Lexi - Hello Poetry

Lexi Dec 2019

I don’t know and nothing is all I feel;
it’s all I think. My muscles aren’t responding or maybe my brain just didn’t tell them to do anything
I don’t know.
My eyes however haven’t stopped flowing. Other than my heart, which I feel beating behind my eyes, seems to be working

#ppd #bpd #mother #help

Nov 2019

Ronin

you

you
are the everything
causing me to be
broken
empty
lifeless

you
did it
it is all
you
your fault
why

me
forever damaged
full of hate
all for
you

Nov 2019

Justin Phipps

Untitled

I cried today,
at work,
in the bathroom,
alone.

I left early.
The thoughts,
the sorrow,
the pain.

I bawled in my car
silently,
as soon as I shut
the door.

The engine kicks,
and you
move
on.

#sorrow #cry #pain

Nov 2019

Phoenix

unrelatable.

Sometimes i see no point
in trying to fix myself
only to be broken again.

It hurts, ya know?

#depression #anxiety #sorry #apology #sad #cry #sob #broken #i #dont

Lexi Nov 2018

bpd while pregnant..

My mind is always playing games but it gets to the point where I don’t know if it’s serious or not.

Am I happy? I just laughed at something but I don’t feel happy. Am I sad? I just thought about suicide again..****. Why do I never wear the same clothes again? Why do I cut my hair so casually as if everyone gets up randomly and shaves their head.. why must I be so care free and then guarded once I have friends? Where did they go? **** I pushed them away again.. but if I try and explain what happened I’ll hate myself because I am a burden..

#bpd #pregnant

Lexi Nov 2018

Our Unborn child

After doing everything I possibly could to keep you, I realized it was not me who was the issue.
You were.
With one seemingly simple choice, you broke two hearts. One all too fragile, that knows loss and love, hate and guilt. And one that has yet to meet the world, who will never understand why his dad left him.

Lexi Nov 2018

11:24

How can I possibly raise a baby of my own when I can barely raise myself?

#bbd #teenmom #singleparent #***