"FACE YOUR FEARS!" I scream



                                                                                                                        as
                                                                                                                          i
                                                                                                                 cower
                                                                                                                        in
                                                                                                                      the
                                                                                                                corner

I say "I’m somewhat of a poet or at least I like to write”
I tell her “I even have an account”
“Do you post under your real name?” She asks
“Hell no!”I quickly responded
“I used to write in middle school. I used to really enjoy it” She said
“But do you have an account?” I joke
Then we both laughed

why are all my words gloomy?
aren’t there moments that are silver?
perhaps it is they pass too quick
mistaken just as grey

she believed in jesus
though did not believe in us
honest until she wasn't
made it hard to believe trust

wonder why i itch to write
when wanters only wander
doers dance a simple step
still i know that most are somber

i could write a novel filled with thoughts of you
although it sounds cliche
like legends told by fishermen
the one that got away

you had me at hello                                           didn’t get to say goodbye
                          the greatest magic trick I’ve ever seen
                    don’t wonder how but why

tell me anything

                                                                                              just speak to me
             just your voice could make me weak at knees


                               but you stay silent all along

Once I sell these tragedies
I'll be rich and sad

being in love
with you
seems
like
a
bad idea

steal my heart

honest take it with you
                              
                                                               it’s been causing too much trouble

                                                                       swear i’m better off without it

i should be sleeping by now
                         yet i'm thinking of you
                                       and what order to put these letters in
                as if maybe i could line them up just so


                   and you’d remember why you loved me

teeter totter at an altitude
not safe to take a spill
sometimes though i imagine falling off
to see if it is real

wheres the golden days they spoke about
seem like metallic lies
shiny by the looks of them
still cold to the touch

thought i'd be famous by now
     though i never was exceptional
          thought i'd be better by now
they ask i say i am

You used to make me nervous

      

         But lately my nerves have gone unseen
I don't wonder how you been
So
I
  Never
   Ask
And it's visa versa

danced with the devil

now im groovin

lips like liquor
conversations always wasted

It felt like love
I'm almost certain that is was
Still there are those times where almost certain never was
Thinking close only counts with horseshoes and grenades
Guess I should've seen it coming when it blew up in my face

I loved you but you weren't able.





You make me feel like mashed potatoes.

sometimes it takes a while to dive back in and swim
when every steps felt like a mile it easy to fall to shins and cringe
but past calendars do nothing save take attention off the walls
had to learn that life keeps running even when you fall

cross the hall the people laugh as if it all is well
i watch them stall thru peepholes glass to decipher what is real

Tragic is the list of things
Sadness till it's Dizzying

If I had one wish

I'd wish you'd never cross my mind again
Not your laughter, lies, or lips

I figure I'd finally feel fine again

I loved you
I say this despite all your lies
Now I write this not for likes
But
     For
          Lives
Who feel dead inside
Terrified no longer
Those who wish to stop giving
A ****
     Up
          Their breath
To people content with living underwater
Living less then they were meant for
Living under harsh conditions
Screaming
     In
          Their loves ear
Hoping that their heart would listen.