Late at night, drinking my thoughts away
Lights are off, the curtains sway
Smoking a pipe, remembering your face
Floor’s messed up, I wished you had stayed

When I told you to leave, I didn’t mean it
Just couldn’t show you what I hid
Told you I didn’t need you, didn’t expect you to believe it
There’s still some left of me beneath this

The walk home is never the same without you
We gave up and ended too soon
No chances left for me and you
Maybe you still feel the same way too

But I kept the book you gave me
The notes we passed each other are still with me
The memories we made together, I still keep
These little and fragile things help me sleep

I try to hold on to what could have been us
When I cried in front of you and you gave me a hug
What could have been, if only one of us had the guts
Hard to admit that it all turned to dust

Now I know you’re better off with her
She probably makes you happier
She’s probably totally so much better
I was a lot and honestly, full of blisters

I am damaged and definitely not perfect
I understand why I was somehow less
Not good enough even at my best
My mind and my heart has always been a mess

Some things are better left not talked about
Some things are better kept inside than out
I miss you but it doesn’t matter now
I love you and that still matters to me somehow