We are like Wilber
The pig in Charlottes web
Needing help from
A friend when
Needing to prove ones worth

We are like shade silver wing
The tiny bat
That has to use his wit
DIY to save his friends
And family
We all have a purpose and duty
Beautiful
And brains
And are lovable
If we put our minds to it
Or work together.

After the fifth grade I remember this
That after encountering
A toxic person
For a full school year
I coped with the
After math
By reading astronomy
Astrophysics
And goosebumps
Books
And doing art
Reading helped
Keep me sane
Thought the years
And even
Saved me.
Believe it or
Not. Astronomy
And astrophysics
And art
Helped
Me in ways
Gave me piece of mind
And helped
Me relax
I share because
I care.

Sunsets
As the sun sets
Over a barn
A trillion
Little
Silverwing bats fly out
To meet the evening sky
As it darker
You cannot see
Them enough
Just a flicker of silver

Saskatchewan
Is the most surreal
Province there is
Building that look like school
Milk cartons
It does not get that wonderful
It does not get that surreal
Strange
Or
Beautiful
Tall milk cartoons
Sticking out of no where
How alien

There is a reason I am going to get to semicolons tattooed on my two middle fingers
It's because I am Chechen
And I am proud of who I am
I am against terrorism and suicide

There is a reason I'm going to get tosemicolons tattooed on my two middle fingers
Because I'm too **** proud of who I am
And I don't care if other people think I should die
Or I shall live on and live my story

Where is the reason I'm going to get two semi colons tattoos on my middle fingers
It's because I'd rather be me instead
Of some blonde dumb idiot
**** myself
Or starve my looking like
The it girl.

I am the shade the
Sliverwing bat
You know the baby bat for the books
I am petite
Runty
And smart
Yet I still have adverse situations
And people that I have to prove
My self against
And come out the hero
We are al like that
Even obese
People
Have personal struggles
That the have to fight again
We all have a goth and a throb
To deal with in our own way

In rural areas there is
This demon
Called
Sirenhead
Who I have seen
For this is a time
Of war
And pandemic
His favourable time
To be of public display
As for mei am not insane
For I had a witness to the sirenhead sighting
Near my old home town
Almonte

Mental health worker
Once to me how at
The end of the day and got to fall
Asleep to
The wolves and coyotes
Yipping
And yapping
Since I moved
I fall aspleed
To those eerie
You majestic
Sounds

As I go trick or treating
I see when pumpkin
That looks like it
Has fire version of the chicken pox
Or ance
With its perfect circular dots
Of sizes
What a unique jackolantern
I hope the flames don’t die out on
My speckled friend

I write about suicide
For thing
Is there is one of my pet causes
You see I  how had  to face turn years of hardship in my 20s
Because of my PTSD and my bullying that I went through
The toxic people in my life
All these things I wanted to face up close and personal instead of cowering
I'm looking way from death

I write about suicide
For one thing
That is it no one else has to die
Or have to suffer what I had to suffer in my 20s
Because the bad times do not last

In some eastern philosophies not everything last forever
And that includes emotions and dark thoughts
They too shall pass if you give it a chance

Piercings tattoos and gauges
The one person it might mean that they are rough looking and mean
But to me I find piercings tattoos and gauges
To be beautiful
Piercings tattoos and gauges
Someone would think that that would be a prisoner or a convict
But for the girls who want to look like Britney Spears
Who really is a convict or prisoner

Definitely not the person with tattoos piercings and gauges
If they don’t judge a book by the cover bit

As a write in my
Diary
I tell out the demons of the day
Or distant past blast the pages

As i I write in my diary
I .....
Celebrating the good times
Both current and distance

As I write in my diary
I think of new
Ways
Of being creative

As I write in my diary
I am saving my
Self
From future harm

As the sun flower
Turns towers the remaining
Sun light over the mountains beyound the
Sunflower field
There floats the Big Dipper

As I went to school for the first time
I saw the Big Dipper
And I was reassured
When I was on holiday and didn’t
Want to go home
Because of the bullies
The Big Dipper was there
To support me
As a graduate from high school
There it is again
And when I move out on my own
I seethe supportive dipper
Shining bright in the sky
Thank you for being there
Great dipper

A person once asked
If was a judgement free person
Meaning that I don’t judge people
I say I
Cannot judge people
For I have been judged
Upon
My race
Orientation
And uniqueness
I should be asking that question
Instead
Of the other.

Look my father said
Pointing into space
I didn’t know what he referring to
Until I looked up
The Dog Star
Of canus major
The dog constellation
I could all way trust my dad
To picture up on these things

There under a
Full moon
Some teens plat with a oujia board
In the cemetery
They hear howling
From a wolf but they
Ran of at the howling thinking
It was a demon
It was dark and full of
Terrors that night

I think mom
What should
Have been
Said is that I was
Suffering under an oppressive
Regime
Called catholic school

I Think mom
What should have
Been said
Is that
I was being bullies for things
Out of my control
And had to suffer 20 odd years

I think mom
What should
Is the word human rights violations
And law suit
Justice
And proper counseling

The wind is howling
Like a thousand
Wolves in the night
That flicker of lightning
Throw my bedroom window
That rumble of thunder
Like a thousand atom bombs
It put me a sleep
Spring is finally here
Spring is finally HERE!
Hope

According to the TV I am the soldier who strangled his wife
I’m having a nightmare I do the deed
According to the TV I am ******

According to the TV I am the serial killer who murders women
Just because I had a bad childhood
According to the TV I am ******


According to the TV I am the school shooter because I was bullied
The point where it traumatize me
Cording to the TV I am ******

According to the TV
The TV is ****
For not everyone is like that

One tv show
That brought
Me happiness
And joy
As a kid
That i miss as an
Adult
Of all things
Is the magic school bus
Man that show rocked

There was a man who walks his great Pyrenee
White dog that looks like a ghibli ghost
As if I were in a studio ghibli
I see that it 5 in the morning
I hear father yelling get in
But I was transfixed on the
Ghost
Like dog.

Why don’t you wear your mask
Like a proper human being in public
Do you care about other people or just your self

Why are you so idiotic
To
Inconsiderately spread your germs
And cause more suffering for other people

Is it because it doesn’t look good on you
It does match your looks
What the ****
Tell me
Why

There is no ******
There is no disability
Or challenge
Just gifts and blessings
Some of us
Have to work harder at
Our goals
Dreams and life
A little harder
That’s all
Don’t label
Demean
Or use slurs on your
Fellow human beings

As I was watching miserable
Netflix
I decide to talk a look
At the neighbours snowman
There eatting the snow man
Were three baby deer
This was the firs time I actually saw the deer
Without someone pointing them out