When you think of me I hope you think of my best not when others have put me through a test. Ignorance is always bliss. Rip the band aid off and leave me to bleed.. You know me, the best I guess loved you more others less. Trusted you and well we have both failed each other's quests. So together now let's explore what is it you see what do you adore. What do you hate can you handle more?
A joke, a laugh a gas giggling moment i guess so riddle me this over again Lets start this midnight quest Lets begin:
When you think of me What do you see? Am I someone weak or strong pretty or not Old or young Good enough Or less I putting you through your own test Someone who's just a thot Or do you find me hot **** and *** a blessing in disguise I guess. When you think of me What do you feel ? Love affection Happiness Be real Haha meh nothing Or more like Disappointment and confusion Am I like a Contusion a bruise on your elbow . Just plain annoying Truly you know I'm not always mellow
Ah ha got it Nothing you see For to you I'm crazy When you think of me ? A smile or a frown Do I let you down Do I bring you up I can fix your crown King or queen an ace I am I really do love strawberry jam Chocolate or chips Sweet or sassy When you think of me Is it fleeting like lightening Or just a moment that flashes by A quick glimpse of a smile a wink of an eye Or a frown of discernment ? Better yet a tear of disappointment Rare to find joy behind those eyes. Its my fault **** Great disguise. When you see me what do you see? Love Lust equality Pretty face Nice *** and **** Or a personality Ahh not your eyes love- But deep inside me, What do you really feel? When you touch me - Does it make you smile Do you feel relaxed maybe a little wild Nevermind you might be disgusted
When you love me Is it because your lonely. Am I just a body for warmth at night Are you demons running away when I slide under the sheets to stay Or do you only care when no one is in sight. Your ***** little secret maybe to embarrassed to diaplay Affection is like a disease to you. More like an affliction or two. Like it once maybe twice but thrice you hate me.. Turn to stand and walk away. Just a toy for today.
Does Your heart skip a beat in your chest Is there something there, In that heart of yours Dusty and boarded I cant see enough. I guess my life got pretty tough Do you see you or just the worst in me Nevermind the answer I will tell you what I see. it is me after all, Breaking it down like a wrecking ball? Why me! question number one I'm nothing special What CAN I see I don't compare to your ex's Never claimed to be the best I know I'm better then your last. One of a kind made here in the USA My grade would be an A I'm nothing more then a jokeTo you and your closest friends Pick on me point at me make me feel less. **** me off. Let's see what it takes.. To make her Runaway its a joke I guess I'm to easy shes crazy you say!! We love her But not really .. Talking **** sitting next to me Scoff some more now I am dying laughing on the floor a game its become to see Who hurts the most. Aye keep it going running away you made it work Who could love me Me of course
Protective jealous A rage maybe I guess its all in what you want Just not your type At least on the outside Or for your heart The Worst I guess At least from you to me
A little cuddly I know Insecure Immature Selfish No self worth Honest Blunt Elegent Entertainment of course Clothes on or off today? Making me feel like a ***** your not just any guy Nothing more then a hypocrite I love my chocolate pie I love to watch people throw ***** looks ******* again I laugh at you as you throw the hook Loving life Its best for us To bad we would rather choke Sometimes I wonder Maybe its not right Im not Just a ***** My legs don't spread for anyone Probably to ***** for most But it's kind of fun.
I hope this isnt the side that you adore For I can be Selfish and mean Callous and cold Calculating and vindictive To those who hurt me Too professional at times Overprotective **** it blurred lines Dont know how to smile All the time Resting ***** face Clean and clear No wrinkles to erase Keeps the skin clear Sometimes I lie because I dont want to hurt you. Sometimes I Am Too: Protective Jealous Mean Lazy
I want you to run, so you can't attack my pride. Hurt me like the rest, Its the ultimate test Win or loose Its up to you Let's compare I'll run and hide I don't like taking sides
I guess I'm a gem when I'm not my worst self Caring loving sweet and a pretty face to see nice *** and **** a display of art i guess scared lonely this world will drive a sane person crazy. Why do I care I'm just me. Someone to always wear her heart on her sleeve The way to get hurt I do believe At least its me being real
i Cry and weep sob and sleep What's wrong with me I'm not the worst person can't you see Lessons learned But never enough For I'm changing day to day another moment another way Another lesson learned Time to sway far Yet near Not loosing myself again dear. I promise one day I might be good enough.
Until then I hope you get your jokes worth. Til the end I try to change daily and be the best me. Not good enough for you I see You have no pride in me Locked away in a closet like a prize doll to take out and play with, Til your done then toss me back..
I'm not just here to please you I am here to love and please me No heart attacks please Let's be blunt and real leave me here to bleed. Hatred is a harmful seed Now enjoy the night These words are done Have some fun ******* and the horse you rode in on. Bleeding the bandaids gone narcissistic love
I have watched so many people in a narcissistic relationship loose them selves and feel crazy.. Some of the thoughts that run through the victims head go a bit like this. All over the place self doubt and learned self hate.. Lowering them to nothing but brianstew. Leaving them a shallow shell of themselves victimized and afraid .. This is the story of a girl who found her voice again..