Could this hurt get any worse? Could I find the worst way to get away with words that are too harsh to say, but mean the most to me in every way? Could I sway a nation with my writings? Could I come out of hiding and stop the lying and end the constant fighting? Speak my mind with a peace of mind knowing I can sleep at night without constant fright of my fear of heights, or would I die knowing that I tried and I went out defending what was right?
Well, let me speak and I'll show you each that with power comes responsibility and that words from anyone mean more than you think.

It's like
as we grow
older
we lose the
unicity and uniqueness
that made us
who we claim to
be
Like drowning
in water
we die from the
thing that keeps us
*Alive.

I'll be okay.
Even it I can't change your mind.
I'll be alright.

I think differently; that's an issue. If I thought the same I wouldn't write I miss you, it'd be I hate you like I'm supposed to. But I can't which ***** and maybe it's too much or too soon to say we had it rough. Because together nothing and no one could touch us. Like the world couldn't get me,without you is like it's against me. Stupid us, silly me, pretty you. I trusted you, and you left Kitten with hell of a job to do. Broken glass; that can't be ever the same. This ******* mess you made.

I did move on
Doesn't mean
I don't hate you
Just because
I still love you

Who are we without
the final piece that
complicates our breathing
and
completes us
completely?

You've forgotten me now haven't you? You've lost my taste haven't you?

Alright forget it. I'm winning this battle of what's written. I could care less for how careless you've been with my love and abuse the way I'm smitten by the way our hands are fitting. I'm at wits end and it seems like it worsens when I see you; it's a curse and I can't help but be hurt, but wouldn't you too if you knew that every chance you took to make a glance and look my way would make me who I'd like to be? Me without you is a totally different thing from you without me, because one's alright and ones okay; Ones fine and the other won't say; one is her and the other is me.
But really, it's truly okay to exclaim these fluorescent thoughts that can be said as dark as night or bright as the day.

It's hard to forget those eyes so big and bright.
It's hard to forget the hair so soft and glowing in moon light.
It's hard to forget.
Or maybe it's because you already have that I can't.
Because it was too easy for you.
Easier than it should've been.

Why do you still resent me? Why judge me on my past deeds? I know it's all about who remembers, but no one remembers me. Why do I still have feelings? Why do I still write these? Not like anyone will notice, the way that my smile bleeds.

If you're listening
the way you say you are
why haven't you heard
me calling out your name
like a wolf calls out to the moon?

I come home and I load up Call of Duty
The title screen is so welcoming
It's the only place I feel at peace
Even with all the bullets shooting at me
My Xbox is my only stress relief
It helps me stay awake and think
Because I would give anything
To not fall again and just get some sleep
And I keep thinking constantly
That maybe tonight I won't be so week
But that's all I am, yeah that's me
I'll fight these well known enemies
Maybe if I can't beat my demons I'll beat the game
And get my final killcam with a 2.77 K/D

So how long has it been since it's stopped? Since I've been disgusted by rain drops? It's almost as if we all stopped breathing, and for a second teenagers stopped breading. It's almost as if we all stopped screaming and for a while we all stopped cheating. So how long will this go on before we start needing this ever lasting feeling of real things? No, the world isn't perfect, but you need to give it a chance, so don't stop caring or it'll be out of your hands.

So how long has it been since I've stopped fighting? Since I've been distraught from my writings? It's almost as if the world stopped turning, and for a second we all stopped hurting. It's almost as if adults were finally taught the lessons we've been learning, and for a minute our hearts stopped yearning. But is it plausible? That maybe the world isn't as colossal as the fossils and we just turned the impossible to possible?

*Only if you put your mind to it

If I'm sick please be my remedy
If it's music please be my harmony
And baby please if you see my on the street
Don't smile near me
Because I'll fall in love again

we should write some sad
songs together
maybe cry until
it feels all better
I know it hurts now
but I'll kiss your wounds
sure your scars will stay
that you always knew
You will be okay
if you let my words
show you the kindness
that your lips deserve

(I) s this really all that's left?
(C) an I get out as a thinker with a pen?
(A) m I worth the trouble in the end?
(L) ife seems not to think so,
(L) iving the way I do
(I) s it really all that wrong?
(T) o fight a feeling for this long
(V) engance will be mine I swear
(E) ven if all along I cared
(N) ow you've tipped the edge
(T) onight as I hang above my bed
(I) s it going to be enough to turn your head
(N) ow that I am dead
(G) uess not, you never saw your bad
(S) o guess what?
(I) am not mad
(N) ever have been
(C) ause I care too much
(E) ven now that I no longer breathe
(Y) ou still hate me
(O) ut of sight, can you see
(U) nderneath all the skin of me
(W) hat if I peeled it back for you
(O) nce just so you could look
(N) ever again
(T) ill you
(L) ook into the world that you shook
(I) 'm still here and ready to fight at your command
(S) till ready to move the dust, dirt and the sand
(T) his night might just be my last stand
(E) ven though I know
(N) ever again will I be yours

*But that's just my crying right?

No, a couple sad songs never hurt anyone
Just let the pain go to know that somewhere
Someone was having the same bad run
But they have hurt me, and that's just not fair
I don't think it's real, no it can't be
A bag a of pills, how could this be me?
I don't deserve this, what have I done?
What the hell is this, what have I done?

No, a couple sad songs never hurt anyone
But if you think about it, it's only time
Until we have to say goodbye to this beauteous sun
I guess no one'll ever know that it used to be mine
This can't be real, I used to own these stars
I don't know how to feel, with broken fingers and hearts
Do I deserve this, I think I might
What the hell is this, this can't be right

Yeah, a couple sad songs have hurt me
But that's okay, because I know what I've done
I mean I know I deserve it, but what should I see
When I'm blind and I'm the only one
I know it's real, and I may not have wanted it
But I won't heal, and this is just what I got it's
what I deserve, and I get it now
I still don't know what I did, but this is how I get out

I'm watching all these people disappear. The people who are left, know their time is near. No matter how much they scream, the music is all I hear. Some yell as they leave, but it's all a whisper to me. Some just quietly exit as they accept defeat. Why is it a defeat you ask? Well, when they walk in they will have to do the homework that's on their backs.

It's hard to think of those eyes
covered by tears when you cry
It's hard to imagine these stories
of losing a loved piece of family

Big country brown or emerald green, you walk into a room with a smile shining. So happy, and you deserve to be. I can't imagine what would happen if you would show how you're feeling. Your family has a missing piece. It can never be filled and for that I'm sorry, but I'll be your shoulder to cry on when you need.

No matter what it's about. I've known you all my life and I'd love to help you now.

Who do these boys think they are? They're just little kids playing with bigger cars. I don't know what it is about girls with jocks. It's like they go after jerks, and are surprised that all they want is for you to jump on their.. Well... I know you aren't like them, but your track record with boys shows that they're bad boys. But look, it's not your fault. You trusted them and they used it to gain control of your walls. Once they were in they broke your heart. Then they open and close them like floodgates. When they leave, they leave them stronger. Now it's a little to late for you to trust anyone any longer.

The woman you "love" should be on a pedestal. She should be treated like a princess; Celestial. I haven't read your story, and that's true. But if you gave me the book to read, I would love to. Don't let my words sound offensive, when in fact they're meant to be candy. Sweater than a glass of green tea. Just like your personality.

I know the feeling of numbness. But a blade to the wrist or the waste is waste of paint when you could bleed red on a canvas. Now you don't have to a painter. My canvas is empty white notepad with paper. I know you can get through this depression, if not now then later. It's okay to fall down and see the grass on the other side be greener. Please don't quit now when your fall is just a fumble. You can recover. It's okay to feel like you're drowning in a little brown puddle. Even if you feel like you're further under. You just need a little help, that's all. Not some pills just a nice person to say, "Hello." Well, here's my hand, and I'll turn your sad blue to a nice bright yellow. Don't you see it? I've just wrote you a rainbow in one verse. Your canvas can be anything or anyone. Show your emotions while you're young. You can draw pictures, you can write songs. You can make music, or play it loud until dawn. Punk all day and country all night is what I do. You can join me if you want, but no matter what I support you.

I care about you, I truly do. Please don't let my fowl language, my bad humor and words distract you. So get your hair all soft and frizzy, be your own style. And I'll be here for you, with or without that wonderful smile.

Life is a game you play and not one you can win. You can't just lose your life and start all over again. You'll be gone, yes away from all the pain. But imagine a world where we all feel the same. It's not that hard to picture when that's reality. The truth is most of us know how you feel, even me. Yes we get that you hurt, and I know you seem hopeless. But if you just hold on it will get better, I know this. I've seen it happen, and even if it won't come for me. I'll hold on 'till all my bones break, cause that's who I am. That's me.

One of these days, this disease will take you over. You'll finally go from a drunken stupor to secluded sober. I don't know what I fear more, your elegant words of wisdom, or the lies I see between them. "I can stop anytime I like, but that is not today. Now how about you get on your bike and go the **** away." I hoped that you'd listen and I'd hoped you'd see exactly what your doing to this family. I wanted you to change you, not this disease. "Why won't you listen to me? Open up your eyes! Please!" You'll never catch on with your eyes closed. I know that these choices are your own, and I have seen the holes, so let me be a filler. I’m sorry, but if by now you haven't found a cure, open up your heart, I'll be your painkiller.

I wrote all of these little words for you
but without them I don't know what I'd do
because now that I've lost you
I'm losing these too.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

Take my breath from me
Take it all and then leave me
I'll let you do all that you want to me
But don't pretend that It's happy
It's not okay, thanks for asking though
It's hard to say you sir are an *******
But it's just me, and I'm nothing special

So I'm sorry your betrayal isn't enough
I'm sorry your fairy tale was
But mostly I'm sorry that I let you

It's okay, I don't even look anymore
It's okay, I won't even speak again
Since I can't replace what you took
Well, I shouldn't even be writing this then
Should I?
No, even you can't control me
But since you know me, you know I'll let you

So I'm sorry I wasn't perfect growing up
I'm sorry that you got everything you want
But mostly I'm sorry I let you

Now, I know it's nothing I could help
But deep down I told myself
that when you finally break down
I will be the only one who isn't around
It's kind of sad to think about
Do you deserve it?
Of course you do for all the people that you've been hurting
me included
But it wouldn't make me any better than you
would it?
No, I would be worse than
I would be cursed then
when I finally found something good I would lose them
because then I would deserve it
So right here, I'm ending this endless cycle
I'll tell you what I'll do
I'll forget you as soon as I forgive you
Because I know that you love him
And I'm only sorry I let you

Oooooh

Don't be sorry, I did it to me
Blades could only reach my skin deep
But only some can get through
And I'm sorry I let you

Okay, you started this. I'll open up. I guess I'll get first move.

I'll move my pawn to G-4 and you'll counter with a horse. Face to face they'll battle until what's mine is finally yours. Pawn from F-2 to F-3, now there's no way your knight is getting past me. Next you take my queen, and I go from a king to a man. It's like comparing *Kings to Castles. Which has a better move span? Not like movement, but in strategy. Now see, you're like a white knight and I'm a black castle. I'm a pawn who got strong so he wouldn't have to take **** from *******. The world doesn't revolve around, this is a life that can work without you and I can make it all happen if you put me in the wrong mood. I'm more powerful than you could fully comprehend. You can threaten me and show off all you want, we know how this'll end. Try not to copy me, and do or say the exact same thing. I'll get my queen back, before my pawn takes your king.

You're right, I'm not a person. My mama always said, "Don't show your emotions. Don't disrupt their commotion. This corrupt world'll show 'em that a little explosion can cause a big fire, and a little liar can bring the flames higher." I'm not as dumb as I look. I refuse to conform even when my world shook I refuse to be the norm, so am I Captain Hook and you're my Peter Pan? But's the difference between a bandit and a crook? Oh yeah, it's my hand I'll be what you made me to be. I'll be what I used to be, but trust me that you will not be the hero of this story. Now, if you didn't read carefully, turn right back around, because if you didn't figure it out by now, there'll be a hint of doubt. Trust me, even if I've got my head in the clouds, I can promise you right now that I have both of my feet on the ground, and if you get me to speak up it'll be the last sound you'll ever hear.

I'm about to explode on someone close to me. I'm about to be as good to you as you were to me. I'm so close to an disastrous end. My sword is a pen and I'm about to slay a dragon and fend off my demons and knowing me I'll fight 'till the end because I can't stand to give up or give in no matter if this is a fighting I will be winning. Get it? I won't stay another night inside my head because I'm so sick of feeling like my body is made of lead. I just sink deeper into this depressive state like a rock to water. No matter what I feel like I know that someone has it harder. Like some father who's worried a boy'll knock-up his daughter. I'm sorry that you can't handle what your friends think of me, so you'd rather be a martyr to a cause that isn't even worth the cost you'll pay. I know the games you'll play. Watch. She'll ignore you and you'll act sad so she'll feel bad and look at that, you got her attention back. You'll memorize all the little bad things they do. Even if it's an accident and no one cares, except for you. I'll watch from the sideline as you continue to hurt them. You'll eventually run out of pawns for your sick game of *******. We all know this nice act of yours is just a diversion. I don't know how they keep falling for your story. It's like Marley and me; the **** version. So when you're done and finally end up alone, I won't be lonely. I'll sit at home with my wife, Trinity, Jacob and Jamie.

So let's pretend that my personality wasn't crap
That maybe I wasn't so attracted to poems and rap
Pretend I wasn't forced to vent my feelings to a paper and pen
That maybe I could speak to others without caving in
I'm like a house of cards, and you see the grin on my face
You let out your last breath and watch it all fade
Into the darkness, my soul floats away
And I'm so sick of these creatures and that I even have to say
"These words are my own on all these letters I've made"
So let's pretend that I could help who I am
Let's pretend I even knew who I was
But it all really disgusts me because
These people aren't who they claim to be
I don't say who what I am, because I don't even know me
I don't know what they hell I'm made of
They say it's water and blood, but which one do I trust?
With water I survive, but I'll need it like an addiction
But with blood, I'll survive, but I'll create another victim
And I'm so sick of this constant circle of doubt
I don't want to be another lost soul, how do I get out?

Sometimes when I'm alone
I dream that I'm at home
And maybe one day I'll find where I belong
If my thoughts start to scream
I'll show you just what they mean
With scars amongst me, I know where I went wrong

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

I'll show you just who I am
What truly makes a man
Not just another pathetic human being
You make me think I'm broken
But you make me think that I'm useless
So how can you claim you cared at all for me

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

You don't deserve to live another day.
You don't deserve to see me again.
Never.

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

I don’t think I can explain my thoughts in this little amount of time. I’m so sick of giving my time to give a piece of my mind to these people who don’t even read between the lines. I mean, I’m not a boy who writes the same old ****. Every single day I write about a new topic, and now my candles lit and I’m about to light this wick on my brain like a dynamite stick. Today, you’ll be another outlet for me to vent *******. This’ll be as straight forward as it gets. *******. That’s it.

A human only means as much as their monetary value.

You can survive. You don't have to die. You just gotta believe in yourself to avoid your timely demise. Because what you're feeling can't be helped. I know you wouldn't wish it upon anybody else, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

You know that I'm right. You can pretend all like. Even if it isn't happening to you, doesn't mean I'm out of sight, and out of mind. When it finally comes around, I will be the only one to make a sound, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

"I'm the only one who gives a **** about you."
LIAR

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

Even if tonight I can't sleep.
I know you're a wreck without me.
You pushed me away.
It's your fault.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

As you know, I come from an emotional, dysfunctional delusion
A sort of internal, infernal, disowning confusion
This pain is sempiternal, but I'm a dynamite with the fuse lit
I’m not gonna complain again, cause that’d be useless
I mean it’s not like she’d ever hear the words that I say it's
As if I never spoke them, oh god I'm nuisance

I'm so pessimistic
It's really pathetic
To watch me **** myself over a few sad sentences
I'm so narcissistic
It's really poetic
To tie the knots on my noose with my own words

Before I die though
I'll go on the aggressive
With some passive resistance
Because I'm honestly quite sick of all this constant *******
Call me Ghandi and I'll be quick to dismiss it
Unlike him, I know when I'm through being messed with
And I don't let people step on me like I'm a rug on their doorstep
Unlike me, he's not over possessive
And people didn't call him out for being over obsessive
But we both fight for what we think is right
Except he teaches on the lesson
While I'm kind of offensive
And the amount of times I swear is a little over excessive
But It helps get the point across to these ******* thick headed dimwits
So I can see how I'm not one they'd be impressed with
You know who you are when I'm this far on the defensive
I'm just a little over protective
There's no limit to how much I can stress it
You'd be my way too if you were looking from my perspective.
Because what if all of the sudden
Like a flame in the kitchen
Something you thought was normal grew into something that isn't
Because they only listen
When there is no way of saving
And only when you die do they even look what you've written
Poem after song and song after poem
I'm so sick of all these words unspoken
But I'll let out all my thoughts and that is a promise
So look me in the eyes and I'll be honest

You’re the reason that I daydream
Because you’re the reason that I can’t sleep
And I just can’t help myself
When this old comfy bed becomes a cell

When I lay awake at night
With both of my eyes open wide

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in shadows

They wonder what it’s like
To see shadows where there should be light
Like crystals to the mid-day sun
I could shine bright and I’d still be dull

As I lay awake tonight
With both of my eyes open wide

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in the shadows

Tomorrow I hope I’ll be fine
I’m still searching for my peace of mind
Maybe if I get some rest tonight
I’ll see it was right in front of my eyes

Don’t think about it for too long
This might start to look like a love song

Sorry, but I’m too lost for you to find
Pal, I’m sorry for being so blind

Why are you the only one I see
When you aren’t even lying next to me
And even if I know
I’ll keep searching in the shadows

I know now, I do miss you when you’re gone.

It's up to us to make the first step
To be the change we wish to see
So please forgive me
If I choose to yell when I speak
Because I believe that only with force
Can we teach each other
The world is not as scary as you think

I don't think you'll ever get the reasons that I stayed
I don't think you'll comprehend the decisions I have made
Sure I have taken hits, but as you see I've survived
So I refuse to fall down now and say that I have died
I'm so one sided when it really counts
And it's just a habit that I can't break now
I'd say it all, if I only knew how
And if I spoke, you wouldn't hear a sound
So if I decided this'd be my last?
How fast would you get here to make today last?

You sat there and laughed at every joke I told. I smiled with when I saw the crinkling of your nose. I'm surprised that I was able to talk with my stomach full of roses. I can't write angrily anymore. Now I just sit upstairs alone and lock my door. Maybe one day I'll use up all the air in here. You can't scare me, I've got nothing to fear. Nothing to lose. No one around to loosen the noose I tied myself to hang from the roof, but I can't stand the sight of you. The one in the reflection. I see myself by day and night, as a constant contradiction with a worsening condition of my overwhelming confliction of emotion. It ***** that I hold on to every word you say. Because no matter who it is, you'll treat the next one the same way. So let me be the next one, cause you're the only one I wanted today.

No, I'm not the way I used to be, and I never will be again. So **** it all when I have is some friends, and I never understood why I wanted them then, but now that I have them I'll do what I can to never be lonely again. I'm afraid. You know what I'm thinking. Destroy these thoughts with a bullet through the brain like Lincoln and maybe then people would look at what I've written, these hard hitting second meanings. You think all I write about is my heart breaking, aching and writhing pain. Rage is only a second to a deeper thought.

I walked upon broken glass to prove myself to thee, cause if I can’t then who the **** would wanna believe? Someone as young as me. Someone as dumb as me. You tried to show me who to be. I shattered the mirror and told him he’s what I didn’t need. I got you down on both knees, you're begging me please. I shouted out I’m hungry. Lets feast. Let go of the beast and I let him eat. I’ll separate your bones from the meat. The hearts from the weak. Now you’ve planted a seed in me, and it exceeds all I thought I could handle of misery. It just keeps growing as it consumes me. And if you didn’t see it takes a keen eye to see, and I'll get hurt again as long as I continue to breathe. But my eyes as bright as the stars I see. But who else but me could see the emptiness between. I still got some fight left, but I’ll go down eventually. Softly I'll say as I fall asleep, “I’d do it all again, just you wait and see."

I’ve never felt this nervous.
I swear it’s never happened like this before.
I just wanted it to be perfect.
I can’t even think straight anymore.
I can’t help but be angry.
It’s just who I have grown to be.
And I hope you don’t blame me.
For holding in the things that I never say.

This is the only time that I won’t have the strength
But tomorrow I know that I’ll be able to have faith
I know that if I can’t then I will never get away

Tonight I will give way
It’s who I am today

It’s just another night.
And I’ll live through it I swear.
But this isn’t your burden.
And I’d never give it to you to bare.
Maybe I’ll hold it all in.
But maybe this a little too much.
I know I’ll let it out without thinking.
It’s just another reason that I am afraid

This won’t be the last time that I won’t get to sleep.
Never again will I be the only one that nobody needs.
I’m breaking out of this shell where I’ll finally be free.

Tonight I can not say
That I am okay

I can’t help but be who I am
And I can’t stand these facts
but I will accept them
I know I’ll never get those nights back

I won’t fight these words you whisper
I know that they are true.
But why are you telling me
When I’d never do this to you.
I won’t argue my opinion
I won’t swim in shallow seas
You’ll never know the secrets I have hidden
If we never speak.
I’ll let these pictures on my walls
And these plastic heart
Stain my memories on my arms
A little blood never hurt no one.

I’m not the only one to have self-inflicted scars
But at least I know that they don’t make us who we are
I can’t let my demons go, but smiling is a start

You’ll never find a heart like me
It’s who I am today

Let’s pick up where we left off. With one intact and one broken heart. Where he picked you up, and then dropped you off. But I don’t think you understand, just what I have lost. Don’t expect to get helping hand if you guess wrong. I just wanted somewhere where we would all get along, and you just wanted somewhere where you belonged. I must have made you strong. Because now you expected something a little more. I trusted you so much, I ripped the door of my mind from it’s hinges. And I left it open so you could get in it. But it’s none of your business to worry about how much time I got, who I spend it with. But if you wanna start a civil war over something stupid, good luck with that. I just wish you’d see what I stand. I’m only human, but once I start yelling get the **** back. I’m sorry. I couldn’t say it anymore sincere. Just give me space. Back the **** up and get out of my face. I warned you not to get close to me-I’m a walking ****** case. You don’t wanna be friends? Fine, it’s about time I cut my loose ends. But what ***** is that since then, for months on end, you’re all I could think about. But just when I thought you were gone, you came back and I wrote you this song.

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I could think of any better day, then when we just slept and didn’t have a single word to say. The smile I wrote on your face was just the beginning. And every time you saw your beautiful face, it was just the best thing. And even at six in the morning I can’t help think of words I never got to say. I’m sorry for everything that I said. I’m just a little messed up in my head. I can’t stand these empty lies anymore. I’ve got to tell the truth before I walk out the door. I’ve had it with doing what we must. Because we all know that it causes us to combust. You say it’s for the best, of the rest. But what about me? We’ve come too far, dealt with to much, fell too far in love, to let you just, self destruct. That night, I had enough. I couldn’t understand why you loved-, someone you never met. I wanted to be the reason you were alive, not someone who’s music you listen to when you were upset. I I understand now, how he kept you alive. But I regret it all now I know better than to talk to you now though, because what good would it get? But every day that passes by, I’m losing myself bit-by-bit. I wish that I could rewind just a little while, to change my past ways and erase this sorrow. Because I love you more than than these last days and less than I will tomorrow. Don’t worry, I’m not blaming you. I know it was my fault. I just don’t know what to do about the abuse I give myself. Well, I guess this is the last thing I can do, because…

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I was just a lucky boy I guess, I finally found the one. I was just another guest in this house that she made for one.

I know you don’t want to speak. But that’s what’s killing me. I miss the soft tone of your voice. I refuse to move on from you and I don’t know why. Because I just want to talk to you forever and ever. And never hear again, the words, Good-…..

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws

A bunch of pawns in a huge game of chess. I'm a king while you're just like the rest. You got the best of me-that's cool. Won't happen again when my rook takes castle. Look, ******* you may not understand. I've finally had enough man, this is my plan. I've finally stopped my whining, It got out of hand. This king is finally ready to give his commands. And I demand that you release you grip, before **** hits the fan.

Tonight, with stars refusing to shine, all I can think of is at one point they were all mine. What a lovely night to hold the knife and leave the light on. End my life with the words of a love song. Yesterday, with my stars dimmed in the dark. My scars went black, and so did my heart. I punched a wall so I could watch my hands bleed. I know you don't want me, but you're who I need. Tomorrow, when my stars all fade away, I know you'll stand at the head of my grave. I know that you won't cry, and you won't even miss me. Even if I die, you'll get over me quickly

This world is a dream with a nightmare underneath. Underneath the hair and head are thoughts of far worse than anything I ever conversed, even when I shared my darkest secrets in your bed. Because who would talk to someone who said they would always be there and then did a reverse? Shunned by the very people who faked the affection that we so rightfully deserve. I've had it done to me by family and friends like I'm under a constant curse. I think that maybe this time it'll be different but it only gets worse. These thoughts are finally getting through the cracks and I'll try as hard as I can to get my words back. I can't hold them all in my hands and you'll choke on them if they ever leave my mouth. This whole thing is about to go south and create doubt of the very thing you sought out. You wanted me to tell you how I feel. Well here it goes: What's the big deal? Who cares what I think or what I say? I'm just another boy on another ordinary day. I can't write poems and I can't sing songs. I can't play guitar and I can't run that long. I'm not another athlete. I'm not the smartest kid. I don't have the best hair. And I can't I'm just another speck along the face of the planet. So who the **** would care if I let myself sink into the dirt to relive the hurt and meet the granite.