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389 · Apr 2015
Simple Pleasures
Blue Angel Apr 2015
I wish to walk into a field of grass
Running my fingers through the tips, 
I wish to take long walks on the beach
And watching the sunset laying in the sand
I want to have picnics in the grass, where it's calm, listening to the birds chirp, and the leaves bristle against eachother, while I sip tea
Walking along the ocean line and smelling the ocean
383 · Apr 2015
Ruined
Blue Angel Apr 2015
Close the curtain
I'm done showing you ghost of me
obviously you can't think no further
I will never come to find you as my need
I poured my soul into your hands
and then you go and stab it
your heart must have lost color
and now you want mine
#color # stabbed #depression
381 · Mar 2015
What I See
Blue Angel Mar 2015
The truth 

Love is just a quote and lying is the new truth, 
normal is a seat-belt protecting you from what you can become. 
A seat-belt that protects you from the initial hit, but not from the whiplash that comes with it. 
Normal Is the death of dreamers and the strength of wannabes, 
perfection, you're all that anyone wants to see.
378 · May 2015
Fear Of An Unknown
Blue Angel May 2015
Why am I still standing here with tears, when in reality it's fear
Why do I care enough for you but don't care enough for me?
I hope everyday that you at least think of me because I think of you alot,  but I can't keep guessing on the sidelines to what I did wrong. I deserve an answer, not a disapper. But you are pretty good at that I guess, next time, I'll think twice before letting you back into my life, and when I do, I will put on a fight because you and I both know I'm right. You were my best freind, know, you're just a fear I don't want
I once had a best freind but I don't know what happened between us, she won't talk to me and this is how I feel
371 · Oct 2015
IT
Blue Angel Oct 2015
IT
It seems as though i'm feeling for something that isn't there
I grab it but it runs away, I don't know how to catch up, but then it turns around and laughs at me like i'm a silly little girl. IT=LOVE
361 · Sep 2015
Open doors
Blue Angel Sep 2015
When you feel like giving up, and wanting to just drop everything you work for, don't. Each door that you open has a million possibilities. Everything is sour before it turns and tastes sweet. The wound has to burn and sting before it heals. Put one foot in front of the other and keep walking until you decide to run for it. Every choice has a consequence, good or bad, but don't stop striving for it.
351 · Mar 2015
Colors
Blue Angel Mar 2015
You see everything in black and white
I see everything in colors
You only see what you want to see
I see beyond reality
You are so easy to read
I am easy to hide from
Now me? You shouldn't
I can tell how you do something, why you do it and how and for all the wrong reasons by just looking at you
Sure, call my ******
See if I care.
I see and view society differently, I'm on the outside looking in
350 · Mar 2016
How?
Blue Angel Mar 2016
People ask me how I maintain a smile everyday, how I am still going strong with the one I love, how I hold it in. To be honest, I don't know. I listen to music, draw, and write, sometimes that doesn't cure the need of a hug. Life experience carries me to the full potential of what I know. I have people of all ages asking me for advice, and I tell them to be patient. Let the wave ride out and resume life, don't give your love to someone who doesn't deserve it.
Someone asked me for advice today and I guess I give good feedback, I don't know.
346 · Apr 2015
Beauty
Blue Angel Apr 2015
Beauty is something you can feel, touch, and listen to. Stopping for a moment of inoccence and watching the sunset. Or feeling the water run between you hands like silk, and the sounds of angels singing within thr distance
#beauty
345 · Mar 2016
Weird Thoughts In My Head
Blue Angel Mar 2016
I've tried to please everyone I know, but I just kept pushing my issues aside. I didn't hurt to let go of my mistakes the first time, bu know, feels like everything I say has a bigger impact that I thought. I have this amazing ability to sense when something is wrong with someone, a maybe because I have been down that path. I see fear in their eyes and they try to hide it, but once I see it, I latch on whether they like me or not. I've been told that I should be a therapists. I don't know, I can just sense some amazing things though
341 · Mar 2015
Afraid
Blue Angel Mar 2015
I was afraid to let you in
I was afraid to let you love me
Because I didn't want more scares
I didn't want to be left in the dirt
I was tired of being hurt
And them you said it "trust me"
I'm Afraid, Im Afraid, Im Afraid
337 · Mar 2016
Freedom From Myslef
Blue Angel Mar 2016
I have finally found the freedom to be me
I thought it was hard, but I was making it difficult
You stayed with me and helped me even when I pushed you away
I was unbalanced and when I looked back at every bridge I burned
Every scar I made, and every tear I shed, I am truly sorry for the pain
And suffering I put you through. Trust can take a thousand years to earn but only a second to loose. I miss being happy and I am tired of hiding behind a mask of smiles and that where fake. Know I am happy and I do smile because you saw something in me I didn't see before.
Was going through a lot and confronting the truth with myself was bittersweet
325 · Sep 2015
Home
Blue Angel Sep 2015
Hve you ever had that moment when you want something so bad and it's right there in front of you, but the closer you are the more it starts to move away, and you can't do a thing about except fight for it, even if that means breaking the law, hurting loved ones. It might sound selfish but, until you loved him so ******* much that he is the only one, them you couldn't possibly understand. Starting from 0 and ending at 10 because of him, smiling, laughing and nothing could go wrong because of him, and just knowing that your safe, secure and comfortable with him is a big sign that it's love. But never tell me I don't know love, because I do. It's not easily described, but you can feel it in your heart. Every pounding moment, every ounce of it, is special
319 · Mar 2015
Worst of Me
Blue Angel Mar 2015
Confusion consumes me
chains, knifes, and actions strangle me
I want to hide and disappear forever
my strength has weakened and I can't breathe
How can I overcome something so big
How can I forgive if I don't know if he is sorry
Tears flow down my face
I'm losing all hope and fate
I can't let him go
He means so much to me
But he is hurting me and I don't want hurt
I want to fall asleep and his warmth fills my heart
I want to hold him, but what will it teach?
I dealing with a hard break-up, I can't control my feelings, and I'm constantly thinking of him
303 · Mar 2015
My Mask
Blue Angel Mar 2015
Behind this smile
Are the tears of an unsaved
I put on a show 
She tries to help
They both do
But my Monster will get the best of them
What is beautiful?
Living a life that isn't mine
Growing into the skin
Her color is fading
No more rainbows
Words held in like a safe
I'm secretly made of iron
Felt this way for a long time, I can only express through writing
301 · Apr 2015
Untitled
Blue Angel Apr 2015
You can either let me
              fall to the ground or
              get out of my way
298 · Mar 2015
Me
Blue Angel Mar 2015
Me
Pulchritudious

(the setting in the very beginning is a beach, with a sunset. After reading,  then next is a flower feild)



She sits with her rich blonde hair, reflecting in the sun covering just enough of the right side of the face. The wind smoothly picks it up and tossing it, allowing it to move with no resistance. Her skin looks peachy with a faint glow. Sparkles in her eyes, with a dash of blue almost the color of the sea or darker. Her stance is that of a an angel. Her smell is sweet like honey, and a small hint of apple. The dress she wears sits elegantly on her, fitting her curves,  a nice hint of blue, sparkles to even flow through out. Her feet lay even on the sand, between her tiny toes. Her face is covered with the hands of shame and guilt. Sadness hovers over her heart like stormy clounds over a field of flowers. But her smile is bigger than anything, and her laugh, oh her laugh is small and faint, coming out almost effortlessly. Giving off alot of who she is. Afraid to touch the purity of water itself, but isn't scared to jump and fly like a bird through the night. Heart beat at an even pulse. Laying peacefully on the bed of grass, looking up  and closes her eyes softly, there she goes. Asleep.
290 · Nov 2015
inside
Blue Angel Nov 2015
Broken Smiles and empty eyes
Shattered HEARTS and hollow lives
Put on your mask prepare your lies
they'll never see through your
Disguise
265 · Mar 2016
Untitled
Blue Angel Mar 2016
How can you stop something you have no control over? When will the string finally break into two after bring stretched for way too long? Or when a heart shatters to the ground, have you found the last piece to complete the puzzle?
Random crap

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