Day to day, same old faces
Night to night, same old spaces
People moving as one
People thinking as one

A gram or two, doesn’t matter
They keep me alive and better
Better than most of you
No mind for themselves or anyone

In this town where the end is dead,
Thoughts are rather kept than said
It’s the reason no one escapes this town
But I’ll make a destiny of my own

One day I’ll walk away from all this
Go to a place where the sun never sets
Live there and never come back
Forget my ghosts and my past

I don’t need fame or money
No, what I want is to be happy
Live where smiles are free
Sleep where dreams are meant to be

Someday I’ll find that place
The place they call paradise
Maybe when I sleep tonight, I’ll find it
If I do, I know I’ll never wake up again

She took her life in the morning
Her eyes closed, surrounded with tears
Tears not of loneliness nor fear
But relief for a new beginning

The world has made her numb
She gave more than what she had
She loved more than she can
This time she took only what she had

Her life was not her life
For years she lived for others
Lived somebody else’s dreams and not hers
And after all these things she was still fine

What broke her is not you
What broke her is not him
What broke her is not them
What broke her is herself

She realized there was nothing left of her
Nothing left of her to give to others
To the people who could never love her
At least not as much as she loved them

When it dawned to her there was nothing left
She took her chair and tied her belt
Looked out the window and saw the rising sun
And with that, she was gone

The sky was dark
The stars were black
The lights were on
The wind was a storm

I walked out on you
But why couldn’t I move?
I told you I was done
But that wasn’t part of the plan, right?

We were the best of friends
Who would’ve thought this would end?
The way you touched my hair
The way you looked when I told you I was scared
The way you laughed when I say a bad joke
The way you smiled whenever I spoke

These are all in my mind
Replayed every night as I press rewind
The water in my eyes never stops
I wish I could just put these memories in a box
Bury them deep in the sand
So it’ll get lost to somewhere I could not find

Insane how I keep you in my memories
You were only bitter and not sweet
Yet the ghost of you was the only thing that made me feel
It’s so ****** up how I want to believe
That you are more than what people see
I want to stop please just let me leave
I want to go away from you
I hate you, I love you

Saw you there in the middle of the night
You thought I couldn’t see you but how could I not
I stared and I wondered if you were alright
And realized maybe, you’re all I’ve got

I took a deep breath and went down the stairs
I opened the door and your eyes looked up to me
It was obvious in my face that I still cared
You took my hand and I saw what I’ve always wanted to see

You told me you loved me
You told me you cared about me
You told me everything you want us to be
And I told you my fears and my ghost
My worries of how this thing could go
You paused and said “ You’ll never be alone.”

Late at night, drinking my thoughts away
Lights are off, the curtains sway
Smoking a pipe, remembering your face
Floor’s messed up, I wished you had stayed

When I told you to leave, I didn’t mean it
Just couldn’t show you what I hid
Told you I didn’t need you, didn’t expect you to believe it
There’s still some left of me beneath this

The walk home is never the same without you
We gave up and ended too soon
No chances left for me and you
Maybe you still feel the same way too

But I kept the book you gave me
The notes we passed each other are still with me
The memories we made together, I still keep
These little and fragile things help me sleep

I try to hold on to what could have been us
When I cried in front of you and you gave me a hug
What could have been, if only one of us had the guts
Hard to admit that it all turned to dust

Now I know you’re better off with her
She probably makes you happier
She’s probably totally so much better
I was a lot and honestly, full of blisters

I am damaged and definitely not perfect
I understand why I was somehow less
Not good enough even at my best
My mind and my heart has always been a mess

Some things are better left not talked about
Some things are better kept inside than out
I miss you but it doesn’t matter now
I love you and that still matters to me somehow