Asominate

Asominate Mar 2019

Once again
Here we go
We're playing the blame game
You can't seem
To let go
So it is all the same
Conclusions
But you don't know
Which path down where it came
So, ofcourse I am blamed
The outcome never change

I can never seem to be acknowledged, even when they're in the wrong

#bllame #game #blamegame #asominate #lose #loser

Asominate Mar 2019

You and Me

Two of a kind
That's who we are
I'm the birth,
You're the death
Of a universal star

You're not that broken

#asominate #you #me

Asominate Mar 2019

Me and You

I am not that broken
Untreated, but I will be fine
I'm scared now I've spoken
You won't again come and be mine

You had to cut the strings
You have made me unsound
You're the reason I sing
My dopamine won't go down

Education isn't as easy
Like those days that you remained with me
They think I act this, can't help I'm a misfit
Read between the lines, are my actions that cryptic?

For years I've ignored the pain and hurt
I cry for help but it has never worked
I'm a mechanical malfunction put among them, humanity
I don't know for how long I can stand their profanity.

Two of a kind

#asominate #me #you

Asominate Feb 2019

Barbed Wire

Embrace me tightly
Until I can't breathe
Until all the love I have for you recedes

Pinch my cheek
To draw red water
To coat your surface
Wear me like decor

Wrap around me
And pierce my lungs
Leave me speechless
From lack of tongue

Become the very air
I respire
And love me as
You're made of barded wire

#wire #suffocating #pierce #asominate #barbedwire

Asominate Feb 2019

Speed

Now it's too late
For me to slow down
Must accept my fate:
The lost will ever be found

All down the drain,
Moments lost in a flash
Pushing limits,
We were bound to crash

No matter how speed
I can never seem
To reach
Where I have to go

No matter how fast
I know it won't last
Because
I've always been too slow

Rolling down the road
You were in my path
You left me roadkill
And it makes you laugh

Carrying my loads
We came in contact
You died on impact
I was still intact

#race #speed #slow #drive #accident #asominate

Asominate Feb 2019

I Can't Stop Part 1

I can’t stop
Another day I starve myself

I can’t stop
Another day I abuse my body

I can’t stop
Another day I tear pieces of my flesh away with nails and teeth

I can’t stop
Another day I lose myself to my voices

I can’t stop
Another day I won’t let myself rest

I can’t stop
Another day I inhale toxic gases

I can’t stop
Another day I write a poem because no one would listen

I can’t stop
Another day I cry and break down, all alone

I can’t stop
Another day I can’t bear my own reflection

I can’t stop
Another day I realise that I’m all Daddy has

I can’t stop
Another day I think about his death

I can’t stop
Another day I claim to be fine

I can’t stop
Another day I sacrifice my being for someone who’s not me

I can’t stop
Another day I scold me for my imperfections

I can’t stop
Another day I give myself the things I deserve

I can’t stop
Another day I feel drawn to a knife’s sharp edge

I can’t stop
Another day I think of falling off a cliff

I can’t stop
Another day I think of the inevitable

I can’t stop
Another day I collapse due to physical and mental exhaustion

I can’t stop
Another day I overwork myself because of expectations

I can’t stop
Another day I wake up to find I’m still alive

I can’t stop
Another day I believe my delusions

I can’t stop
Another day my train of taught halts

I can’t stop
Another day I think of how disappointing I am

I can’t stop
Another day I feel out-of-place

I can’t stop
Another day I wish I wasn’t born

I can’t stop
Another day I try to put you out your misery

I can’t stop
Another day I scare myself

I can’t stop
Another day I use my fists and a wall to inflict damage to my skull

I can’t stop
Another day I enjoy peace in my concussion

I can’t stop
Another day I have an existential crisis

I can’t stop
Another day I wait for my healing

I can’t stop
Another day I wish my heart wasn’t beating

I can’t stop
Because it never stops

Repeat daily

#icantstop #asominate #lifestyle #life #suicide