fire and water
a balance or test?

Souls soft
quietly reaching
Just to barely touch

You could almost taste me
You could almost smell me
Almost able to reach through a lacy veil
But time can tell
It never will be worth it
In the end
Turning away
they both reach one last time
To be bound by glass between them
barely able to reach and feel
Barely able to touch
Almost being the key.
Turning away one last glance
There story ends
and a new one begins.
A lover scorched
through distance in time leaving one
empty
And the other finding what they needed
in the end
Both feeling the pain
But nothing in life is giving.

For now the shroud of lace
turns to ice
at a demon's pace
Blocked
never to be
is this the end of what  could be?

Black void
deep thoughts
Supressed
Not even the wind
The air stiffling
crippling
as I breathe.
Thoughts diminishing
Peace. Silent.Free

I have been through your mind a thousand times.
Where most would run,
I choose to hide.

For in those walls I see the man that needs to be seen.
But is afraid he can't for he feels the world would cackle upon thee
Memories lost ebbed in time penned on paper to seek his line.

No one sees the agony in his dreams.
Stomped on used and abused.
Left to be his own muse.

For no one could see the depth in his words.
They resonate so deeply within me.
Like a sad love song, a final epiphany .
Holding your hand crossing the veil we sit together and weep,
in joy and pleasure broken from pain and agony.

The man I see so utterly strong,
puts men to shame in their dance and song.

Like a god sitting on his cloud laughing down at humanity.
I feel you like a midnight breeze.
Holding you close in my ethereal arms I kiss your temple.
Let the pain be gone.

For love resides in both of us .
Together we can face our mistrust.
I am here to heal and never to mock.
I know I must -
for the man I seek is more then lust.

Souls touching for moments in our years,
we have had each other for all these tears.
Unbeknownst to the spirit we sought.
Together we conquer demons afar.
My love for you grows stronger each moment.
Like a crescendo at the edge of sonata..

I love him,
I don't say this hastily.
He's truly everything I have dreamed.
Never have I had a moment to gaze upon his face.
Moments in my souls memory is all I had.
What he shows me is surreal in it's place.
Taking me off to fields of grace.
Daydreams about both of us.
Putting pieces together in our inner thoughts.
Memories lost
Remembered through time.
All from a dream of mine.
I knew his soul the second we spoke.
Like a feather gracefully caressing my face.
Soft supple hands grabbing my waist.
It's something I can't explain.
The respect shown.
The recognition there.
The gentleness of his words, when he hears my innermost thoughts.
When my demons wrestle with me he has protected me with his wings of fire.
Feelings like these never disappear.
I felt his soul so deeply
It scared me.
A connection so cavernous.
One of a kind.
He shook me
When our souls gazed upon each other.
Knowing
feeling
Being
Through darkened waters and  time.
I knew it was you all along.
To loose you
Is to let the shadows play in  my mind.

Knowing that time is just a measurement
that it is running out.
Don't play the games of the beast around you.
For loosing yourself should not be in the cards.
Take a moment,
and stand tall remember who you really are.
Fighting back breathless as each second ticks by-
the darkness you are starting to occupy.
Look for the light in the one you seek.
Gazing upon a midnight's dream,
Take a moment and breathe.
Look upon the moon tonight.
Think of the answers you seek
Don't embrace the madness around you
It just learned how to control you,
and you are loosing the game;
for allowing it to envelope you.
Stop playing all sides
make up your mind
Find what it is you desire.
Take a chance and the less traveled path.
Seek the love in the ones who care for you.
never asking for anything in return.
Be strong,
Stand tall,
Remember who the ******* are,
Remember the long nights draped in the darkest of skies
The freedom you felt...
and how you never wanted it to end.
Remember the long gazes
Like a Siren singing you a lullaby
Remember the end when no one controlled you
Remember the end where you are you.
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