You laugh
When you are hurt
Because you don't want to cry
It comes so easily
You don't need to try
So you laugh and laugh
Till the pain numbs

Now no one takes you seriously
Even if they see the bruises and burns
They chuckle and say
You live and learn

This is fine
This is what you want
As long as you smile
No one asks questions
So you smile
And smile and smile....

More strife.....
Great, just what I need in my life
Along with this anxiety
That mocks my place in society
Now only if we could add cruelty
Then I will be just fruity

I didn't choose my appearance
But that doesn't stop their abhorrence
I didn't choose my personality
To be such an abnormality

This pain inside
Burns me alive
No way out
I can't even shout
I can only drown
As I break down

Waking up crying
Hoping to get comfort
Only to realize no one's there
As you cry yourself to sleep

Friends before family
Is that what they say?
Is that why you always went with them to play?
While doing your best to keep me away?
Not knowing nor caring you were the only friend and sibling I had?

Going through the motions
Is what I grew to do
It was the only way to cope
Loneliness became a familiar feeling
While smiles became rare

Who I become stems
From where I came from
What I learned, I know
Will still be able to show

Promises are made to be broken
A phrase I knew through and through
When you all proved it true
While the only thing I really wanted
Was someone to talk to

Whisper whisper in my head
Please be silent when I tread

Whisper whisper in my room
Please go away soon

Whisper whisper in my dreams
Please, my mind is tearing at the seams

Whisper whisper everywhere
You know what,I don't even care

Whisper whisper of the dead
Please let me join you instead......

For every word
That went unspoken
For every promise broken
For every moment
Was a precious token


For every tear shed
When the news spread
For all the arguments
That could have been avoided instead
For all the laughter shared
That can never be compared


For every sleepless night
Filled with pain and fright
For every moment
I recall that it is not alright
For all the grief
Left here tonight


For those left behind
Without so much as a whine
All that is left in kind is....
*I'm Sorry

Life is like a maze
With twists and turns
But while while one has treasure around the bend
The other stops at a dead end

Bleeding pain
Screaming rain
Red splashes
As lighting flashes

Sobbing cries
Stormy skies
Thunder bashes
And strawberry gashes

Shallow breathing
Heart slowly beating
Eyes close
As the rain slows

Deafening silence
As the world laments
The loss of innocence

I love you
You hate me
But I know you're just a tease...

I need you
You leave me
But I know you will see....

I have you
You're scared of me
But I know we're meant to be.....

I love you
You love me
I need you
You need me
I have you
You have me..........


**Together for eternity we will be....

Do you see me?
Are you sure?
Do you know how much I hate
And how little I love?
Can you see the scars on my wrist
And in my mind?
No
You don't see me
You see what I want you to see...
And believe what you want to believe....

Eyes wide,
With fear?
Or is it surprise?
I can't tell....
Have I ever been able to?
I don't know
But when you look at me,
With those eyes,
I know I should feel something
Right?
Whether that feeling may be
Anger or sadness,
Or anything else in between
I know I should feel something
But I don't know what...
Or even why....
Why do you look at me this way-
What were we...?
Why does looking at me now bring tears to your eyes?
Why don't I care?
Why should I care?
I don't know you,
I don't know me
I only feel like a....
" "

There was dust,
There was darkness,
There was cruelty,
But there was also a flame
And within this flame lived
Hope,
Kindness,
Love
So much love....
This love wanted to shine
wanted to be seen
wanted to be noticed
The flame forbade them
For fear of being broken
But love couldn't be contained
And love was hurt
Over and over,
Until love locked themselves away;
The flame grew dimmer
Kindness tried to help
But the flame lashed out in fear-
Kindness grew bitter;
The flame grew dimmer,
So dark,
So small,
So alone,
But there was also a spark,
And in this spark
Was Hope-
With hope the spark still lived,
And with it grew courage,
Determination,
Resilience,
The flame grew brighter than ever before,
And love was free to shine even brighter