I was afraid to let you in
I was afraid to let you love me
Because I didn't want more scares
I didn't want to be left in the dirt
I was tired of being hurt
And them you said it "trust me"
I'm Afraid, Im Afraid, Im Afraid

It's crazy how the world changed
We all look apon eachother in shame
Discrimination at it's best
We are all equal, none the less
I wish to walk on the streets with pride
But instead I hide
Finding the urge to do so is hard
Words, lies rumors surface and it's written everywhere on me
It's unfair
I want an angel to come down and grant me 3 wishes
I'd wish for patience, peace, and equality,
Maybe then, I can walk happy

Do I deserve to burn alive while everyone watched me
Did a angel come down and save me and tell me I deserve to live
I can cut so deep and penetrate the skin
I can commite suicide, and pull that trigger
I can make sure the rope is tigt enough
I would run in front of a bullet aiming for the head
I would be left for the dead 
I want to be put on the cross, have nails pinned to my hands and sacrifice my life for theirs.

She sits outside
And cries her tears
Wondering when her
Angel will appear
And when it would 
If it could please 
Take away her sadness and misery
After hours and hours
Her angel had finally come
He said " oh my dearest 
Why are you trying to?" 
She said to her angel
"I am not beautiful,
They all call me dull and ugly" 
He said "don't you listen to them
They don't know beauty rests under mayhem
They all can't quite see 
What's under contsruction
That beauty rests under most present
Only after destruction

Beauty is something you can feel, touch, and listen to. Stopping for a moment of inoccence and watching the sunset. Or feeling the water run between you hands like silk, and the sounds of angels singing within thr distance

I am walking in fire instead if ice
I am willing to make a sacrifice
And with you, I'd risk my life
I'd pull the trigger if I can't  have you
After everything, I still want you 
We have something so special
It's so beautiful and fragile
You are my knight and shining armor

I didn't see it
Maybe I didn't want to
Just friends I thouht
He was nice, he cared
But he is like the rest, which isn't fair
Telling me I was beautiful, all for something, the warning signs were there
I just didn't want to believe
until once, he persued and I rejected
he didn't like that
and know for 3 months I feel marked
what's a girl to do?

I try to stand straight
But making you happy is a battle
I build my walls, too strong for you to tear down
I try to love you, I do try
But in the end, shots are fired
Im sorry I am not the perfect daughter
Living a life based on one moral
I'm sure I broke that many times
I was afraid of letting you in 
Letting you see what who the real me
I didn't want you to hate me
I'm not the person you think I am
I'm dangerous on the inside
Fire within me rages the more your words are thrown

Cars, people, trucks and traffic can easily ride along a bridge, holding 1000 pounds and more. It can't hold a souls that's falling into an ocean of depth.

You see everything in black and white
I see everything in colors
You only see what you want to see
I see beyond reality
You are so easy to read
I am easy to hide from
Now me? You shouldn't
I can tell how you do something, why you do it and how and for all the wrong reasons by just looking at you
Sure, call my ******
See if I care.

I don't understand you sometimes, you want me to be happy but I can't be with him. You want me to be the good little girl I am well sorry that is not available. I think of what not to do and some how manage to ***** something up. Why can't we go back to when everything was good and every one was happy with who they are. I don't eat because I am not hungry, I don't talk because I know I will get hurt, but you think its all to fit in with who? I dont' know. But here is me saying I don't care anymore. Here is me saying good luck without me

I feel as if in walking in the darknes
light stiches are broken but the twitch just enought so I can see something in from of me. I walk towards it, a mirror, it goes my scars, bruises, and cuts from life.
I want to disguise them, but they don't disappear. Especially the one marked with Love on it. It hurts, it hurts like a knife penetrating the skin. I can't seem to stop it. The damage is done

I want to wake up in the morning, the sun shining in my face and reflecting  my rich blonde hair
I want to tell you the cheesiest jokes but you will still laugh and say I'm beautiful
I want to be myself around you, i want to say I love you and mean it
I want to sing and dance while making breakfast and you're there to watch me and tell me I'm adorable
I want our hands and lips to fit like a puzzle.

Wondering on a yellow brick road with no place to go
Stuck on the same road, to where will I go tomorrow
Back home, or to my loved one's? But the important question is
What does my heart want? That is a secrete that only I know.
But my yellow brick road is still going straight, lets see about tommorrow

What doesn't **** you, makes you wish you were dead
Got a hole in my soul, growing deeper and deeper
And I can't take
One more moment of this silence, the loneliness is haunting me
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up

It comes in waves, I close my eyes
Hold my breath and let it bury me
I'm not okay, and it's not alright
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?

Who will fix me now, dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown
Who will make me fine, drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown

What doesn't destroy you, leaves you broken instead
Got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper
And I can't take
One more moment of this silence, the loneliness is haunting me
And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up

It comes in waves, I close my eyes
Hold my breath and let it bury me
I'm not okay, and it's not alright
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?

Who will fix me now, dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown
Who will make me fine drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown

'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own
('Cause you know that I can't do this on my own)
(Who will fix me now?)
(Who will fix me now?)
Who will fix me now?
Dive in when I'm down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown

You are my drug
I can't live with out you
No, I won't live without you
Your hands and mine fit like a puzzle
Are lips gently collide
Your body against mine, nothing can break us. Two peices of medal is what we are, we are strong, nothing can break that
You are a indeed my drug

Escaping into a reality
Thats only a fantasy
Grab a gun, ****** Rifle, and go for it
This is your time to let go and explode
All the volcanoes will crumble
I am tired of people telling me what to do
Not seeing the real picture here.

I hope soon I'll be standing with you, because in your arms, I'm home
The feeling is rare, even for my heart
One day I'll be back where I belong an that is next to you saying I love you.

Why am I still standing here with tears, when in reality it's fear
Why do I care enough for you but don't care enough for me?
I hope everyday that you at least think of me because I think of you alot,  but I can't keep guessing on the sidelines to what I did wrong. I deserve an answer, not a disapper. But you are pretty good at that I guess, next time, I'll think twice before letting you back into my life, and when I do, I will put on a fight because you and I both know I'm right. You were my best freind, know, you're just a fear I don't want

I have finally found the freedom to be me
I thought it was hard, but I was making it difficult
You stayed with me and helped me even when I pushed you away
I was unbalanced and when I looked back at every bridge I burned
Every scar I made, and every tear I shed, I am truly sorry for the pain
And suffering I put you through. Trust can take a thousand years to earn but only a second to loose. I miss being happy and I am tired of hiding behind a mask of smiles and that where fake. Know I am happy and I do smile because you saw something in me I didn't see before.

I'm not fragile, but I'm not weak
I'm in between
I'm not the definition of perfect, in fact, I'm far from that
I feel like a glass doll, you can see through me
My scars are on the line
Feel free to add more
I wish my problems were like a hookah pin, breathe them in, then within seconds they disappear

Her eyes sparkled when she looks at the moon, the glow reflectes off her skin, she looked whole again.
When she speaks, its smooth, silk sound that echoes on forever, and you know she is confident. She wishes the best for everyone and helped when someone needs it
Her personality, it reminded me of an angel that came from Heaven, her wings spread high and vibrant, beautiful, pure and white, as if her soul was in the hands of God. 
She is loved by everyone around her and she stands strong, with power and beauty. This is for you mom, hope you liked it.

I'm standing in the dark
Held by chains, can't seem to go far
I'm breathing in poison from you
When will enough be enough
I'm not your slave nor will I be
You don't seem to see, what your causing
Broken mirrors surround you
Because you are afraid of you
You ripped me apart and let me fall
I was walking in gold, now I'm stuck in stone

Hve you ever had that moment when you want something so bad and it's right there in front of you, but the closer you are the more it starts to move away, and you can't do a thing about except fight for it, even if that means breaking the law, hurting loved ones. It might sound selfish but, until you loved him so ******* much that he is the only one, them you couldn't possibly understand. Starting from 0 and ending at 10 because of him, smiling, laughing and nothing could go wrong because of him, and just knowing that your safe, secure and comfortable with him is a big sign that it's love. But never tell me I don't know love, because I do. It's not easily described, but you can feel it in your heart. Every pounding moment, every ounce of it, is special

People ask me how I maintain a smile everyday, how I am still going strong with the one I love, how I hold it in. To be honest, I don't know. I listen to music, draw, and write, sometimes that doesn't cure the need of a hug. Life experience carries me to the full potential of what I know. I have people of all ages asking me for advice, and I tell them to be patient. Let the wave ride out and resume life, don't give your love to someone who doesn't deserve it.

What type of person are you?
Are you the one to stand up and fight
or do you put down your guns and surrender?
Do you wish you had metal armor and everything richoted, or do you sit and take a beating till you can't breathe?
I know what I am. I wear iron and my eyes light up like fire.
I dare you to say something, do something so I can show you what I'm made of
Go on, give it a try.

For a moment, just close your eyes
Cancel out everything around and just breathe, try to remember what the ocean sounds like
Let the air around consume you
Take a deep breathe and let everyhting go
Imagine you are walking on water that's very shallow
Imagine breathing in crisp fresh air through your nose
Let the wind brush against your fingertips and face

Broken Smiles and empty eyes
Shattered HEARTS and hollow lives
Put on your mask prepare your lies
they'll never see through your
Disguise

I am invincible to society
I am the one who wears a dollface
Smile when it seems right
I have talents no one see's
But I do have someone who loves me
Falling down is easy, getting up is hard
I'm afraid to shoe them who I am.
I don't belong, I can see it in there faces
No need to hide, you can't break me

It seems as though i'm feeling for something that isn't there
I grab it but it runs away, I don't know how to catch up, but then it turns around and laughs at me like i'm a silly little girl. IT=LOVE

I'm a wolf without it's pack
I'm alone and I can't turn back
I loved you, but you wouldn't love me
What happened? What did you see when you saw me? I know what I saw: fear, anger, and weakness of me

Keeping your mouth shut
let's people think you are a fool
but opening your mouth also proves it

Pulchritudious

(the setting in the very beginning is a beach, with a sunset. After reading,  then next is a flower feild)



She sits with her rich blonde hair, reflecting in the sun covering just enough of the right side of the face. The wind smoothly picks it up and tossing it, allowing it to move with no resistance. Her skin looks peachy with a faint glow. Sparkles in her eyes, with a dash of blue almost the color of the sea or darker. Her stance is that of a an angel. Her smell is sweet like honey, and a small hint of apple. The dress she wears sits elegantly on her, fitting her curves,  a nice hint of blue, sparkles to even flow through out. Her feet lay even on the sand, between her tiny toes. Her face is covered with the hands of shame and guilt. Sadness hovers over her heart like stormy clounds over a field of flowers. But her smile is bigger than anything, and her laugh, oh her laugh is small and faint, coming out almost effortlessly. Giving off alot of who she is. Afraid to touch the purity of water itself, but isn't scared to jump and fly like a bird through the night. Heart beat at an even pulse. Laying peacefully on the bed of grass, looking up  and closes her eyes softly, there she goes. Asleep.

I build my walls but you break them down
I put my hands up but you bring them down 
I push you away but you keep running back
Why? You don't deserve me, I'm a mess, i confess, I can't let you see this
It's not who I really am, you deserve better

The judge's think of military brat as always rich, get what they want, and never get in trouble. In fact, that is all wrong, at least for me. I'm a marine corps family, so I can say that. I've been to 9 different schools and I've moved around 6 times. Yeah its fun, but you become strong, leaving behind the one's you love and at first it hurts but then you get used to it. Like numbness settling in and you forget what it feels like to have hurt. I guess that's why most people feel offended when I don't talk to them. Cant help it, I was born into a military family. Besides, Marine's are the best people.

I didn't know how much I meant to you entirely, but everyday goes by and I lose my myself when I cant hear from you. You are my other half and I said " I am not giving you a third chance", maybe I wasn't thinking all the way through. After 5 years of hardship, distrust, love, pain, patience, we are still here for each other after that. That is a miracle because most people give up on the people we are. Everytime I see the love in your eyes, I feel the protection in your arms and I sense the 'wow' in your voice of having the honor of being my best friend. I am still in love with you, always will be and that is permanent

Life is a tune, you want to hear a melody
Hit the right notes and you can get a beat going
Something that sounds all right
And you don't want to stop
But then you hit the wrong note
The melody doesn't sound so good
The more wrong notes you hit
The more you don't want to hear it

Behind this smile
Are the tears of an unsaved
I put on a show 
She tries to help
They both do
But my Monster will get the best of them
What is beautiful?
Living a life that isn't mine
Growing into the skin
Her color is fading
No more rainbows
Words held in like a safe
I'm secretly made of iron

You come when I sleep
Only to leave me in misery
You tell me you will be back
The red glow in your eyes, I see the Evil
You call me the Devils Angel
Hands grab at me, where do I run?
Where are you coming from
My words bounce off of you
Not a single dent
You look into my future and see my weakness
Don't hurt me, he deserves to live
I'll sacrifice my life
After, I hope you are a lie

I'm not fragile, but I'm not weak
I'm in between
I'm not the definition of perfect, in fact, I'm far from that
I feel like a glass doll, to can see through me
My scars are on the line
Feel free to add more
I wish my problems were like a hookah pin, breathe them in, then within seconds they disappear

When you feel like giving up, and wanting to just drop everything you work for, don't. Each door that you open has a million possibilities. Everything is sour before it turns and tastes sweet. The wound has to burn and sting before it heals. Put one foot in front of the other and keep walking until you decide to run for it. Every choice has a consequence, good or bad, but don't stop striving for it.

[Verse 1:]
Take a look past our innocence, take a step back to yesterday
When life would move slower, we would never grow up
All we knew that love was for when we're older
Anything could happen, secretly imagine
They could never tear us apart too young to fall

[Chorus:]
This is our story that we could take back some day
Our lonely glory that we could get back they say
This is our story that we could take back some day
Our hope if only that we could take back (some day [x7])
That we could take back some (day [x9])

[Instrumental]

[Chorus:]
This is our story that we could take back some day
Our lonely glory that we could get back they say
This is our story that we could get back some day
Our hope if only that we could take back some

[Verse 2:]
Take a look past our innocence, take a step back to yesterday
When life would move slower, we would never grow up
All we knew that love was for when we're older
Anything could happen, secretly imagine
They could never tear us apart too young to fall

[Chorus:]
This is our story that we could get back some day
Our lonely glory that we could get back they say
This is our story that we could take back some day
Our hope if only that we could take back (some day [x7])
We could take back some (day [x9])

[Instrumental]

[Chorus:]
This is our story that we could take back some day
Our lonely glory that we could get back they say
This is our story that we could take back some day
Our hope if only that we could take back some

Does it always end like this?
We meet, we talk, we flirt, we date, and then break-up.  
It's more of like a **** up
Times 20, and you can't fix it up
I was young, but you seemed to be fun
Nice, gentle, I couldn't see your true intentions
But each appraoch was a new hello invention
You never had the guts to make a confetion
I thought it was love
Because you said it back
Grabbing my hand
Telling me I'm beautiful
I was on cloud 9
Until one night, 1 fight fight turned into 5
Him: what's  wrong?!? You act like I hurt you?
Me: I'm not ready, I can't 

Grabbing my wrist and pulling me forward was a bad idea, one forced kissed turned into 4
You closed and locked the door
Layed me on the floor
And couldn't help but go for four little words and a  question mark
"will you **** me?"

Floating in my dreams
Singing in my head 
Dancing in the rain
Running in mud
Screaming to feel free
Loving to be me
Writing passionitly
Rebel at night
Winning my own fight
Xbox all night
Living until I die

Tell me your favorite video game if you have one, mine is The Last Of Us, mainly because I can relate to Ellie, she is strong, and can manage to be funny sometimes.

You're Romeo and I'm Juliet
You are a Montegue and I'm a Capulet
I fell for you, when we first met
Though forbidden to see you, I still fled
My dad kept me away, and that hurt in many ways
He didn't see you from the inside out
He judged a book by it's cover
I explained to him you were different, because he didn't want to hear it
He saw the look in my eyes
The fire of fear of losing you
Losing you was too much
But I'm no longer 10, I'm 17 who is madly in love with my boyfreind and nothing can change that. I might be a scratched up Diamond, but as long as I still have my shine, I'm alright

I am like a rose, I need light to grow and water to feel nourished, but without sunlight, I die, and I'm worthless

Close the curtain
I'm done showing you ghost of me
obviously you can't think no further
I will never come to find you as my need
I poured my soul into your hands
and then you go and stab it
your heart must have lost color
and now you want mine

I wish to walk into a field of grass
Running my fingers through the tips, 
I wish to take long walks on the beach
And watching the sunset laying in the sand
I want to have picnics in the grass, where it's calm, listening to the birds chirp, and the leaves bristle against eachother, while I sip tea
Walking along the ocean line and smelling the ocean